TRC 10+ months. Part 15...

[MuddyWellyNelly]

New thread for the lovely 10+ers. 14 was awesome so another like that please!

at buzz. And nahnahnahnahnah. Such a good turn of events merciless teasing will start after OFTD.

Sorry you're on hold for more scans etc til July poutster but it does mean we might be cycle buddies. The clinic wants to do LP for the first round in any case, so if we do it, it'll be pill and DR in June, stimming etc in July.

Yes, mrsd one more IUI. Not having any faith in it, mainly because it is number 7. The actual stabbing and scanning and things don't bother me so much. But it is the life on hold feeling that you all mention that resonates badly here. And when we were not having treatment I was living more. So that was good. Anyhow. Rather than living more, perhaps I should get my sorry arse in gear and do some work.

Happy for the good news, desperately sorry it is so busy in the Tent. Handholds and cakes to all of you in there.

critter and euro I will go with the French thank you

pout Colin is a survivor, how many scan are they recommending

mrsd sorry you still feel out of sorts, its such a shitty rollercoaster, I find the constant wondering too much to cope with,its like a circle never ending

Buzz ? no way that?s amazing news. Seriously am so thrilled for you!! Now you have to eat your hat .

Mrsd ? sorry that i made you cry yesterday. I just had to get my feelings down in words. And reaching a hand back out to you. it?s strange because 2 years doesn?t sound long any more to me either when in reality it is. I?m on CD31 and i feel AF must be coming soon purely because of my mood. My cycles are normally super short so this is quite nice but of course I had all those pains last week which is making me fear something sinister is going on. I am definitely not pregnant though! Sorry you are feeling doom and gloom. Come join me in the tent. I can?t even get excited by my holiday that?s how bad I am

Cosmos ? that?s great that you have got a FET booked in. I don?t understand why they are only giving you 10% chance though. Surely it will be way more than that. Do you think you will get some other things to take along side the FET like aspirin and pred?

Lemon ? i am wishing you the very best of luck with your IUI. You?ve been quiet on here recently i hope you are ok.

Sweet ? how lovely you found a lost puppy today . Well done for finding her owners.

Rabbit ? the waiting is just awful. my god they have messed you around. Dealing with hospitals is such anightmare. I think it?s a good idea to get a private consultation in prior if you can.

Euro ? that all sounds like a plan and hopefully it is just abnormal because it was too close after the mc. But still i can?t believe what rotten luck you have been having.

Nelly ? i have been reading on the BBC about this new development. Why do they always say £3k for average cost? Anyway i have seriously seen red when i looked at the comments on the BBC and some of the best rated ones as well. People can be so unkind.

Joy you read the comments????? Wow! I've learned my lesson the hard way on that one.

Just off to a meeting!

It's about £3.5 to privately fund at King's, and about the same for a mild cycle at Create. But I know at other clinics it can be a lot more, so the £3k is certainly not average.

I'm posting just so I can bump that other, rather annoying thread from the top spot. I think you'll guess which one i mean.

Pout, I too think Colin is a tough one. Fet have good success rates. It's great that you can do it unmedicated.

Lemon, I think you'll find ivf a breeze as you're so used to the injections already. Can I ask why you're doing lp? I still can't work out why different protocols are used and I should research it a big more to see of I'd be better doing the long version after my poor haul.

I'm just in a general Bleugh mood, I'm fed up at work and with all the ttc stuff. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere, I'm sure ill snap out of it soon but I realise that my moaning posts are not productive and don't help anyone so ill try not to post too much while I'm feeling like this.

rabbit I missed the questionnaire thingy. What the heck? Did they just get sidetracked by fibroidgate and forget that it was initially a bloody fertility referral???? I would kick off about it. I don't usually advocate giving the NHS a hard time but this isn't right.

Oh Joy. You will have a lovely holiday even though you are having trouble mustering up the enthusiasm right now.
Wanted to say I agree about a year or eighteen months TTC sounding like absolutely nothing now. It's funny though when I think of how mental I was by that point!

lemons The thought of being cycle buddies has actually cheered me up a bit - thank you!
I do hope that this turns into lucky number 7 for you.

buzzy hands over numerous hats & mustard Three scans in all and another form filling appointment which is baffling. Oh damn just realised that it will probably involve 2 timed blood tests too......

mrsd please don't think you have to go off thread because you're fed up. Moan away!

Mrsd please come back on here and moan as much as you need to. That is what the thread is for As to protocols, I asked, but my clinic likes it because it is easier to plan and because I am a naturally early-ish ovulator, so they want me not to produce any FSH at too early points. Not convinced entirely AND I was suicidal on the pill before, so they promised me that if I go mad on it, I can stop and try LP. I am quite scared about IVF, especially the down-regging drugs and EC. When the dentist asked me whether I was scared of injections, I actually laughed at her the only point during the hour long consultation.

Joy you are lovely and kind, and please put the stuff on here that makes us cry. It also makes me feel like someone understands. I really hope things will improve for you soon!

Glad my possible cycle buddy likes me . I am sorry it has been such a slog. I cannot believe how many of you have been through IVF already. How are things with you otherwise, pout? Any news on dogs, crafty empire or the house?

I have been on here way less lately, mainly because work has been busy and between exercising, a million small people birthdays and sleeping, there has not been that much time left. And for some reason SB wants attention now and again too. I decided I wanted to be of healthy weight preIVF and I have not dared to approach scales, but the exercise part is going very well

Of course I meant I can try SP if I go mad on LP... Is it home time yet?

comes in munching on a Fedora which thread is this ??? Why do I miss these things??

joy did they rescan you after the miscarriage???

mrsd you can't go we won't allow it, not till you have your BFP

pout I have to admit in Brno there is not much form filling but the NHS is all about arse covering

lemon I felt happier loosing the weight before IVF, I needed to lose it anyway but IVF gave me a goal, men do need a bit of attention from time to time

Kayla has been very affectionate with me she has even been sitting on my lap which is not like her

MrsD you use this thread for whatever you need. You may have noticed my desperate posting (the ups and the downs) over the last 4 weeks. . Everyone on here understands that there will be a mix of feelings and moods and results; and we all make our decisions to read. So post whatever you need to. We are all here for you.

I did wonder about LP for you. My ropey understanding is it gives a better chance of the follies growing at the same rate, which could make a big difference to you. SP is often recommended for poor responders as the DR may be too effective. That said I had 2 or 3 smaller follies that didn't get a chance to grow this time so LP will be my last attempt with own eggs. Probably.

Lemon it's nearly home time.

Euro yes I've not seen anywhere as low as 3k and most are way more.

Buzzy!!! A line?! I have never been so pleased to see someone on the naughty step. I shall wait for your bloods before teasing you but soooo pleased

OMG buzzy!! . Sorry but I'm going to join in with the I told you do chorus! Your 'pmt' sounding so like mine is what have it away, I'm sooooo pleased for you.

I'm having a total mental here, but will save it for another day.

Pout = in the excitement of buzzy?s news, totally missed your earlier post. I will repeat what i was told by the embryologist. Sometimes the best embryos don?t make it and other ones that aren?t so great do make it. So Colin will be a mighty warrior. I remember chatting to you when we had been trying 6 months and we were in a state then! Can?t quite figure out whether i ?m in a better or worse place now. I stopped in my tracks yesterday when I suddenly thought ?f*ck, i can?t believe i had ivf?. Sometimes thinking about it really shocks me.

Buzz ? they didn?t rescan me after erpc because i had a negative pregnancy test. Do you think they should have done? So buzz , how do you feel? Have the steroids settled a bit?

Mrsd ? goodness this is the first place i post when i?m in one of those moods. Everyone of us has these ups and downs. I?m so bleugh as well , it could be the weather.

Thought this may amuse you
www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/liz-kozak/10-things-not-to-say-to-someone-going-through-fertility-treatments_b_3131800.html

joy I don't wan tto sound like an alarmist but sometime bits get missed, and in some rare occasions some women get an infection the pains could just be your uterus returning to size if you don't have a temp or anything, no I still feel like a crazy lady all the time, I feel quite unhinged as I am almost having an outer body experience, I really can not concentrate on one thing and I can't remember what it is like to have a good nights sleep,

Buzz ' woohoo, fab news. I would have choesen french too. Really excited for you.

Everybody herebiss entitled to moan, whinge, cry, complain -whatever. Sometimes thats what gets us through.

Gin - hope you are ok my lovely?

Great article joy, thanks for sharing. at some of the comments though.

Gin, hope everything is ok?

Got my review letter from the clinic. It didn't pull any punches. Thank God it's Friday.

are you ok nelly

Woohoo!!!!! 2bfps in two days. About bloody time. So pleased for you buzzy . I knew all of the stress and craziness would be worth it if it went your way. Will be keeping everything crossed for beautiful blood test results xx

mrsd if everyone only posted good news and happy posts then those of us in the tent would run away because we'd feel too sorry for ourselves and as if we were the only ones feeling rubbish. Please don't go anywhere.

gin I hope you're alright xx

nelly what did the letter say? I don't think I'm going to get anything from the clinic. No follow up appointment, no letter, just come back in a month and we'll give you an injection . I really want them to tell me how they're planning to avoid turning me into more of an egg factory than a cyst factory next time....

joy I find the thought that I have had ivf a bit surreal too. It's like the whole episode happened to someone else and I just read about it. I feel a bit like I have become a statistic and not in a good way

Well, the sun is shining here temporarily so should get out and enjoy it. Big waves to pout, rabbit, lemon, critter, art, doll, sar, cosmos, zippy, sea, sweet, euro and anyone else that I've missed xx

I'm ok Buzzy. And thank you for my parcel .

The letter summarised the cycle, said my embie was 4c4/4 (ie apparently good quality). Then said "I'm afraid your very low ovarian reserve mitigates against a high expectation of success and you appreciate that donor eggs would give you the best chance of success". Pretty brutal to see it in black and white .

I'm feeling a bit like someone has my heart in their hand and is crushing it slowly. I'm so tired of failing.

(MrsDen see my earlier post about this thread being about posting no matter where in the spectrum you are!)

Thank god I have something awesome happening tomorrow (it's on FB but don't want to say here as it will out me, nothing earth shattering, just a bit special).

nelly I realised after I sent it I didn't remove the stickers with my details, I hope you are not going to set up a credit card in my name

it is tough to see it in black and white, I felt like it was a bit of a slap in the face, will you stay with the plan you have or will you think about it, enjoy tomorrow

Thanks everyone. I thought that my constant moaning would be boring you all, and also getting you down. Please tell me to shut up if I'm annoying you I don't think I could ever leave this thread completely, you're all a bit of a lifeline for me.

Nelly, I remember the first time I saw infertile couple written on a referral letter it choked me up. I do think its really positive that you make a good embie though so it's not game up yet. You only need one and it could just be that the next one is your baby. Will you give it another go?

Joy and mad, I keep forgetting I've had ivf too. Sometimes I think my life is a dream, or a nightmare really (the ttc part) I think because I haven't spoken to anyone on real life about it it's easier for me to gp forget I've been through this. I was thinking today why am I feeling so down and then I remembered what I've been through and I thought I should cut myself more slack. I've had a shitty 2013 so far to be fair.