TRC 10+ months. Part 15...

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New thread for the lovely 10+ers. 14 was awesome so another like that please!

euro I'm pleased it's done. As cosmos said, my successful embryo was a crap one! A mere 3 celler at day 3. Not sure of the grade, but don't think it was great. The grade 1 8 cell didn't make it, but my crap one is still with me. As the nurse said to me, none of us know what we looked like as a day 3 embryo. However, I know it's hard not to worry. I was convinced the FET wasn't going to work as I'd read via Dr Google that the grade blast I had back was unlikely to work.

I'm doing well ta. We had a consultants appointment today, due to this being an ivf pregnancy. She decided that it's now a normal pregnancy so I finally get to be treated as a normal, hurrah finally after 3 fecking years of tcc We also heard the baby's heartbeat, which was both a bit magical and reassuring.

pout I'm pleased to hear you got the scan done. It's a bit odd how they're insisting on this monitoring cycle. Guess it will ensure everything's back to normal and give your FET the best possible chance. I love small dog's sulking. How amazing that he has a special place for it.

buzz and mad another rugby fan here too! Or should I say men in short shorts fan. Buzz I love that kayla is a little Maori cat.

Hope you are feeling better today lemons.

Oh the wire mad I luffs it soooo much. It's amazing, like Shakespeare (and as unintelligible in places!), and has some hot men in it. Which series are you on? We're thinking about redoing it.

sea and the other tent dwellers, hope you are all feeling a bit better. It is shite and tent dwelling is essential occasionally as a way of getting through the ttc shit fest.

rabbits bloody hell, you don't get much more fecund than an almost birth at a wedding!

Instadiffs still make me feel funny mrsd - that BBQ sounds awful. It would have annoyed me, even in my current state. I was trying to explain to a friend the other day why one of those congrats you're going to be parents cards from someone who doesn't know about our treatment upset me. I don't think I will ever get over the trauma of long term ttc and ivf.

I miss joy too but hope she's taking a well deserved Fred break and finding some peace. What she went through was so so awful. Lots of love if you are reading joy.

I've discovered that some friends have been ttc for a while and am terrified they're going to find me on here and my innermost thoughts will be splashed to all I know! May have to be a bit more circumspect with some details. Wish we could all chat in private...

Gotta get on. Lots of luffs to all.

Ps how do I make a ball appear?! I wants one!

Afternoon lovelies. It is time to be done with work not that I have done anything spent the afternoon trying and failing to get hold of the clinic to discuss the knackeredness side effect. It really effects work now. From home tomorrow, so I can pop in and have a snooze if I need it.

Well done for the ET and the not peeing over people euro. I really hope the crap embies will become one perfect baby for you!

Hurrah for getting the scanning done and some shopping, pout. Fingers crossed all the timings work out perfectly.

Hurrah for being normal gin. Even if it might never feel that way properly. Especially with instadiffers.

Waves and droopy tailfeathers to you all. I have just realised the wimbledon week is a good time to feel the need to veg on the couch watching tennis relaxing a lot.

gin you're a normal!!! I have to say that's my goal. When I was diffed and someone mentioned that IVFers are usually consultant led, I was gearing myself up for a row, because the last thing I wanted was to still be treated as a special case. Hearing the heartbeat musty have been amazing. :)

Thanks for the comforting words about less than perfect embies too. I do appreciate it.

For the ball, just write tennis in square brackets!

Euro, well done for getting this far. Being PUPO is a big achievement, and I don't mean that to be patronising. I mean that it's one hurdle after another to get there. My clinic doesn't even do grading, it's considered irrelevant because they have to be transferred on day two. All I know is my two were four cells each on day two and still didn't implant.

Lemon, I'm sorry for being so ignorant but I can't remember where you're at, are you downregging for ivf now?

Gin, yay for being a normal! That's my goal too, wow a heartbeat how amazing to hear that.

Joy, if you're reading, I miss you, hope everything is ok with you.

Euro -I agree with everything said before. Grading is not all that significant. My top grade blastos never took. Hope you can be distracted for the next 2 weeks.

Pout - sorry for the headaches, hope you got your maccy d.

Gin- whoohoo for being discharged from the unnecessary consultant caseload. And double whoop at hearing the heartbeat. How is your nausea these days?

Lemon-sorry you are feeling rough hon,

Buzz - love the kayla updates. Glad things seem more settled for you.

Rabbit - glad things are k just now, well done on sticking out the fertile nuptials.

I am feeling better and can do more normal things. I do get mild nausea, reflux and funny weak feelings at various times of the day but coping better.

Evening all,

Well done euro. My 5 cell embryo on day 2 didn't implant so I am joining the Chorus saying that they really don't know which ones will work and which ones won't. You just have to hold tight and wait it out.

buzzy it must have been you and not rabbit that I was thinking about with the rugby. Have now added the tennis to my distractions list. I will be home next week so planning to spend a chunk of it zoning out in front of the telly.

Sorry you're feeling so zonked lemon. How much longer do you need to downreg? Working from home sounds a very good plan.

gin we're only on season one. Trying not to do it all too quickly. Will stretch it out over the summer. hoorah for being "normal". I don't think I will ever feel normal again.....

Do you have a date for starting the next round yet mrsd? I keep losing track of things.

pout so far I am much more impressed with The Wire than I was with 24. Sorry that you're feeling rough tonight. Junk food sometimes really does do the trick.

Glad to her it's a bit more manageable now sar. I hope that you are well and truly through the worst.

Afm I have had a rather tearful day. Very tired and stressed with work and in need of my holiday I think. Stopped at waterstones on my way home and stupidly looked at a fertility book torturing myself that suggested that I avoid all plastic bottles, cling film, booze, tampons, sugar, processed food, etc. etc. etc. in order to lessen the effects of the endometriosis. Seriously????? I'm willing to do an awful lot to get pregnant but if I cut out all of that I would seriously go insane. and I couldn't be held responsible for what I might do to the pregnant women smoking and eating crap outside the window of the fertility clinic

On that note I am looking forward to my takeaway pasta tonight

Have a good evening all xx

euro yay to be PUPO, I agree with everyone else about the grading, at them being forceful about putting back 2, I don't think its because they don't think they are good more to do with the fact that they made you take all those drugs. So POAS in about 10 days or so :)

madness sorry for the tears, when do you go away ??

gin I can make her do a little haka when I feed her some treats yay to being normal, although I don't want to be normal, I want to be monitored but I haven't been told I will be

lemon I was thinking that but I need to be back at work

pout at your fabric purchase, you're on the road again

they had Ben and Jerrys on special so I thought I would treat myself

Thanks buzz. Yep, I got my last BFP at 12dpEC, so I will test then I think.

How are you doing?

euro it was good to go to work as there are so many people there to hold my hand through this, I'm still worrying about everything but on a functioning level, sickness not too bad either

Kayla has forgiven me not sure for what though

euro well done on being PUPO. I really really hope this is the lucky round for you and I'm sorry it's been so horribly stressful. Big hug.

madness I'm sorry about the shitty day. I hate those books and think they're there to make people feel terrible about themselves and profit from unnecessary guilt. I wish you didn't have to suffer like this.

lemon sorry you're so tired and hang in there my lovely. The drugs really take it out of you - make sure you get plenty of rest and take care of yourself.

gin yippee for a heartbeat and being packed off to normal-land!

pout sorry you keep having to put it off. You must be so ready to greet Colin again.

buzz love the tale of Kayla doing the haka

sar glad you're feeling a little better sweetpea.

cosmos what stage are you at? I hope the frozen embies reached their couriered destination safely.

Sorry for all I've missed. About to be offline for 10 days as I am going on a residency/short course for a poetry masters that I signed up for in January. A bit nervous about sharing a room with a stranger for so long when not feeling chipper, but also relieved to get away from work - my colleague who used to divvy up all the work with me has left so things have been crazy as they aren't replacing her so you'll probably have noticed less posting from my end. Much love and GOOD LUCK to euro on your post-transfer wait, I will try to check in and will be thinking of you and sending tail feathers in all the 10 plussers' directions!

Morning, just a quick wave from me. Have fun at the poetry course roomiestcritter. Hurrah for Kayla's forgiveness buzz. And sleepy waves from me!

critter enjoy your poetry course and a break from work, my place of work is abit like that if some leaves they then leave it to see how we can cope without them, we can't then it takes forever for them to find a replacement

euro how are you doing ???

lemon how much longer are you DRing for, sorry its making you feel crap, I struggled for the short time I was on it, it just makes you feel so queer and so not yourself

well i had a full on day, we have a patient with aspiration issues so he needs to spit a alot, well today it got too much and I ended up vomming in my mouth then I had to go and put the shoes on a lady who keeps picking the scab off her infested sore, it was so gross I am hoping tomorrow is a better day

Oh bloody hell, buzz that sounds grim! I'm happy to hear that you and Kayla are back on meowing speaking terms.

critter have a lovely weekend.

I'm ok. Just feel a bit "blank" and that we don't really have a chance this time. But I'm ok. Already thinking about the next cycle and whether we can find some way to manage EC better as I can't keep putting myself through that. We're off on holiday not long after OTD, so I am focusing on that. We can have a lovely July and then think about what to do in August. Then that will be the three cycles we said we would do at the start of this year.

Critter-have a wonderful trip, sounds fantastic.

Euro -your plans are good. Don't be too hard on yourself, this could be it. But I agree focusing on your holibobs is the best way forward. What is your plan after the third cycle?

Buzz- sounds like you should have passed that first patient to me,

sarlat I'm not sure. I'll focus on work for a while, as I have a big trial abroad in September (was worried about how I would manage that when I was 8 months preggers ). I think if none of the three rounds had done anything, that would have been the end of the AC line for us, and we would move on to adoption or a child-free life. I think I would find that more difficult after I did get a BFP once, so I know it can work for us. That's a very long way of saying I don't know! I guess we will reassess in the autumn.

How are you feeling now?

sar poor man is PEG fed and has been delusional, he doesn't qualify for continuing care down here you are right he does need some help in that department not something I have the stomach for to be honest

euro it will work or I shall eat my hat

I have now had a silent migraine

Sar - Glad you're feeling much better and able to carry on more normally.

Gin - Yay! I am so happy for you rejoining the normals although I have to say none of us is abnormal.

Euro - I'm really happy the ET went well and you are now PUPO. I think focusing on the holiday is the right thing to do and I hope that this is your cycle.

Buzz - Your workday sounded ... horrible. I'm sorry it was such an icky day followed by a migraine. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Critter - Your upcoming retreat sounds fantastic. It's too bad about the incredibly busy work schedule.

Madness - sorry for the tears. My work is next to a hospital and I have spent the entire longterm ttc watching people do everything they shouldn't while being preggers... I empathize with the frustration of it all.

Pout - MrSweet accompanies me too. Mostly because the hospital makes in mandatory where we are and partly because we live in the middle of nowhere.

Big waves and hello to anyone I missed.

AFM - Scan was yesterday, I won't bore anyone with the details, but I will say everything looked good. So I told work today. Not much else exciting except that we will visit some family we haven't seen in a while so we will have a special treat this upcoming weekend.

Your work day sounds awful buzz. I hope today will be much better.

Nice to have the diffed ladies popping in, good to hear things are going well!

DRing will continue alongside stimming, but that should be less bad. They won't do the euro-treatment of making me DR for an extra week, since I called the clinic to discuss quitting yesterday. I have the exhaustion as the main side effect and yesterday not working from home, I managed that much better and was actually cheerful in the evening. Stimming should start early next week at the latest.

Hurrah for a great scan sweet.

drizz it sounds like you think you can make it through to early next week, which is great. I'm glad you had a chat with your clinic so they won't dick you around like mine did .

Hope you are feeling better today, buzz.

I am painting my toenails under my desk and hoping no one important pops in.

lemon how many days are you stimming for ?? I'm glad your clinic are being helpful others are not so

sea glad you had a great scan :)

Pout ? Hope your migraine got better.

Buzz ? Your work sounds really eventful. I hope your migraine is better as well.

Euro ? You are PUPO. Try not to worry about the grading. Fingers crossed you won?t need another cycle. You really don?t know at this stage. I think focusing on holiday is a good move. I am still thinking this is the one for you. You really deserve to be diffed. I am rooting for you.

Sweet ? Delighted for you that the scan went well. Enjoy your treat this weekend.

Gin ? Hooray for being normal! Yay!

Lemons ? Hope the tiredness subsides. Take it easy. You are going through a lot. Take time to rest. Glad your clinic is being supportive.
Sarlat ? Glad you are feeling better. The 2nd trimester glow will be upon you soon.

Mad ? Was this the new Emma Cannon book? I do find these books unhelpful. Avoiding everything is some difficult and it adds another element of stress. I kind of take all that stuff with a pinch of salt. I think stressing is worst? A big hug to you.

Critter ? Enjoy your retreat. Sounds really interesting.

On my side, we have had some horrific news. My FIL died very suddenly in a v shocking way. MrS is devastated. I have only ever seen him cry once in all the years we have been together. He has been sobbing all day. For me one of my worst fears has been realized. I always worried that one of our parents won?t get to see our children, something I know they wanted so very much. It was in fact one of the reasons why I agree to start TTC (even though at the time I didn?t feel ready to have a family). Life feels incredibly unfair on so many levels right now.

sea I'm so sorry. That sounds very shocking. Poor Mr S :(

sea I am so sorry to hear about your FIL

sea - I'm so sorry to hear about your FIL. Big paw squeeze I'm really sorry you and MrP are going through something so hard.