TTC #2 and turning into a nut job! Part 2!

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I've been feeling sick all afternoon and just wish I could throw up (sorry TMI). But still not counting my chicken

Ooooo. Sounds promising stone!

Stupid stupid me! I've POAS and it was BFN. I'm only 11dpo ffs

Well done fedup thats great! And totally fabby that you braved it too!! So glad you enjoyed yourself :0) good luck on the dtd and smep hope all goes according to plan! !

Just been to a bbq this evening and have dp's friend over during the day tomorrow and then a 50th party tomorrow night then sunday probably sleeping to catch up with it all! !

stone dont worry if its any consolation I really wanted to POAS this morning. I forgot by the time I got the loo, but I get the temptation for sure, one lapse is nit a biggyplease dont be to hard I you yourself. The nausea thing could still be a good sign so im keeping my fx for you.

Nodding off here best got to bed!!

Hi all,

Fed up- well done on your bravery , very proud of you ! How were they? Are they aware of your ttc?
Stone- I do this stuff all the time and your right only 11dpo so still in the game!
Abi- that's avert hecticsaturday ahead, enjoy all the celebrations!
I am 11 dpo but I am due on today/tomorrow, no symptoms for pregnancy or af and no urge. To poas which is mighty weird for me
Had a few wine last night and not going to feel guilty. I feel blank about a bfn or bfp it's really strange it's like I have no emotions !
Last night I found out a colleague has been accepted on nhs for Ivf they lied about her dp having a child how can they disown a child? They enjoy snorting coke on a Friday night! And heavy drinkers and smokers so feel anger towards this so maybe this is where my emotions are at the mo?!
Anyway sorry for rant!
Muzzy how are you?
Hello and how is everyone's else?
Anyone due today and poas?
Take care xx

Geta just read down- sorry to see you have had a tough time your poor thing. Are your hcg levels coming down? I assume at epau they took your bloods? Our last mc? Sounded similar to yours it's a roller coaster of hope and wishes , they only scanned a cyst but no foetus and hcg took 6 weeks to go .
Everything crossed for it to lower quickly so you can repeat our monthly processes !

Thanks dildoos, this weekend is a busy one, wish I didnt have so much I needed to do! ! I've done my neck back and shoulders in which is painful :0 ( your colleague with the ivf acceptance sound like they really dont appreciate what such a big thing they have been given, and not taking it seriously will be dealt with by fate im sure. I can see why your emotions are transferred to thinking about that though, it seems unfair on all the genuine people that aren't getting the help. Try to transfer those emotions to something that will help you maybe, they are not worth your thinking power!!

I had a couple of beers last night, and actually not feeling guilty either, I feel a bit emotionless this month too, I guess its because im fed up of getting my hopes up. I dont really have any symptoms of af or pg or none that im going to link to them namely because I just dont want to believe that I could be as dont like the disappointment! ! I am just carrying on as normal as its actually easier to do that but im still inwardly nutty and really curious and wanting to poas

This heat is driving me to distraction and making me feel unmotivated, so hoping that I can get motivated as so much I have to catch up on!!

I hope everyone has a fabby weekend for sure!

Thank you abi really good advice there, I am going to re direct the emotions
We are off on holiday 2 weeks today which would tech be my fertile time so thinking if I am out this month it's because I will be on holiday for a lovely place to conceive
I hope you feel better soon with back etc! Have you been in an accident for this to happen?
Sounds like we are all a bit emotionless but completely nuts about poas

Personally just going to wait this one out as didn't have a great first smep month so going to use the test money for an extra round of ice creams on holiday

Happy weekend ladies xx

I think the test money for ice creams sounds like a fabby plan

I was in a minor accident years ago with whiplash, so not a recent thing, but I think it still has some bearing on why I get pains every now and then tbh. This time the pain comes back if I dont move around. Might have to try some ibuprofen gel to ease it a bit!

Someone slap me, I was really tempted about half an hour ago to check my temperature! !! I so have to keep myself busy!! :0/

Yes or maybe hot and cold compresses on the area to get the blood pping to fight the inflammation? I should think that is why you still experience that as they never really heal 100%.

Lol stopping your temping
Try not too but at least if you do it's free

Take is easy abi x

Hello ladies
So AF due today and no sign yet. I had negative tests on 11dpo and yesterday (13dpo) so I'm sure I'm not pregnant but don't feel exactly like AF is about to show up... Odd.

My temp also went up today so maybe my luteal phase is just longer than normal...or I didn't ovulate when I thought or....who knows! Why is it that my periods were pretty regular when we were not ttc but as soon as we start I've had two really long months and one short one and have probably missed fertile windows each time. Grrrr!

Dildoos that's awful about your colleagues who are having Ivf....denying a child already is so dishonest and horrible. Sometimes things seem so unfair...

Hello!

dildo I'm disgusted by that couple. Surely if they can afford a coke habit they can afford private ivf? And agree with abi that lying about something like this is bound to come back and bite them on the arse. Poor child that's been 'forgotten' too.

Sounds like we have a few people in the verge of bfps / af and I'm so hopin for some bfps, we need some on this thread!

So we have booked our holidays in September - so we are away for my would be due date. Think it's also over my fertile window so also some more relaxed dtd action.

The NCT afternoon was ok. They are looking pretty pregnant now. And we didnt really talk about it, which was nice for me, didnt really fancy banging on about my ttc. Yeah, they all know. They know about my mmc and general nuttiness. I tend to refer to myself as the crazy lady now too.

So DH was supposed I be on Dtd duty last night but he went to Lords didnt he and got battered on beer, pimms and other mixtures. He's attempted to make up for it with twice so far today - although I think i ov'd yesterday so prob all too late. Never mind though. we are married so there are other reasons to have sex other than baby making, really aren't there?!

Hope everyone is ok and abi the pain goes away. The sun isn't shining yet so am off to the gym to do a little to counteract my face stuffing with BBQ and beer later!

Ah well. AF showed up on time so I'm out this month. At least I think my timings and cycle were all ok this month. 28 days and ovulated on day 15 so I'm going to base next month on these timings too. Going to try SMEP again - we managed it mostly last month but only did 2 days in a row at the end so will try harder this month!

Also getting my thyroid test results next week so I will see how that is. I have an underactive thyroid and whilst it seems to have been fine for a while with me taking my medication, I have been reading that even if my results are within the range of 'normal', they may not be good enough for ttc. I hope they are ok but also kind of hope that I can do something to make them better in case it is this that is causing issues.

fedup - glad you have a holiday to look forward to! also impressed you managed dtd twice today already! How do you manage it with a little one?!

fedup well impressed by 2 dtd in a day

DH and I saw some friends who really enjoy joking about the fact that the best birthday present for DH would be another child! I could have cried or punched them!!! They f don't know what we're going through!!!

one for your af

dildo that's outragious that they acted like this. Can they be reported? (Just a thought )

Stone I know I feel the same so annoying and surely not ok xx

Argghh. I've now started symptoms spotting! So far I have nausea, fuller boobs, muscle aches in my tommy. All could be pg but I have learnt over the last 12 months that they can also all be in my head and pre-af!!

How many dpo are you stone? Too early to test?
Sounds promising...

I'm 13 dpo. Tested on 11dpo and it was BFN. I'll test again tomorrow or later today if I got the urge!

I caved- BFN!

Stone - did you cave again?

Officially now 31 cycles!!!

Dp has his count done on 1/8/13, I will call after my results tomorrow.
Will see gp who will refer us after our holidays . I am so damn impatient and this feels like forever!!!!

How's everyone else? I am not overly sad at mo but know its coming as soon as af shows! I am due yesterday or today ?!

Xx

dildo no I haven't caved in again especially as I know it'll be negative despites the numerous symptoms all in my head.

Hello everyone, I have been lurking, just been a hectic week with DH away and a toddler learning the joys of tantrums! Aagghhhh

Sorry geta you've had such a shit time.
Sorry dildoos on your bfn. A holiday in 2 weeks will be perfect timing though! Hopefully you can get lots of DTD in.
Well done fedup going to the nct meet up. I think sometimes the thought of these things are not as bad as the reality. Life must go on and all that! Well done for managing twice in one day. Very impressive!
Hello abi and good luck! How many dpo are you now? Sorry I know you've said but I keep getting lost reading back.
Sorry one your AF showed up. Good luck with your results.

Hello to everyone and good luck either DTD or in 2ww.

Well I'm on cd18 and haven't been using OPK's as DH was away until cd16 so seemed pretty pointless. We managed to DTD cd16 but not the next day. Am so pissed off with him...it's just never going to happen at this rate! I think I ov today so will try today but its still a bit of a crap attempt this month! Sorry rant over.

Good luck stone!

Morning! Feeling a bit tired and rough after boozy BBQ yesterday evening!

It was only dtd twice yesterday. No more times! We can only manage that at weekends really, and ds still has a nap after lunch! The other time was at 6 am before we got ds up!

dlido sorry no bfp when you tested, but again it's not over til af arrives. Fx. And am pleased that, although slow, the testing is happening and will either help quickly with answers or you will get preggers in the mean time.

one sorry af turned up :( but good news re cycle being a bit more normal and something you can base next month on with SMEP efforts. We also only did two days instead of the 3. Hope tests are ok too.

Impressed stone that you haven't cracked again.... I'd be peeing for England by now

fedup I POAS a lot last month when I was convinced I was pg so this month as I am sure I'm not, I decided not to waste too much money on test. I got one cb left which I'll use either tomorrow or Tuesday

Sorry to hear about the shitty afs showing up all over the place. Disappointing, isn't it.

stone, sounding promising...! Let us know! I always try to force myself to hold off on poas as it costs so much. I don't rate internet cheapies much.

dildoos, that is immoral for that couple to lie to their doctor, but I find it an unfair policy that if one of a couple has had a child, they won't be considered for ivf. Still, I suppose they need to ration it. Either way it's no good to lie about it! Any sign of your af yet?

piglet sorry to hear about your af. Hoping this month is lucky for you.

As for me I am still poas like a real nutter. The line is getting marginally darker. When I went to epu on thursday my progesterone was 15 and hcg was 15 - so very low. They said to poas in a week and if still positive to come in again. My temps have skyrocketed, so I'm really not sure what is going on. This feels like a dreadful roller coaster with no outcome in sight. I will try to wait until Wednesday to poas again and maybe go back to epu. Feel so confused (and still getting preg symptoms .