Hello Ladies, I am so sorry I am not doing a great job of keeping up on here. My nausea makes computer use really difficult. I get more headachey and sicky when I am sat looking at a screen. But I am having a decent half hour so will do my best to catch up.
I am so sad and heartbroken to see all of the stress, anxiety and general crappyness going on. TTC is utter utter creme de la creme of awfulness and I do believe it compares very much with all the 'major life traumas' that people will openly talk about. But so often we can't talk about our ishoos. Is is a lonely, vile place and I echo Cosmos words of life coming crashing down each time the situation is remembered. It is draining beyond belief and totally unfair. Although I have been fortunate enough to get a BFP, there was a time not too long a go when according to my Dr's my chances of pregnancy were not going to be helped much by IVF it seemed nor surgery. Despite my good embryos I was not making progress and no one seemed to have an answer. That was very devestating. I now know (and sort of always suspected) that they were very wrong in their diagnosis of me and they didn't take the time to properly analyse my hsg result. But prior to the bfp I was in a helpless place and I just want you lovely ladies going through the thick of it to know that I really really empathise and so wish I could make it all better. Ok, sickly speech over but I just neeeed people to know that I get all these dark feelings and frustratiuons.
Nelly - the report sounds overly pessamistic. They can't have it both ways. If you make good embryos, you make good embryos despite the numbers. I agree they will be very stat focus. Your plans sound top notch and I am feeling very very hopeful for you.
Mad - well done for turning a corner. Eventually that grey cloud post cycle does lift. There is no reason for things not to work out next time. But I understand the general fears of course. Take care of yourself if you are under the weather.
Den - uuuggghhh to the uti. Not nice at all. Unfortunatley they seem to be a very common thing post cycle. All that pushing and pressing seems to unsettle the bladder me thinks. I had a mild one and agree antibiotics are the way to go. When will you have a follow up appointment? Sweetheart I really hope you are ok, you have been through so much with your hopes raised and dashed so many times. And the lap on top of everything. I don't blame you for not telling people in rl. I wish I hadn't told some (althought didn't actually tell that many).
Pout - I also agree about ignoring embryo grading. If it was good to freeze, it's good to go. And there is such an excellent success rate with FET. Don't lose hope sweetheart, your turn is coming soon.
Cosmos - so great to hear from you and how exciting about the FET. Do you mind me asking how many embryos you have left? The fact that you have made multiple embryos is a goodd start and the rest is just pot luck. Sometimes it happens straight away, sometimes it happens on the 8th go. But there is every reason to have hope. Where on earth did they get 10% chance from???
Rabbit - I hope you have some holidays coming up soon as you have been hard at work. Any news from the clinic? Are you feeling a little better than last week?
Euro - oh honey. I have been thinking of you lots today. I think you deserve a medal. It never rains ay? I think postponing this cycle was a good idea - why add to the stress. I am sure todays treatment will turn out fine but the waiting and interruptions are bound to fill you with frustration and anxiety. You work is pretty full on too. I wouldn't blame you if you wanted to escape for 6 months to a dererted island. Actually - if you did, I might just come along too.
Art - oh no, sorry about your kitty. That is very sad. She knows she is loved and knows she has had the best life with you and Mr Art. Take care, I guess the tears are going to roll even more than usual.
Lemon - sorry you have been down and frustrated.. I am not suprised - you have had such a tough going year and somethimes it feels like life has hit the pause button. I think you will find ivf a relief once it gets going. You will be use to the drugs and scans, it will just be a bit more eggs than usual and you will cope superbly, knowing especially your chances are going to increase loads. I think LP will sort out the one egg thing. Good luck with it all.
Zippy - oh no, another lady in the tent. But sometimes its the best place to escape to. I have no alluring treats to ofer (my diet is limited, bland and unhealthy and you really wouldn't like it) but I am sending a nice shoulder massage and a comfy huge cushion thing.
Gin - oh my goodness, what a scary moment indeed. I would have panicked too so don't worry about that. yes - it would seem that it isn't a periody type thing and just something skin related. Awww poor you. So has the nausea stayed away now? (Really hoping not long for me with the sickyness too).
Critter - ooooo that beta sounds fantastic. Hope you are doing ok and the good news is settling in nicely. I bet Mr C is over the moon? Have you had any symptons? Of course it is early days so don't worry in the slightest if not.
Buzz - our other miracle lady - how are you feeling? Is Kayla still going crazy to sit on your lap? Aren't cats supposed to have special powers to know when there is a baby on the way. Hope you are doing ok my lovely.
Joy - hello you. I should imagine that things still feel a little gloomy as these things don't dissapear overnight. I know you are due to go away so not sure if you will see this message but I am thinking of you and have pm'd.
Waves to all the loavely ladies I haven't name checked. Doing ok here. 12 week scan is in 3 weeks. Feeling very unwell but like Gin said before I totally accept that and wouldn't dream of complaining.