TTC 10+ months Part 13

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A very friendly and supportive thread for those taking way longer than they had ever expected to make a baby.

doll that video is amazing, what a talent!

lemon glad the trousers made you smile - my first introduction to them was when a very preppy colleague of mine wore a pair to work. Brilliant. One day you'll have to come to the east coast and see them 'in the wild'

free I am a slow grower too - the important thing is that we get there in the end! Good luck for this cycle.

Waves to everyone else, particularly princess and euro - also, buzzy I forgot to say I loved the story about Kayla nibbling your biscuit, cheeky little thing!
Right. Working from home today so had better knuckle down and get on with things.

I have to say that after an interesting day at work, I have come home and read the message and I am what a laugh and I am soooooooooooo showing my life coach when I see her next :)

pipgems welcome and thanks

freedom fingers crossed for you :)

thanks MNHQ

I?m slightly disturbed to see something has been going down these past few days on our lovely thread.

Anyway, a quick selfish one from me, i haven?t read all the way back but will catch up soon. But sadly i?ve been told this pregnancy is not viable. We had a scan away from the crap scanners at my clinic and the consultant was incredibly blunt with his delivery. ?this is not a good pregnancy. It?s not viable. This will end in miscarriage. If you stop the progesterone, you?ll be in pain and you will bleed. ? It?s not very nice being told that just after hearing an amazing heartbeat sound blaring out of the machine ? i hadn?t heard it before. One of the twins had a very slow heartbeat ? 60bpm and the other was 160 and sounded pretty strong so that is sad. But their sizes are way too small and they may be alive but they are not developing properly. We have been advised to discuss with our clinic to stop our drugs and just let it end and we?ll have that conversation tomorrow morning with clinic. The consultant said ?that?s sadly life but it?s best you have the truth?. It?s true I guess. And I must remember many people go through a hell of a lot worse.

Well i did know this was going to happen for quite some time , i guess i was just hoping for some miracle. It raises a huge amount of worrying questions but i think i should perhaps get it all over with before investigating why this has happened.

Presumably m/c 2 will be a lot more painful than when it was the 1 or perhaps it won?t make a difference. Oh Buggerations.

oh joy I am so sorry to hear this, do they not feel that the twin with the strong heartbeat has a chance ???? Would you consider an ERPC, they are not nice but might be easier to deal with, thinking of you big hugs x

Oh joy I'm so sorry lovely. It must be so hard to accept that when you have heard a strong heartbeat. I wish for you to have no pain of any kind and I'd give anything to take this away for you. Here if you need, always remember that.

Lemon I've found your iui/ivf explorations very helpful - thank you.

Ladies I think you are all amazing and I am reading and wishing you all good things. I'm sorry I'm not name checking much at the moment but there are things happening (non ttc related) that are making it difficult for me to do so at the moment. Recent happenings both on here and at work have made me realise how vulnerable online spaces are. Im most definitely not going anywhere at all and will keep posting - it just feels a bit delicate (and I'm not a conflicty person, I just want everyone to feel safe and supported, including myself!)

I'm still weighing up options slowly and have to get past a scan this week before I let the hospital know what I'd like to do. I have no idea. But hopefully it will come. Will be around for bits of chats tonight.

Remember - you are all ace x

Joy -how sad, I am sorry. Like buzzy said can the strong twin survive? Sorry, I guess all options are being explored. Dearest joy, please take every pain killer you can. Sending tight hugs, I have a tear in my eye for you.

Pip -thank you for your lovely and encouraging post. All the best for your future, I have a feeling it is a sunny future.

lemon -decisions indeed. What is your gut feeling?

Hi to the lovely princess

Art -fantastic news about thr 16 week mark, I am delighted for you.

Rabbit -sorry you are a busy lady. Will think of you this week due to your scan.

I agree, feeling vulnerable but don't know what to do about it.

Joy - also, will you be taking time off work. Time to heal is important. You have been so consciensus throughout all of this. Do they know about any of this at work? Xx

Oh joy. I'm so sorry to hear that. You've been through such a lot in the past few weeks.

rabbit I fully understand. We share so much intimate and emotional information on here that it exposes some vulnerability, which is fine when we are all supporting one another but makes us all rather uneasy when someone uses that vulnerability to attack us.

The thread recovered before, and it will again.

Joy I am very very sorry to hear this. Gutted for you. Of course you were hoping for a miracle. It is the completely normal thing to do. Thinking of you and MrJoy.

Euro when is your scan? God the wait must be excruciating.

Oh Joy. I'm so sorry. I think we were all hoping for a miracle for you. It is just so cruel. Will be thinking about you tomorrow. Huge hugs, you have been so brave through all of this, I am in awe of how you have managed the shitty hand you have been dealt but you and Roy must both be in bits. I think Sar is right and this would be a good time to have some time off work if you haven't done that already.

Waves to everyone else. Rabbit and Euro I agree on the vulnerability but personally i feel anonymity helps in that regard and I do not feel any of us have had that compromised (at least i hope not).

Doll I loved that video though I was a bit alarmed at the end when he tied his legs in knots! What talent.

Off now to google critter pants

Oh joy what a horrible time for you both. You are right that this isn't the time to hash out what went wrong. There will be lots of time for that later. Please take care of yourself and come back when you can xx

Hope you're alright as well rabbit. It is unsettling and definitely makes you feel exposed. I am also a conflict avoider in rl. If you need to talk to someone, remember that you can always send a personal message.

Off to cook dinner.

ladies she is a troll and a very needy one as she keeps coming back :) but that is because we are so alluring :)

I appreciate some might feel vunerable but that is what trolls want and we have no reason to feel like that, we are women and friends who chat online and yes we discuss very personal issues, that is the nature of the thread and she is never going to change the dynamics of the thread with her trash talk, we have all arrived at this place after being on a long crappy journey, and we are not going to be intimidated by a troll.

now off to watch TV and knit :) and I will speak to you lovely ladies tomorrow

I agree - the anonymity is a protection. I use another forum which gets far more nasty and aggressive trolls than here.

rabbit my scan is on Thursday. I have had nasty pinching all day, which the interweb tells me is normal, although a lot of people seem to experience it rather earlier on. I am a bit worried that emBarryo is a bit backward - he was a 2 cell when he was supposed to be 2-6, right at the bottom of the HCG range for day 14 and now I am getting symptoms later than seems to be normal. I will be very on edge until after the scan. And if all is well then I will probably be on edge until the 12 week scan!

I guess one reason could be that the problem all the way along has been late implantation and perhaps the progesterone has made all the difference. Must stop speculating and just wait for the scan!

joy I hope you are doing ok.

Euro - aaaaw sorry for the anxiety . emBArryo is just fine,. Twinges and pokes happen about now for most people. Its just deeper implantation, don't worry about hcg. Most people don't have a clue what theirs is. Hang tight, I am rooting for you,

Me too euro it will be alright. Sar is spot on that most folks just don't know about these things. Indeed a lot of people at 6 weeks are just starting to wonder where their period is. If only!

Sar - wanted to say how much I loved you post the other day.

Glad my post made some of you happy, just sharing the love ladies. i get it in bucketfulls from you lot.

Buzz- I never replied to your uterine scratching / hatching comment. Both good ideas. I think the lap / hyscopy will have included a biopsy which I understand is the same thing as a scratch. But I have a funny feeling they forgot to do it during the op as it never got mentioned. I will enquire about your suggestions, thank you,

Morning ladies.

I am so sorry joy. What a horrible ending to the roller coaster ride :( Holding out cake/gin/hands/comfort if you want some. Stay close to roy. Take your time and know we're all right behind you.

I don't think you will stop worrying until you have a breathing embarry in your arms euro. Everything crossed for Thursday.

Glad my musings on what to do were helpful rabbit. I am still very much in two minds about it all (and SB agrees we'll only do things when I am ready).

Waves and luffs to all of you ladies. I am much better so shall be doing some work today... But not too much and from the comfort of my own home.

I'm so bloody sorry joy. I can't imagine how you must feel and I'm v sad for you and Roy. I wish I could do something to help. If there is anything at all, do let me know. I totally understand why you are thinking about why it happened and the next stages - I'd be exactly the same- but do give yourself time to grieve for these babies. Do they think it's just the additional progesterone keeping the pregnancy going? I'll be thinking of you over the next few days. Big hugs.

euro I always thinks that the cell no. may well depend on the time they did the ivf etc and I'm sure is nothing to worry about. If it's implanted, which clearly it has, it must mean that the embryo is developing normally? Our not so good 4 cell embie (on day 3) made it to blast. Hopefully the scan will put your mind at rest at you will be able to relax a little. Sometimes I think we know far too much, particularly in comparison to the non barrens. It's weird as I now think of making a baby as a medical procedure and can't imagine getting one from a quick shag!

Gotta shoot. Waves to all.

Oh Joy I'm so sorry to hear your sad news :( Really I have no words that can explain how sorry I am. You are Roy are in my thoughts today. Here's a very non MN hug and lots of sympathy. Please go easy on yourself, get lots of rest and take lots of time out with Roy

Thanks ladies. You are absolutely right. Oh for a quick sh@g and wondering a few weeks later where my period has got to! I think this is a worrying stage for everyone but is also dredging up some old memories for me. I have only ever seen one pregnancy scan before - one of my mum's, when I was little. And it was not good news.

joy I am thinking of you and Roy today. x

Hi everyone. Sorry for the silence. I have been dealing with some v sad news (death of a dear friend) so have not been posting.

I am sorry to see that there has been some trolling on the thread. Especially because we are all here for support and this is such a friend thread.

Joy - I am so sorry to hear about your news. [big hug]. Please take time to recover. We are all thinking of you here. Love to you and Roy. [handhold].

Doll & Euro - I hope everything is going well. Take it easy ladies!

Freedom - Doctors really need better bedside manner!!! I too had a slower grower this cycle and only one compared to last month's two follies. I will be having my 2nd IUI tomorrow. I am feeling quite preoccupied still with the recent sad news and I don't really feel v positive about IUI. Good luck with the insemination. I am sending fertile vibes to you.

Critter - I know how you feel about going to parties with lots of pregnant ladies. It's not easy...

Sorry I didn't name check everyone. I am thinking of you all and hope you are all doing well.

Welcome to newcomers as well.

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joycep I am so sorry to read your news. You and Roy so deserved a happy ending. I am thinking of you both and as always am here if you need it. Lots of love to you.

euro I am sorry that you are worrying about your upcoming scan & agree with sarlat that knowing too much can add to the worry. Also remember that everybody is different and our bodies will react differently to pregnancy so don't put too much stock in what you read "should" be happening. You know if you are stressed your body will be doing all kinds of odd things. You have IBS if I remember correctly. Sharp pinches could be your bowel objecting to pregnancy hormones

rabbit good luck with your scan.

lemons glad that you are feeling better. Onwards and upwards with your new cycle. Not long now.

x-posted seaview I am very sorry to hear about your friend. I hope you are as okay as can be expected. If you need an ear we are all here.