TTC #2 and turning into a nut job! Part 2!

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Still ttc. Still nutty. Come join us

pasta we dtd on a cb smiley result and af is here so I'm with you on the tests not been accurate (or my DH swimmers aren't good swimmers iyswim)

dildoo how are you?

Bugger that pasta test tomorrow with the crappy clearblue and first response Tuesday I reckon....sorry this is coming from someone who has been known to poas twice a day from 9dpo....

My false positive line was very thin rather than faint...the line was actually quite dark!

Good evening all,
I cried at my mum today my mum is very sensitive so don't like to do this but I am fed up!
Calling Bourn hall in Cambridge tomorrow as I need to get things straight in my OCD head!
It's a bfn followed by an evil af which are sooooooo heavy I have to take 630mg of iron whilst on, this one however keeps making me feel sick, go pasty white that my dp keeps worrying! Grrrrrrr lady times!!!!
Any way enough self pity !
How are you guys?
Pasta you are more restrained than me I would have done another 20
I love the good news!
Sorry for all the other afs
Any one else used Bourn before? Any advice? Any one recommend the clear blue monitors? I am now officially cycle 29! Xxx

I think you've every right to be upset dildoos I don't think it is self pity at all. Give yourself a break. It sounds like you're having a tough time and we all have a cry sometimes. I sobbed over my blank OPKs and BFNs and I haven't even been trying that long and I'm not a tearful person normally.

I don't think talking it through with Bourne Hall can hurt at all.

Have an un-mumsnet hug. You deserve it.

Thank you pasta.
I think when you want a baby so badly weather it's 1 cycle 50 cycles the disappoinent is soooooo huge , felt bad as dd happened to see I had cried so fibbed and said mummy ill but she hugged loads and said don't worry I love you! Proud moment for my selfless little lady xx

Awh - dildoos that's so sweet of her - she sounds like a lovely little lady. I agree with pasta, you have every right to be upset and you're also feeling physically awful. Look after yourself.

Stone also sorry on arrival of AF - it's so hard when you feel like you've done everything right and it still doesn't happen. At least now you know where you stand.

pasta sounds exciting - hope that line gets a bit more substantial soon.

Well I had to sit on my hands this afternoon and chant 'must not POAS' (in my head anyway - still trying to pretend to DH that I am not remotely nutty).

The facts:

1. We only dtd x1 around ov
2. I don't feel remotely pregnant
3. I feel exactly like I do when AF is about to arrive the next day
4. Although today is officially due day, it's only day 25. Cycle was 25 last month, 24 the month before and 26 the month before that, so not exactly set in stone!

And still...I was tempted. I held strong because I only have 1 test left and hate the feeling of bfn - would have been internally saying 'I told you so'! Not testing tmrw morning either as if AF not there, know it'll show 2 hrs later!

Cool it only takes one, so I will be crossing everything for you! I thrive for hearing loads of bfps on here it seems like there's hope out there xxx

dildoos I know how you feel. I was crying on Saturday and my DS (3 yo) came to give me a hug and than told DH that I was sad. I know for next time (aka next month) that I need to test either early morning or once he's in bed

Stone- I feel for you my lovely , poor children worry so seeing mummy upset hey!
I keep trying to think of positive things to help this month! Any ideas? X

Good luck coolhand. I expect I shall cave and test again first thing.

It sounds as though we all have very lovely DCs to try and keep us sane. DD gave me three of her stickers today which I was very pleased about as she is normally very tight with them. I was less pleased when I was at the gym and realised I'd sat on one and had been running for 40 minutes with a horse stuck to my backside.

Hey all.

Wow, there have been lot's of posts on here since I last looked/commented last night!! I will try not to bore everyone with my long posts!

No hang over ( I don't tend to suffer with those) and also I didn't drink last night in the end!! Have had a sneaky tia maria (Tesco version, budget and all) and cola this evening. Have kept myself busy today, and told myself not to think about housing stuff just yet, will wait to I get paper this week and check! Thank you for your kind words ladies, on that and the AF evil witch

Sorry to hear that some of you have got your AF's too, and what with all the one tingly boob(s) as well eh. Maybe next month we will be successful eh ladies. Dildoos I can think of one positive thing within the next month....dtd and I think if we all stop by on here durin our cycles then that's fairly positive too! Sorry you are feeling crappy, I suffer with low iron levels and they hit a low around and during AF (that and my driving goes wonky!!) I started taking well woman (Tesco version) multivitimins which don't have vit A in, as I wanted to start taking something that wasn't pregnancy specific, and that I could carry on taking before, during and after pg if I ever bloody get there it has helped a little, but perhaps you could do something similar and then take an additional iron supplement a week before AF is due and during maybe?

cool pasta sit on those hands a little longer and keep yaself busy lovelies!! abi does cheerleader dance, with pom poms, chanting, you can do it, you can do it !!

Yep, I still manage a long post! sorry for the bore!!

pasta that is a cute and chuckle worth story! ! :0)

Ah pasta that is so cute! And funny about the "horsey" of your bum! Our DCs must be the only thing keeping us semi sane through this process. My DS has recently started to 'do' cuddles and I love it. Before he would just push me away and go play with his cars but now he comes over and climbs up for a cuddle. Love it.

So... Smiley face arrived at 6 am. So currently lying with two pillows under me. Too early for any further gymnastics. How many days after the smiley to you DTD? Last month we only did the day and the day after (ov'd late so was worn out by the time it arrived) and clearly didnt work. Not sure i have much faith in these sticks (seems you ladies don't either) but at least it entertains my need to POAS throughout the month!

Have a good Monday ladies

Ooo fedup I have no faith in them at all because I have A LINE..... Still stupidly faint for 3 days late but no need to tilt and squint this time. It's a BFP.......!! Can't believe it.

I definitely can't believe I didn't ovulate now.

Here's hoping there is a tidal wave of BFPs on this thread now.

fedup I personally think DTD as much as you can?

Abi I really hope you end up with a nicer house as a result of having to move and then it won't be so bad.

Hi ladies. Just saying hi.

I have been on a roller coaster recently. Original nutjob, first one with a BFP and earliest EDD on the antenatal thread. All was good.

But now I'm back Now I as lovely as you all are, I do not want to to be here. So lets hope I can start dtd soon, get a BFP and get out of here!!!

My DD is a result of a very feint BFP on a clear blue at 9 dpo.
Sorry to hear that AF got few of you yesterday.

I'm officially entering my 2ww. My classic ovulation pains are here and I think I usually get them after I've ovulated so that means we managed to dtd 3 times (on alternate days). Hopefully that will be enough but I'm not feeling too hopeful. I wonder what imaginary symptoms I'll dream up this time. Last month was a killer, though I read in the paper that there is this virus in my area that is causing tiredness and nausea and it lasts about 2 weeks. Perhaps I had that last month and that's why I felt so miserable.

Unless I get similar symptoms I'm going to try not to POAS til the 5th or 6th July (unless AF turns up before).

cross post. ....
Congratulations pasta!
A line is a line!

Pasta pasta pasta a line !!!! Yay. >

2be so sorry your here with us lovely- hugs and positive ness your way!

I am not going to work today going to gp to demand some answers

Have a good day xx

Ah pasta that's great news! Yay for the bfp!

Mayb you ov'd late hence the lack of smileys / faint bfp? Did you keep POAS after the time you would expect to ov? Not sure i trust these things that much either as all my body signs would say I ov'd a couple of days ago but no smiley til today! Preparing myself / getting energy levels up for more DTD before officially entering the 2ww of hell

2beornot so sorry that you've found yourself back here. I hope your stay will be short and you'll be back on the antenatal thread for the full 9 months very soon.

Hi ladies

I am also from the original nut job thread and like 2be I don't want to be back but my 2nd miscarriage this year brings me back to you lovely people.

DH would not be impressed with me posting in here as we have decided to 'take a break' from ttc and just wait and see if it happens so I have stopped the OPK but am still lurking on here - is that okay?

We are not over the miscarriage - don't even know if I'm over the 1st one in Feb so it probably wouldn't be ideal to fall pregnant straight away plus I am applying for a new job - same company but different role but if I am honest with myself I really just want to be pregnant

Anyhoo I have waffled on - I will lurk here if that's okay.

Good luck ladies!! Xx

Mummy- hello, sorry your hear again too
It's very hard to say and actually do a break so yes come lurk here with us whilst you pretend to dh it is a break
Xx

Thanks Ninunina. 2WW is a killer as is symptom spotting but it's an important qualification for this thread. Good luck!

I need positive stories of faint lines as it is inducing paranoia in me.... Arghh.... and I hope that a break works out well and turns into a BFP when you're ready.

I'm sorry about your MCs

Thank you for the virtual song dildoos.

Yey!!!!!! That's great news pasta! I wouldn't worry about how faint the line is...it doesn't seem to make much difference in the long run.

Sorry you are back here 2be. That's really really rubbish, hope you are ok.
And hello again mummy. Hope you get the new job!

hi everyone else!.

I'm into my 2ww wait now, think 5dpo. I hate this bit. The nuttiness just goes to a new level of nuttiness!