Excellent (or should that be eggcellent?) egg buddies! Anyone having IVF/ICSI in April/May/June 2013 come and join us!

[EuroShaggleton]

We've almost filled the second thread so here is a new one, so we can carry on chatting! Threads #1 and #2 saw some stunning successes and some sad outcomes. We'll have more of the former and less of the latter on thread #3 please!

All comers welcome. I found it very useful to be with people going through the same thing when I did my first cycle, so if you would like to join us, please come on in!

isn't that the movie where some guy joins 3 people mouth to butt, at the cat flap, how many cats do have, mine is being very snuggly with me today

Thanks guys for thinking of me but I just can't engage - last night was convinced it'd worked but today - BUMP - back down to 12% reality. Knew this would be hard, am usually a coper but totally underestimated the head funk. Hope all OK with you all (sorry, can't engage by reading or writing).

resipsa I hear ya on the headfeck, I was totally mental still am we are here for you when yo need us big hugs

Hurrah for your little fighter tame.

buzz how wonderful to see those words come up. I had a digi in the drawer when I was diffed, but strangely shunned it and chose instead to grow my library of internet cheapies.

respisa the IVF 2ww is a proper headfuck. All you can do is just try to drag yourself through it.

Heh@the bemused cats.

Yeah, Motor, I think it's pretty much a given that my eggs won't be the best thanks to my age. I still sometimes can't quite believe I was an instadiffer last year (second moth of trying ).

Buzzy, I have two cats and you can find a picture of 'em on my profile.

Resipsa, of course you can't engage, this is the hardest wait of your life. hang on in there, love, and just know that we're here for you whatever the verdict. Much much luck for tomorrow, sweetheart

What's everyone else up to? Best of luck tomorrow, euro, I hope they say there's fuck-all wrong and you can join me in some June madness

Waves to wish, tame, nokkie, twinkle, expat, nooknook, scarlett, mejust and anyone else lurking. My glorious nieces have gone and I am currently terrorising my mother for a couple of days..

*may I just clarify that a moth has never impregnated me although I've had close calls with a couple of slugs

Ha Jewcy that made me and at the same time! Moths are one of my worst fears so the thought of one being in my nether regions is like a really shit but terrifying horror movie!!

Anyway....

I am just lurking and reading up on everyones trials ,tribulations and celebrations. I don't really have anything to chat about at the mo as I'm very impatiently patiently waiting for it all to kick off.

I will still be around so I can keep up to date with you all

jewcy I love the bottom photo of your two kitties, I have added a few photos of me and Kayla, so have you booked you accommodation now

wish, to lurk or not to lurk...that is the question. Whatever you do we are here for support. I'm just waiting for the big kick-off, too x

buzzy, your profile isn't available to view [wails] Can you go back and tweak summat? That photo of my cats is ace, innit? I just happened to catch her yawning and it looks so vicious Have you told your mum & dad the good news yet?

Nope, we still haven't booked the accommodation! I suspect th'usband is waiting until payday (Friday) when he can afford it

I am at my mum's and I was whimpering about my pathetic 'summer wardrobe' (one pair of sandals, moth-eaten cardigans, a pathetically-inadequate strapless bra, cat-chewed flip-flops and some wildly inappropriate dresses from yesteryear) when she told me to get on-line and 'see what you fancy'. I am now awaiting two gorgeous summer day dresses (one a silk polkadot affair - think Pretty Woman - and the other a paisley forties tea-dress).

I am considering a spray-tan before I fly. I think it's bordering on cruelty for me to splay my bottle-white thighs in the embryologist's face during ET

Thanks again for your kind words on here. The thing I hate most about this stuff is the self-absorbed bitch it's turned me into. Got a text today from a friend who was round on Friday to say that she'd had her second DC late on Sat night. Can't even say I am genuinely pleased for them; just feel like a bitter and twisted dried up old hag. Really could've done without the news on the eve of OTD. I will go to hell. Oh no, I can't as I'm already there.

Oh, Resipsa, sweetheart

res it is a total headfuck, all this. I completely get what you're feeling and going through. It doesn't make you a bad person and you're not a bitter and twisted dried-up old hag either. I had terrible trouble coping with certain friends of mine who were either preggers or who had sprogged. Some friends I was actually ok with (usually the ones who understood what i was going through and didn't ram their instadiffing ways down my throat) but others, who weren't as sensitive as they should have been.....well, I just couldn't cope being around when they were diffed or they had their babies. I felt like a total bitch and as a result, i hardly know some friends babies. That said, I had to do what was right for me and limit the time I spent around pregnant ladies and babies, because all I would do it put on a fake smile, pretend I was ok and then go home and sob until I had a crying headache and snot dribbling down my face. Not a good look. Don't beat yourself-up about taking this news badly. It's totally and utterly understandable given the timing. Xx

Hello to everyone else buzz still amazed at your news luv !

No other name checks as I wanted to post this quickly for res.

Noks xx

tame I had to go back a page ! Grrrrr. Really lovely news for you too. Well done. Am really pleased that you made it to this point. Your little one is a bit of a scrapper, clearly, so lets hope he snuggles down and makes a snug bed for the next nine months. Xx

Thanks nokkie. Feel very sad today, sad we didn't make blast again. But happy that we have progressed from before.

What is the difference between a cavitating morula and an early blastocyst? Google has been a constant companion today- cue lots of tears!! Why do we do it to ourselves?

Respisa- im with you on the headfuck. And im one day in...

Buzzy- did I say congrats? If not congrats!!

In desperation today, I emailed reprofit

today I have been a sad, desperate twat. happy Sunday!!

Res - big hugs to you and you aren't horrible for feeling like that. I have a breakdown every time I hear someone is pregnant. It's normal.

res big hugs its totally normal to feel like this, the last announcement I heard actually made me feel physically sick tomorrow will be your day

tamiestep away from Google, you have done well, others don'y get to blasts and still have babies

jewcy I have amended my profile you seem to have a problems t'up north, no I haven't told my parents, they disowned me about 14 years ago when I first got married, and hardly any contact, they are not people I would want in my life or my kids, the inlaws know though,

wish when do things kick off for you??

euro hope all goes well for you tomorrow

Res I'm with you with how you're feeling. Generally I'm ok because I work with children and pregnant people are constantly in and out but it's getting closer to home now. First the friends girlfriend that I can't stand and now my close friend from Uni found out she was pregnant whilst I was with her. I am genuinely happy for her because they have been trying for a while but I'm so envious I'm scared it'll soon turn me bitter too.
I wish I could say it'll get easier

Buzzy my injections start on 4th June. EC will be around the week of the 17th if all goes to plan. its my first IVF so im very aprehensive. I've been on many 2WW, they're hell, but waiting for my first IVF is close behind. It doesn't help that I'm as impatient as they come!!

I also found a bit of bad news online about the clinic I'm with but it was a report back in 2007 so I'm hoping its different now

res thinking of you

Hope you are ok res xxxxxx

Hey all, can I join? I'm afraid I am not sure of the posting etiquette in this section and haven't read back... I am also not sure if infertility history is posted? Please let me know if that's ok. I do not know anyone who has been through this and have generally tried not to read too many forums. But the ones I have read have been a bit too.... 'Glittery' for me. I think this suits my more practical style :0)

I start my first IVF cycle tomorrow. As in I start injecting tomorrow and I think i may need to have a 'space' to discuss it?

Re other people getting pregnant - it's horrible. You feel sad/angry etc then guilty and disgusted for feeling that way. At one point I became obsessed with guessing who would be next.

But, I had a bit of counselling last year and my therapist pointed out that it really was fine to feel that way and to be 'kind' to myself. It has made it easier as I have a moment to feel like the wicked witch of the west then let it go. And then avoid the person if I need to.

I have a friend who has managed unknowingly to share her news on bad days. E.g she tactfully informed me of her pregnancy by a letter, lovely touch. Which came with a letter from the hospital confirming my IVF referral. How I cried that day.

Hi all! Thought I would check up on y'all....

buzz hoo bloody rah for you! Awesome news! Welcome to the world of permanent mentalling! There's an pregnant ivf mentallers thread if you fancy joining us for a rant. Many congrats!

noks how goes it? Seems all good from your posts. I am now 7+4 (not sure when I will stop counting in days, still not very confident in all of this). Had my scan last week...twins! Cue more mentalling and googling and worrying esp after my last experiences. Trying really hard to be positive but it's difficult after such a bloody trial to get to this point! I spoke to my old foetal care consultant who was lovely, am going to be seen every few weeks which will help massively. I find that consultants secretaries are lovely, as opposed to bingo-winged fascist control freak receptionists, maybe try that avenue instead if the receptionists are being whorebitches?

tame I'm sure one of my DDs first time round was a pre-blastocyst. Stay positive and good luck!

Resipsa, come and see us, we are thinking about you xx

Buzzy! Your beautiful Kayla and your beautiful hair and skin!

Tame, hope you're ignoring the demons in your head. They are irrational interlopers of doom, so kick them to the kerb and come here to menkul x

Crisps! You cheeky devil, twins! I am so utterly

Lifeasafish come in, come in and take your coat off (it's not Boden is it? ) A few of us here are first-time IVFers; I fly out to the Czech in three weeks for donor egg IVF and I've never done any of this before. Tell us everything we need to know: age; TTC history; salary; criminal record

crisps! Wow - twins. How bloody awesome!

fish, welcome. It might be a helpful introduction to give us a potted fertility history.

I'll do the same: I'm 37, mr euro is 38, 2.5yrs ttc, "unexplained", 3xLetrozole and 2x natural IUI unsuccessful. 1st attempt at natural IVF was successful but ended in mc. I'm about to start on the second round, as soon as I have dealt with a badly timed abnormal smear.

Twins! Congratulations. Thats ace!

Thank you for the welcome.

I'm 32, DH 33. No previous pregnancy (as far as he knows - he has no previous either!), ttc nearly 3 years, blocked tubes, 28 day cycle, treatment at Barts (NHS)

Boden? Hahaha! I don't even know what Boden clothes look like. My washing machine would melt down if it got better than lowish end high street. I'm more H&M/Zara, although I'm having real conscience issues after the factory collapse. But thats a different thread.

I'm sure this is a stupid question... But how does one cope with the uncertainty? Where do you place your mental bets? The zita west book did advice that you'll feel shite if it is unsuccessful anyway so dont bother try not to get your hopes up.

Also, how well have people prepared? I decided to take it easy and that if this cycle didnt work i'd go in for accupunture/changed diet/ meditation and whatnot next time. But now I'm fighting the urge to class that as a bad idea and let regret in.