TTC 10+ months Part 13

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A very friendly and supportive thread for those taking way longer than they had ever expected to make a baby.

Popping in quickly to say my scan revealed a healthy womble with good lining and significantly less tilting than on my notes, poss due to a full bladder. No cysts, broids, polyps or babies lurking in there. I am going to have my hormones all tested over the next month or so and use that to make choices. I still feel in no hurry for ivf though an amh might give me a kick up the backside. Or not.

Things have felt quiet on here over the past few days as perhaps the oddness of recent events have left folks a bit dumbstruck? I know I've felt that way. I did not join a forum to feel wary to login and it seems ludicrous to me, given that we are all on a difficult enough journey as it is, that this could even happen. All longstanding threads on conception have different climates and you settle in the place that feels homely to you. This is good. I will be making NO reference from here on in to any comment placed on here that is anything other than kind. Because lord knows we all need that in this boat. For me, this herein draws a line under it and I will be blind to anything else that follows. I'm hoping this rallies 10 plussers old and new, grads and veterans to chip in today and all give each other a boost.

So - how is everyone today? There is sun!

here here rabbit I too will only respond to kindness. A good rule for life in general I think. That's great about your shiny womble and ovaries. I think you're right not to be in a rush for ivf. I really do believe that it is going to happen for you soon.

Sadly, we don't have sun today but the forecast is looking good for next week. A balmy 10°C

dear rabbit happy to hear the womble is in order. I didn't doubt it. As for tilts and general anatomy considering I suppose my insides to be pretty much the same week to week I have been amazed by the range of reports I've received. Slight tilts, big tilts, no tilts; my first ET "could not have been more straight forward" the second "very difficult" due to all kinds of bends and twists. Do they made this stuff up as they go along? If you feel in no hurry, you are in no hurry. You will know more with the test results, one step at a time. x

Rabbit I'm glad the scan was good. I'm with doll - it all seems so subjective. I remember a year of so ago I had 3 scans over 2 cycles. One declared my ovaries "multicystic" (not quite polycystic but not quite normal). Another declared the right ovary polycycstic and the left normal. The third... you've guessed it... declared the left polycystic and the right normal!

Nelly I lolled at your comment about dtd. Mr Nelly sure sounds like a romantic with his efforts to save £5k with an early morning fumble . At least he's dedicated to the cause.

Good luck with yours today euro

doll and euro it's made me feel better to hear of your variable parts

mrsden you are so lovely, thank you.

good luck again euro
madness I think I was you that asked, I booked mine for next Monday.
STILL at home with the Little Doll, we are going out of our collective minds. Ken has to come home in a bit as I have something on that I can't miss which means no nap He is giving me the evil eye as I write. And what's that phrase 'testing limits'? Yeh I could call it a few other things. lemon I have that cough too, lovely isn't it?

Well ladies, I am just back from my scan and it is not good news. The sac is visible but it's about half the size it should be for 6 weeks. I have a rescan booked for a week's time, but I think I know how this one ends. Am back at work and trying to hold it together so please don't say anything to make me cry!

euro huge loves. I'm so sorry. But it may well just be a slowly slowly embryo. Did they test hcg? Were they lovely to you? Hold in there x

Oh Euro. No emotionally risky words. Just a strong shoulder and a comfy spot in the tent. You can imagine all the other things I want to say, but won't until you are home. Talking of which, can you not go home now?

Also - cant you go home poorly? I would encourage this if at all poss x

euro Not going to say anything now - apart from to agree with the other ladies, please go home sick if you can.

get yourself home euro

euro Hand squeeze. XXX

I join the go some brigade if you aren't already xx

*home of course

Ahhhhh Euro, goodness me what a nasty nasty shock. . At the risk that you are now home, I think you need to let those tears roll. Please don't hold them back. And if that means being off work for a wee while then so be it. It is difficult to know how to support people sometimes in these circumstances. On the one hand, the embyo may have implanted late and the size may increase and all could be fine - they wouldn't be re-scanning if it was definatly all over. On the other hand it isn't the news you wanted to hear today and all may not go to plan. I think all you can do is live in the minute. At the minute what you do know is that this pregnacy is uncertain. And that is an almighty blow and a huge amount to process, especially when you have been through long term ttc. So at this time be gentle and kind to yourself. Have hugs from those who love you, have a cry and then when the initial shock is gone you will find little ways to distract yourself until next week's scan.

Pout - oh dear about missed stabbings. But definatley something you will laugh about once you have your little bundle. Exciting abou bein in the stimming stage. we will be near cycle buddies. my transfer will be late next week for fet.

Doll - sorry for the poorly little doll. But horray for cheeky mid day naps - sounds perfect. Along with trashy day time tv of course.

Rabbit - I actually did a huge sigh of relief when i read your post after yesterday's scan. Really pleased that you got the all clear and you aren't as tilty as they suggest . Hormone re-resting is sensible. Did you say a repeat SA could be worth doing too? That way you are totally up to date with everything and can make the best choices. I like what Doll said about "if you feel in no hurry, you are in no hurry". Wise words. I think there is a lot to be said for living in the moment. Right now celebrate the relief you must feel from having a shiney womble all clear. Then just focus on the next test at hand. There are lots of options out there for the taking - and no rush. Allow yourself a little breather.

Nelly - sounds like a good decsion to wait one more month. May as well let your body be fully rested. I think sometimes we have intuition about what to do and when. Sorry for the fb scan.

I had my pre-ovulation scan today. I have a nice womb linning and a juicy follicle of 18.5 mm which is likely to pop in 2 days. Then I wait 5 days and have the transfer assuming a lovely embryo keeps going after thaw. But I am ok. Am not looking too far ahead. No one in real life knows this time - i don't want the attention. I just want to get on with it.

Hello to everyone.

Joy - thinking of you still. I hope that things are getting easier for you now and that you aren't in any type of awful pain - physical or emotional.

Euro - once more - just to give you a tight hand hold.........sod it, you are getting a full on hug. I deeply want everything to be ok for you. My shoulder is here and we are all 110 % behind you. xxxxxx

euro Big massive hug, I am so sorry it was not the news you wanted, the waiting is hell, are you able to have tomorrow off ??? I am off tomorrow if you wanted to meet up, Kayla sends you whisker kisses, we are all here for you x

Oh fucking hell euro, I'm so sorry. I was so convinced everything would be ok for you. I really hope there is a chance this could work out. Hope you and mr euro are ok as can be expected.

There has been some really crappy bad luck on the Fred recently

joy I'm still thinking of you.

But yay rabbit for a lovely, clean womble. As someone up Fred said, I too feel massively relieved on your behalf.

lemons you must have had the same flu as me! It sounds v similar and I too ended up coughing until nearly sick when I made Dave sech me. Sexy times.

sar great news that all is looking good for the FET. I'm not going to tell anyone either, other than my boss.

pout is mr P recovered from his infection? Well done on all the stabbing. I much preferred the pens and hated the syringes! We had a huge syringe fail one night, which involved me and Dave yelling at each other and chucking the bloody thing away! He had to shamefacedly go to the clinic the next day to get a new one.

Waves to everyone else and I'm all for a kind, lovely Fred ( may be with a random bit of random swearing thrown in, cos I like swearing, not in an offensive way - hope no one minds!). Just a quick train post from me, so sorry to all I've missed.

My stupid period has gone AWOL. I had ewcm really late in my cycle, so assume the flu delayed ov, thus delaying af. I am categorically not pregnant and wish it'd just turn up so I can get on with the FET and stop stessing that my womble is broken.

Hi ladies, thanks for the support. V nice of you all.

I don't much time right to write but just wanted to give a big hug and handhold to Euro. I'm so sorry. Pls take it easy and I hope that we will be surprise. Life is so unfair... . I hope Mr Euro is looking after you.

Joy - thinking of you too. Pls update us on how you are doing. [hugs & handhold]

Waves to all the ladies. I will write more fully tomorrow.

Love to all.

Thanks ladies. I just walked out of the office in the end. It was a quiet day, so I doubt anyone missed me. I came home and had a good old snotty cry/howl at the universe. Very unusual for me. I find it difficult to cry usually but the tears came thick and fast today. I'll go back in tomorrow. I generally find buggering on as normal is the best thing for me.

No HCG test, rabbit. They did say they could test it but the only thing that will really tell us what is going on is the scan next week, so we have decided to wait for that. It is going to be a very long and painful week though.

Gin sorry about the missing period. How annoying - the one time you want it to turn up!

Hurrah for a good scan sarlat.

Love to joy. x

I hope that the crying helped a bit. I think sometimes it does. I am so sorry & gutted that you are going through this. The coming week will be hard but we will all be rooting for you.

yes, absolutely rooting for you euro
love to joy

ah shit euro. no words to make this better. glad to hear you went home and were able to let it out a bit. thinking of you.

Crying is good sometimes euro. I'm not much of a crier either but the sobbing I did on the AMH result day was quite impressive; and eventually I felt better for it. Hang on in there. Like was said up thread, there has been too much bad news. I am so gutted for you :(

Rabbit I am glad you have a shiny womble, it was time you got good medical news :)

Gin I am up for a bit of light-hearted swearing.

Sar - to be truthful it's my bank balance that needs to recover more than my body .