Eggcellent Egg Buddies: are you IVF cycling in June/July/August 2013? Then get your druggy arses over here for some pure fucking menkulling...

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NokklingtonStStation, I couldn't find a new thread so I made this one, cock. Hope I did the right thing

Yeah, losing a cycle is annoying, but I have to say, I am feeling better in myself now. It takes a while to recover from an mc, i'm discovering. So it might not be such a bad thing.

Well it may have happened for a reason, all this delay. I hope so anyway. At least you have had a little more time to get your head around the MC (as much as you can). X

the drugs are having such a profound affect on me and are making me so miserable

tortie with my last pregnancy I tested on CD 28 which was 12dpo and got 1-2 weeks on the digi, I managed to get an appt with my GP the same day, her so called more sensitive test gave me a BFN,{this is why I believe in the digi} so she sent me for a blood test the next day and my HCG was 28 so no you can have a lower HCG and get a BFP, and they don't always exactly double either, after that mine went up more than double, which worried them a bit,
I am also surprised that you are bleeding so much when you are on so much progesterone are you on 200 or 400mgs??

noksenjoy your day out

I'm one of those who comes on, selfishly obsesses, takes the kind words/support then buggers off for a while so apologies. Must try harder. And swear more.

Been TTC no.2 since Sept 11 (gawd, so much worse when you write it down). MMC March 12 (got BFP the week I went back to work after DC1 so should have known it was too good to be true). Nothing since. Failed short protocol IVF (after 3 embies put back) in May 13. Now seriously obsessed/depressed. Am 42. Where next? Thinking DE but DH not on board...

Surrounded by people who have just had or are pregnant with no. 2.

Im on 400mg buzzy. I think its the bleeding that is giving me such a bad feeling- just like my last mc. Its so heavy and clotty.

We will see on Monday BUT i really dont hold out any hope. Im just not feeling it. X

Buzzy- thanks for being so positive for me. Xxxx you are an angel xxxx

In fact, it may be something to raise at a reveiw. I used to find it hard to hold off bleeds when I was on the pill and have to go on a much higher dosage band for my weight. So it may be that I need to consider gestone injections in future.

It is almost as though when my body rejects the embryo, I just flood. Its horrible.

I'm quite good when I am rational but I do feel so Jekyll and Hyde right now

I think you need to be on a higher dose, i'm on 1200mgs of arse bullets day although I am swapping my afternoon bullet for a jab in the arse instead.

I had a look at my ledger and last time my HCG got to 3600 11 days after my BFP on CD28, they scanned me that day and they saw a yolk and sac

This time I got to 3719 in only 5 days after getting a BFP on CD28, so now I am wondering if maybe both implanted but only one has survived, I think I'm just trying to cling onto what little hope I have left which probably isn't helping me at all

Buzzy you had 2 good embryos put back and this time can be very uncertain with embryos attaching, growing, petering off, inconclusive scans, symptom spotting etc. Be kind to yourself and be patient. You have had bad experiences and its any wonder you want to cling onto hope. We have all been there. I'm probably not helping you by being so pessimistic about my own situation (sorry!!) but we all have our own coping strategies. I know mine is over but I have every every hope for you. We need to keep our fingers crossed.

Did the scan yesterday only show one sac?? Are your cramps any better?? Make sure you get some rest in. It might help, it might not but an hour on the bed each afternoon with some positive thinking and affirmations will do NO harm at all xxxx

I definitely need to be on a higher dose of progesterone next time- its holding nothing off now. My body has gone into natural 'expel' mode which is just awful. Why is my body so fucking efficient at miscarriages??!!!!

Here is my fertility friends signature- its fucking depressing reading y'all. Feel free to tell me its time to give up....

TTC since Dec 2006
DH 33- 0% motility Me 31- AMH- 4.5 and mild endo and NK cells. booooo.
Beautiful daughter from previous relationship 2003
MMC May 2008 at 9 weeks- awful : (
Lap and dye x 2 with ablation.
Egg Sharing at CRM
~1 IVF EC on June 3rd 2011, 9 eggs, 4 for us, zero fertilisation for us and recipient. Gutted.
~2 ICSI EC 10th October 2011, 13 eggs, 6 for us, 5 fertilised. BFN.
Change of clinic to Nurture in Nottingham
3~ICSI EC 13th May 2013 13 eggs, 7 mature ,4 fertilised. ET 18/5- not quite blasties 27/5- BFP!!! then early MC

Oh god just read it again and actually want to put a gun to my head. I'm shit.

Buzzy let me just reiterate, cos I dont feel I have said it enough and you have been so hopeful for me. You are going to be ok- you have every chance of this all being ok. We are all with you xxx

hello everyone tam im sorry to hear that i hope your ok and please stick around .

me
1st ivf -egg share
currently down regging
pcos

I feel ok today not so moody and snappy cant wait till i dont have to inject anymore though im hoping only 9 days or so left down regging all being well.

tortie I definitely thing you need to be on higher dose at least 800mgs, the injectables from here are bloody expensive though I forgot how many you had put back, was it 1 or 2,

the woman on FF who has been 'helping' me told me that she has spent 70,000 + on having her 3 kids and admitted she nearly lost her marriage over it as well as the house she went through 11 miscarriages too, I have to admit I did feel like I saying, you need some perspective, I know everyone has to do what they feel is right, but I love my husband and wouldn't risk our marriage over a pregnancy but I think we are way off being the Fiona's of the world :)

buzzy I hope I am a way off being a bloody Fiona!! Although 4 cycles at 32 seems dreadful. Although the 1st was failed fertilasation so DH doesn't really count that one!!

I had 2 put back but one was only a 10 cell so couple of days behind. I think the one that stuck was my morula- Maurice poor little fella.

70 grand is a lot. On 3 kids? That's 23,333 per kid. I've spent about 8-10 so far and me and DH are still talking so reckon im onto a winner!! We could afford to move if we didn't have treatment but we are staying in our lickle semi to make it easier to save. Doesn't mean the odd thing doesn't creep onto the credit card but we have done well so far to be honest. We haven't accrued much debt. I would like less debt but its manageable so I try not to worry too much. Its if we moved house and got a bigger mortgage that we would struggle.

Wow.....70,000......im shocked!

tame and buzz my heart goes out to you both right now.

I'm 41, DH 39. Mmc at 12 weeks 2008 with a different partner, different life, still devastating. TTC since June 2011. Low AMH, high FSH, one blocked Fallopian tube. Give very low chance of success with natural conception or IVF, so going straight for donor IVF. Currently downregging on long protocol with egg transfer estimated to be around 24th June, all being well.

Hello,
Another reporting for IVF. Not sure on actual timings as yet but received letter this morning saying we should go in for baseline scans/bloods at start of next cycle which is probably three/four weeks off.

Been trying four years, no pregnancies at all ever, nothing wrong with DH. I have a bit of endo apparently and I also have a condition that affects the cilia in my body so probably affecting my tubes too but they were/are clear apparently when I had a lap&dye last year.

Anyone know what happens at first appt or will they just dildo cam me, steal my blood then tell us to come back another day?

Hi Raspberry are you on the NHS then?

We had our bloods done a while before we got the official letter. We then went in for our first official appointment which was just our gynae talking us through what was going to happen and to give us rough dates (it was a bit of a waste of time if i'm honest)

We then went for an appointment for a baseline scan to check everything on my records was correct and told me to take the contraceptive pill on the first day of my period for 15 days (which finished yesterday)

I have a mock egg transfer to see if my body accepts it on Tuesday and then I start stimming with Gonal F for just over a week with a scan every other day until my eggs are cooked and ready to collect!

Its been a slow process up til now :-)

Welcome raspberry xxxx we are a nice bunch but we fucking swear a lot

Hi Wish, yep we are NHS for this round. We've had a letter today saying what we are entitled to (one round IVF/ICSI (or 2 IUI) and a year of frosties if we get any). The letter said to ring on first day of cycle for ultrasound and bloods to take place between CD2-5 and that DH needs to give a sperm sample and have bloods straight away. Perhaps I'm getting my hopes up that things are starting to move along then? We've had massive fuck ups with paperwork courtesy of funding people so have been delayed by nearly three months :(

Hi Tame, don't worry, a bit of fuckity fucking doesn't particularly rattle me. :)

Some worse than others i'll have you fucking know for shit sake :-)

tortie it could be that one has failed but other is trying???

raspberry welcome :)

Hi rasp

Fucky fucky fuck fuck.

Rasberry we were quite lucky because we were already having similar treatment, the lady that we were seeing knew what was expected so did the bloods and sperm straight away but I still needed to wait for the CD 2-5 for a specific test.

Once I'd had that test I needed to wait for the appointments to come through to meet the gynae etc which took a couple weeks.
By the time all that came through I has to wait for my next cycle to start the actual IVF process by down regging with the contraceptive pill.

Its just the waiting for AF to arrive for tests and pills etc. Once all that has been sorted you will be ready to go. I guess all clinics work differently but from the initial funding acceptance letter it was another month until everything started and then it was still only the pill!

Tuesday will be the official day of it starting which I've had to wait about 6 weeks for. I'm a really impatient person and all they keep telling me is 'its better to take it slow than to fuck it up'

With my hormones I just want to scream 'POKE ME NOOWWWW!'

Not sure they'd appreciate that though

please add yourselves to the list

motor I'm 41, DH 39. Mmc at 12 weeks 2008 with a different partner, different life, still devastating. TTC since June 2011. Low AMH, high FSH, one blocked Fallopian tube. Give very low chance of success with natural conception or IVF, so going straight for donor IVF. Currently downregging on long protocol with egg transfer estimated to be around 24th June, all being well.

tortie TTC since Dec 2006
DH 33- 0% motility Me 31- AMH- 4.5 and mild endo and NK cells. booooo.
Beautiful daughter from previous relationship 2003
MMC May 2008 at 9 weeks- awful : (
Lap and dye x 2 with ablation.
Egg Sharing at CRM
~1 IVF EC on June 3rd 2011, 9 eggs, 4 for us, zero fertilisation for us and recipient. Gutted.
~2 ICSI EC 10th October 2011, 13 eggs, 6 for us, 5 fertilised. BFN.
Change of clinic to Nurture in Nottingham
3~ICSI EC 13th May 2013 13 eggs, 7 mature ,4 fertilised. ET 18/5- not quite blasties 27/5- BFP!!! then early MC

mejsut
1st ivf -egg share
currently down regging
pcos

resipsa Been TTC no.2 since Sept 11 (gawd, so much worse when you write it down). MMC March 12 (got BFP the week I went back to work after DC1 so should have known it was too good to be true). Nothing since. Failed short protocol IVF (after 3 embies put back) in May 13. Now seriously obsessed/depressed. Am 42. Where next? Thinking DE but DH not on board...

noks I have been clean now and off the booze for four months and three days. Oh, sorry, wrong group. Ttc for four and a half years. MC in July 2009. No luck since. Failed ivf in March 2013. Surprise bfp straight after ivf. 9+6 (or thereabouts - doctor thinks she may have over-measured by a couple of days). Am scared shitless. I have joined the ivf worriers board but for some reason don't think I quite belong there yet.

buzzy 40, Barry 39, TTC since April 2011, BFP 04/2011, MMC @ 6 weeks, BFP 09/2011 MMC @10 weeks, diagnosed with High NK cells. 5 rounds of SO, one with IUI. May 2013 DE IVF at Reprofit in Brno 2 good blastos put back with one in the freezer, BFP 05/13, unsure what is going on, taking drugs like a back street junkie, scan shows 1 sac and yolk

euro - natural IVF#2 starting mid June, EC probably late June.

nook Me - 3rd IVF, looooong protocol, currently on down regulation, egg collection should be late June. already considering alternatives to parenthood feeling super positive about this cycle!

Norks!! big fucky bollocks to you :D

I'm perhaps getting a bit over excited just yet then. Was hoping it would be quickish and DH raised an eyebrow cuz I said it would probably be sods law that it will clash with our summer hols but perhaps it wont. Would like to think I''l have some sort of progress by autumn though fingers crossed!

rasp . It must be nice to feel like you're doing something positive after months of fucking around. X