TTC #2 and turning into a nut job! Part 2!

[BartBaby]

Still ttc. Still nutty. Come join us

Hey all,
Fed up hope your feeling a little better!
Bart- happy birthday to your ds and fx for you!
Muzzy I hope line is stronger next test
How is everyone else?
I am on day 8 ( according to smep it starts now . )
However went to gp and apparently it's only phase 3 fertility treatment we would have to pay for but all explorations to why 3 mcs and any drugs to help would be nhs so that's an up note so now we have a few months of appointments and tests starting wed with dp !
Still feel fed up and I shouldn't as now feel doing something active about it but want to be preggers NOW!
However up note the sun is shining at long last
Hugs to all xxx

Morning all,

Hope you are all well today.
muzzy any darker lines?

That's good dildo re the fertility tests. And know what you mean about doing something about it but also can't be bothered and just want to be pregnant!

So... Am in a bit of a dark place at the mo. I can cry on cue and just want to sleep though whole time. Even the sunny weather hasn't perked me up. I think it's the hormones of the 2 ww to be honest as happened last couple of months too, but put that down to stress at work. If this carries on I do think am going back to the dr for some happy pills as really struggling at the mo. I feel so guilty because I have a totally gorgeous dc so wish I could just get on and appreciate / enjoy him without all this psychotic behaviour!

You ladies are my saving grace. You understand my irrational thinking, nutty behaviour and symptom spotting, excessive POAS action - thank you.

What's making it worse is i have this NCT weekend coming up with all the families I met through DC1. All the others either have #2 or are up the duff. I'm dreading it, absolutely dreading it. I don't want to go. Not sure how well I can put on my happy face and join in the pregnancy chat / how life is or will be with a new born and a toddler. Ugh. Plus af is due on the Tuesday before so will prob be bleeding away and drowning myself in wine . I want dc to get the pox so we can't go - and means he gets pox out the way - is that bad?!?!

Hey ladies!

Muzzy, hope you get a stronger line, kerp us updated?
Bart, hope af doesnt turn up for you, how was ds birthday yesterday? Happy birthday I hope a good day wad had by all!
Fedup, the 2ww us the worst huh! Dont worry, we have all been in that dark place and its not fun, but we are here if you need to completely rant! Lets hope the 2ww goes quick for you! Lets hope your af doesnt turn up, keeping fx here for you. I know what you mean about the pox thing, our ds hasn't had it yet, I went a bit nutty thinking I could have him play with his cousin who had it, then it would be out the waybefore he starts school, then I had to slap myself because I thought to myself, why would I want him to feel poorly! Lol!!! Silly abi I was! We all get a bit like it, give yourself some space, and dont be too hard on yourself! ! Also, if you dont eant to go to NCT then just don't go!
Dildoos, thats fabby news about the fertility tests and progress, I hope it all goes well for you and dp.
Loanna, congratulations, I better your chuffed!

How are we all today? Im cd9 today. Last night my DP and I started the fun bit of babymaking, dtd I am going with just dtd every 3 days, as I dont know when I ov now, as every month recently my cds have been different! ! I dont have opks even though im tempted to buy some cheapies and im not going to temp either, so just going to dtd and hope for the best --
I think ive gone way past the nutty stage and trying to keep it in my head have so much to concentrate on over the next few months,; DS due to start school, possible having to move feeling insecure about that , and now having to try and get a different car as ours is just pants and quite dangerous to drive at times as the electronic power steering keeps failing at the most wrong moments whilst driving along I fear my nuttiness has transferred to obsessing about these things instead now-- ahhhhhhhh phewf, and breath abi!! Sorry, have completely ranted!! I shall go! Hope you all have a good day! :0)

Ok, im going slightly mad now ladies, I started af the saturday before the last sat ( 22nd june) im having a complete dippy moment, which cd does that make me today?? Ive looked at calendar and when I count sat 22nd to Saturday 29th physically, I come up with 8, yet surely thats a week (7days?) Yep now im going nutty!!

abi a week is 7 days but as you count the day af arrives as 1, you will now be on cd10.

fedup take care

dild good that you're getting sorted.

I'm now on cd9 (just behind you abi) and aiming to dtd on Thursday (DH is away for the weekend) and then Sun or Mon (ov should be Tuesday 9th). I just need to tell DH that I'm expecting actions more than once this month

abi 7 days in a week would be saturday to the following friday. Including sat 29th is the 8th day. So today you will be cd10 if af came on the 22nd. Its all very confusing isnt it?! Im sick of dates and numbers and cd's going round in my head! Im going to try not to track anything this month and just dtd for fun when we feel like it. And no opk's. although im sure i will still be constantly looking at the calender

DS had a great birthday thanks and my temp has dropped so im sure af will be here today or tomorrow. Also im in the worst mood today and thats a tell tale sign!

Sorry to hear you are so fed up fedup. abi is right, don't go to the meet up if you don't want to...it sounds like it would be really hard.

No darker line here...I took yesterday's test apart (as you do) and there is a definate line but it is completely colourless! I know there has to be some pink for a bfp so think it was a dud test? This morning a BFN and I feel like AF is nearly here :(
And next month dH is away on business for all of the crucial time!! Maybe a month off will do me good though....I agree all the number counting and date checking is exhausting!

Oooh thanks stone and bart that means I wasnt going completely mad!!

stone hopefully DH will be a bit more forthcoming on the dtd part this month! Fx for you!

bart im fed up of all the dates too! Ive just written the numbers on my calendar and then thats it! I too had a feeling my af was due before it arrived as my temp drops to my base temp a couple of days before my af thats just been! Although I sm hoping your thermometer is completely wrong!!!

Oooh poop muzzy I was really hoping that af wouldnt get you and still secretly hoping she doesnt keep us updated?

Hi ladies!

Muzzy- that's poo! I have everything x for you!

All those in the 2 ww I am feeling for you!

I have dp going to gp for first part of his test wed
On the 12th I have again a 21 day bloods and a swab for horrid diseases , deep joy
However holding hopeful for my first trial with SMEP this month, just got me some clear blue ovulation test sticks 7 in a pack with a pregnancy test too eeeerk how many times can I poas so exciting!
So day 9 today DTD last night , night off tonight woohoo guilt free night off which is nice as sticking to the plan rather than every night and being tired!
What's everyone else trying this month? X

Thanks ladies. I think I'm going to see how I feel the day before and take it from there... It's been a dark day couple of days but starting to feel ok this afternoon.

So we DTD day 6 then every day from day 9 to 14 (pos opk on day 12) then again on day 16. Bit of a marathon for us to be honest!

Think next month I'm SmEP properly (not just at the end!!)

Sorry for the bfn muzzy but it ain't over til that fat evil lady sings. Fx for you.

I think I might go ask for tests soon if I don't get up duffed soon. I think I can get it through my health insurance at work and it will make me feel like I'm doing something constructive rather than sitting about in a horrid dark place feeling totally out of control of the situation. I think dildo has got the right idea!

bart glad your son had a lovely birthday! And fx for no stupid af arrival this month and bfp!

Have a good evening ladies xx

Fed up- I think it will help you then have a date to work too and I see a date as a focus other than a baby although for that ? If you know what I mean? If we focus on a date to help get a baby it may mean the focus on trying for a baby will relax and we will just get pregnant? Yup that sounds as crazy as it is
I hope your dark days are lifted a little these are for you
I am thinking if I fall this month it will be due on dd birthday and would not be ideal so therefore it may happen xx

dildoos hope all the tests go well! What is smep??
fedup you seriously deserve to be up the duff this month with that effort! Fx for you.

Thanks abi...maybe next time hey! Got AF cramps and sure it will be arriving tomorrow....I didn't even buy a test for the morning and that really says something for me!

Muzzy you never know there maybe still hope! Everything crossed !

Smep- sperm meets egg plan
Day 8 start Dtd every other day , start ovulation tests day 10, once get a surge Dtd 3 days running then a day rest then one last go!

However will keep going every 3 days I think then xx

Fedup I'm sorry you're feeling so down. TTC can get you feeling really anxious and getting some counselling is nothing to be ashamed of. Hopefully you'll get your BFP soon and you'll feel much better. My DD was conceived after trying SMEP. If I'm not pregnant this month I will certainly try it again.
I'm still not feeling very pregnant. AF is due on Saturday and I'm praying it won't arrive. I'm a bridesmaid on that day and really don't want a swollen tummy on the day. The only thing that I'm feeling is I have sore nipples. I'll test on Saturday morning to be sure. If not it's champagne for me at the wedding

Good morning
Nin- bridesmaid sounds like a fun day, although fx for bfp Saturday! Double celebration

Day 10 poas - faint line and dark line means not quite ovulating yet but will do again tomorrow but on smep have to DTD tonight

Fed up hoping you don't get to try smep next month

Hope your all well

Xx

I love dildo's logic - think of all the scenarios of why a due date wouldn't be ideal... Then it might happen! Although one cycle (I'm obsessed with looking at potential due dates) and I would have been due Christmas Day! Not ideal but it didnt happen! If I did get preggers this month EDD would be around my mum's birthday.

So I don't know when to test. Although am not feeling hopeful we have our company away days this thurs and Friday and usually involves a drunken event on the thurs and extreme sports on the Friday! Af due on mon or tues... What should I do? So don't think I'm up duffed this month tho.

Although I don't want to go on this nct weekend thing, I'm being looked too to help organise all the food etc. bleurgh. On the plus side, calculations for 25 people will distract me from counting cycle days!

nin hopeful for a bfp on sat! But guess the plus side on bfn is champagne bubbles galore - well lets tell ourselves that! ! I love a good wedding and being a bridesmaid is fun (apart from stressful hen do organisation and if there was a bridezilla!!) bet you look lovely in the BM dress too. X

Well the witch got me during the night. Bang on time and just as i expected.

Not actively trying this month although not stopping it either so im going to try not to count the dates, no opk's, not checking my calender every 2 minutes, no temp taking, and no recording moods and symptoms well im going to try all of this but im not sure how well it will work yet looking forward to my holiday in september and just thinking about all of the positives in not being upduffed when we go.

I will still be lurking though so good luck to all those dtd and in the 2ww

Sorry Bart that the af came
Bloody hideous this ttc lark! X

Hey ladies!

Sorry af got you bart although if it was inevitable this month then its better that the evil witch is on time. Sometimes I think its far worse if she's running a few days late if she is planning to arrive, at least if she is bang on time then dates etc are easier to work out! !

Hope all in the 2ww aren't going to nutty, and hope you get the result you would like!

All those in the dtd stage, fx for the lot of us!! And all waiting to dtd hope the fun times are able to proceed very soon!!

Next dtd for me is tomorrow I think -well I know it is but trying to stay nonchalant about it-- im not sure if this month will be my month, but shall wait and see, although if it is edd would be quite close to our DS I think

How are we all today? x

Sorry to hear that bart. We can endure the 2ww together again next month! No AF but she is defiantly close I reckon! I'm not testing again anyway as an sick of spending all my spare time staring at bloody sticks!

Hello, I've been lurking in this thread a bit as we are trying for #2 and I'm also going a bit mad with it all! May i join you?

Got pg first time for #1 so stupidly though it might be as easy this time round.... I now wish we had started trying earlier but we had a stressful few months with house moves and things and have only felt ready the last few months.

Fedup - all my NCT friends have either had their second or are pregnant too. I understand how you feel!

Really hoping we all get BFPs soon!

piglet welcome to the nutty pages. Sorry that you are here, this ttc stuff is stressful and makes us all a bit crazy (and in my case at the mo, utterly miserable!) but we are all here for each other through it all!

bart so sorry the witch got you this month. And impressed with your ability to see the silver lining! Looking forward to holidays is a good start but til aug for a potential bfp!

Ok, so just went to Boots on way home and cracked when I saw the first response buy one get one free, and sucker for a bargain I thought why not? Help me please not test as I know how shite it is when they come back bfn. I am not even hopeful for this month as you all know but am just obsessed with POAS! 7 days til af due so ridiculous that am even thinking bout it. Help! Don't let me do it!

*still aug for bfp I meant

Fed up go get a stick from garden poas and see if it helps the craving?!
The month your not hopeful is always the month in my theory so test In 7 days
Fx for your not testing early as way to early on any test! I think they say 7 days before missed af just to sell twice the amount!
However all hail the bargain good to grab when you see it as you will need it !
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