BFP wishes will come true

[RedRobin1]

Hopefully this is the last thread we start and all our dreams and wishes come true.

Good luck winkle!

Fatas you'll only be torturing yourself anyway, so I think you should test in the morning then come here for hand holding, whatever the outcome. Fx for bfp tho!

I thought I was strong enough to watch OBEM but I've just spent the last 10 minutes crying. OH says I need to stop thinking about it and its all I'm talking about recently. I can't help it, I just want so badly for it to be me. Is that too much to ask? What have I done wrong to deserve this?

Every day I just feel pain and sadness :(

I don't want to dtd later, I'll have to put it off to tomorrow.

I've been doing this for 17 months. I should be planning on having my second not still trying for my first.

Ok. That's the plan then. POAS in the morning unless these funny pains come to something overnight.
Til the morning then...
Sleep well all x

Oh no! X post winkle sorry

You haven't done anything wrong - the world can be so cruel, and often to the loveliest of people. You certainly don't deserve it

Oh winkle I feel so sad for you too. You've done nothing wrong! There's nothing I can say that'll make you feel any better but just know that we are all here for you, any time, to talk to. When you want it so badly, of course it's all you'll think and talk about. That's why we're here because we feel the same. And we will never get tired of hearing how you feel, so keep talking. Lots of love xx

I just checked in to have a read and I am so sorry for what you've had to go through wee men don't really feel it as their body doesn't feel any different. For women it's a physical connection that feels empty. And don't blame yourself. I did the same after my cp as I stretched to close the curtain and jumped from a stool and felt a spasm and I bled two days later thinking that's what caused it but its just a horrible thing that we have no control over. Big hug to you

winkle I feel your pain. I have so many thoughts every day about things I'd like to do when I get pregnant that I have started keeping a diary at work. A private word document with a collection of ideas that I have when I finally get a bfp. It helps me to feel excited about the ttc process and just cheers me up slightly. I am a hopeless dreamer and ttc isn't going to stop me from dreaming. So when I'm down I have a read of it and think it will happen one day and I will be able to do all these things one day when I become a mum!

Thanks girls for always being there and being so kind.

Red - that's such a good idea. Would you mind if I stole it? I've often thought about writing a blog about ttc but its such a taboo to say you're TTC. I have a very good friend I can talk to but there's only so much you can lean on someone.

And I'm ashamed to say that I've broken my new year resolution and I've had a couple of cigarettes.

Good luck for the morning fatas x

Feel free to steal it I find it difficult to talk to many of my friends because one half of my friends are pregnant, the other half are mums, and another bunch are not even thinking abt families. So unless you have someone going through ttc at the same time as you I don't think people understand.

What disappointed me the most was my female friends who have had a long one or two year struggle to ttc - I find these are the ones who don't really understand even though they know we are struggling to ttc! I always tell DH I will never forget this time and how I felt and remember it when someone else is going through this. I think I expect these women to say the right things but a lot of them have bumps right now so they are all understandably ecstatic and occupied with their own dreams

Holy f**k

BFP

So fatas any news?

Yay! You see, you knew! Keep calm and enjoy.
Congrats! How many DPO are you?

It's your second, right? I think once you've been pregnant once (regardless of outcome) you do "know" when you are again...

BTW, red, I know it's not the done thing on MN to be soppy/sentimental but I thought your work diary idea was beautiful

Wooohooooo!! Massive congrats fatas

Thanks res -I'm sort of happy and relieved one minute and then feel a sort of resignation the next because of all these weird pains (which I'm sure I didn't have last two times) as well as the bleeding too. Not sure how many dpo exactly as don't use opk but should have been due on on tues or weds (hence the major confusion!)

Yes I have a 2.5yr old ds and no bleeding or probs with the pregnancy at all and then a year ago with my mmc preg I had implantation bleeding - so you can see that I might be a bit sceptical about this one!

Ah thanks kitten

Fatas that's fantastic! :)

fatas congrats. I got period like pains for weeks when pregnant with dd. Hopefully the cramps are just the uterus stretching out. (I had bleeding too).

Fx

Hi when - I wasn't around much last week but have breifly skimmed what I missed and cannot let your incident pass without a huge . DH and I have been together years too and if you'd told him, say, 7 years ago that I'd be begging him for it now, he'd have laughed in your face but that's what TTC does for a man's ego!

Can you believe that's 3 BFPs on this thread in less than 2 weeks! Less than 10 days, actually.

Sorry wee that last post was insensitive. Got carried away.

No that's OK red, it was a bfp. Just didn't stay that way, meh. I'm feeling much better today :)

Congratulations fatas. Try not to worry about any niggles. Keeping fingers crossed for you that it sticks x

Thanks wee , when and sunshine!
I've kept the other digi and ill do it next week and if its 2-3 weeks then ill feel a bit better (assuming I get that far!!)

Glad you are feeling a bit better today wee - we women are so resilient aren't we?! And you know if you have any wobbles we are all here for you

I also love reds idea about the diary - it is a good way to have positive thoughts at a difficult time. It's easy to have low points during ttc but that seems lovely