TTC #2 and turning into a nut job! Part 2!

[BartBaby]

Still ttc. Still nutty. Come join us

I so want a bfp this month. Losing heart. Losing strength and losing will to try any more. Next month it's a def see what happens as am fed up (hence name!) of ttc and I don't think I can deal with being mental anymore. Any one else feel like this?

Looks like AF has turned up early this month Typical

Once again I won't be able to sort these fertility tests, I am so pissed off

Morning ladies.

talla sorry to hear af got you! Thats frustrating when you're waiting to get tests sorted too. I hope it comes right in the end. Hugz.

I know what you mean fedup its difficult not to get down when its just not happening. I have been feeling low too. I am sure it was never this difficult or upsetting when trying for our DS. But I guess we are all troopers for carrying on and we are certainly amazing to do this despite the knock backs every month. So I guess im trying to say, we should be proud of ourselves really. Bcos we do this, month in, month out and whilst we get down when its not the result we want, we just curse the af witch and pick ourselves up and carry on! ! So feel good about yourselves that we are doing so well!! And all this whilst running a house and looking after our kiddlywinks!!

How is everyone this morning?

Fed up - me too, too much heart ache. For you. Now at gp feel need mental help. Big hugs to you x

7 dpo and not a single symptom! Don't think it's happening this month

Thanks abi and dildo

Dildo - I went to gp and they said I needed counselling After bursting into tears when she asked if i was on the pill before prescribing me antibiotics. then it all came out! But I said I just wanted to be pregnant not talk over and over again about my mc and ttc since. Hope your gp is nice to you. Some are so insensitive whilst others understand how hard it is and want to help.

I like your thinking abi. Needed a bit of a boost. Just find it so hard as most things in life I can control and have managed to make choices about what happens - but not getting pregnant, that's so far out of my control despite doing all the right things every month. Also add doing a job to that list! I have had a really hard time at work recently so that's made it much harder to deal with not being pregnant too - cried on HR the other day. Gosh I have so much style.

So sorry talla I totally feel your pissed offness and disappointment. Although am in the 2ww now, I'm dreading it and af arrival. Big hugs for you x

Hello Ladies, Hope everyone is well. I've just started lurking here again after a few weeks. TTC was a bit non existent for me until start of June when I had my second 28 day cycle after coming of the pill in March. Used OPKs for the first time this this month which were fab. Af due today, no sign yet. just wanted some advice re boots cheapie HPKs. I used one Wed 10dpo and convinced myself that there was a v v v barely there line so tested again the next morning and BFN! Im going to now wait a few days to see if the bitch turns up if. Sorry for the long post x

Welcome loanna i had my non existent v v v faint barely there line yesterday. And now this morning at 10dpo BFN! So i am also waiting for af to turn up now im sure she isnt far away

Hi Bartbaby, is there anything more frustrating than the 2ww? I think mine is due any minute too . Fingers crossed for both of us! x

abi you said it so well.

fedup I've done this too at my gp. She then asked me if I wanted AD

Hi loanna Sorry i don't think I've used a boots one...I got the buy 1 get 1 free first response today. 1 done and a BFN :(
And I've just had pink spotting so think AF is on her way....that and pouring a saucepan of boiling water on my hand has led me to have a good cry!
I think I'm only 9dpo...part of me wishing its implantation but now I think my ov dates were wrong this month anyway. Plus I'm SO premenstrual!

talla did your cat come home?

Hi Muzzy sorry to here about your BFN it may still be too early for a BFP and your spotting may be an early pg symptom, you just never know until af arrives, its so frustrating. Keeping my fingers crossed for you. As I am writing this, I cant actually believe my eyes. I am watching a woman at least 7 months pg smoking and drinking. How could you even think about doing such a thing! Makes me so

loanna my only good reason for af turning up this month is i will be glad to have a few [wines] in the sunshine on holiday in september! Wouldnt dream of doing it pg though...

Its still early days so you never know muzzy im right there with you with the bfn but clinging onto that final bit of hope that its too early for our bfp's to show waiting for af to show her ugly face

I hope everyone else is ok. We have ds minded tonight so were off out for a Thai and a few drinkies

Hey ladies!

Last post before I nod off! Hope everyones fridays have been better than mine! Had a right old emosh day, and snapped at poor DS. Just feel wound up, I guess bcos I now have no control on what's happening with the latest house situation and our car is just pants etc and what with not being able to have control over pg it just all seemed too much today!! Just need to get my head in gear.

Thanks ladies, I posted that tjus morning bcos I just think we are all so fabby for doing what we are doing, we are willing to put our bods selflessly through a lot again, and willing to give our time and love and care to a second little special being and that in itself is amazing. Be proud of yourselves ladies, there aint nothing like us! And if it takes us a little longer to get there then it just shows how bloody determined us mummies can be, we are truly awesome!!

Hopefully those who are in the 2ww will get the BFP, and those dtd will be lucky and those like me who are waiting for af to bugger off will get the chance to start the fun bit of this baby making malarkey! !

Sweet dreams lovely's!

Morning ladies, hope everyone is well. Just thought I would check in as I had my BFP this morning I used first response, the line came up straight away. I'm 13 DPO when I tested at 10 & 11 DPO I had two BFN so Muzzy and Bart hang on in there it could be too soon. Keeping everything crossed for you x

Wow congratulations Loanna

11dpo for me now and going to hold off testing a few days after yesterdays disappointment. But not holding out much hope. But you never know!

Congrats loanna!

I'm only cd 17 and about 4 dpo. Already symptom spotting making things up such as sore boobs, spots, feeling sick and tired, the usual. But do feel a bit negative about this month as been getting my hopes up too much the past few and then that nasty af arrives...

Congrats Loanna! That's great news, good to know there is still some hope.
I'm still testing daily..10dpo and another bfn....I would like to say and mean it that I won't test tomorrow but I know I will!

Thank you everyone I Hope its not too much longer until everyone in this thread gets their BFPs x

I gave in and tested today anyway. Obviously bfn! I didnt even use fmu although i hadnt been for a few hours well it was my last internet cheapy anyway so no more poas for me unless af fails to show. Expecting her somewhere between monday and wednesday. Its ds birthday tomorrow so she doesnt want to bother coming then!

Congratulations loanna we needed another bfp on this thread to noisy morale a bit. Hope we'll ask be joining you soon.
Bart fingers crossed that af won't arrive and you'll get a bfp with fmu the next time you POAS.

I'm not feeling like anything is happening this month. No symptoms at all. AF due in 1 week so maybe I'll dream up something over the next few days

noisy morale = boost morale

Omg still 10 days til af is due and am officially nutty. I spend most of my day symptom spotting but also know these are the same symptoms as I have had last few months so feeling pretty negative about it all. It is such a head f*ck.

I long for my pre ttc sanity. I was actually quite normal then!

Fx bart xx

Another day another test! Have you done one bart?
I thought I saw a v.v. faint line...one of those hold up to the light and squint lines. I think it's there but could be a evap line so I'll test again tomorrow!

I havent tested again yet muzzy !! I think it will only be -ve anyway and its ds birthday today so dont want to be in a pants mood all day but mainly because i have no tests left i hope it is a line for you. Fx it is darker tomorrow.

Thanks fedup and ninu i will keep you all posted when i give in again and poas