The femmes fatales of the BESH are lying back and thinking of England

[maamalady]

As witches and pumpkins become old hat, the BESH are scrubbing up well in salute to James Bond in general and Skyfall in particular. Put on your slinky cocktail dresses and stiletto heels, grab a Martini, and start schmoozing with well-dressed secret agents.

Insta-diffs will be shot with a quip but without a qualm. Anyone else wanting to join can dodge a few bullets post the BESHtionnaire.

I was wondering about Aries too Norf, I do hope she's ok.

We are a godmother

My best mate gave birth to Oliver at 5.30 this morning after a 16 hour labour. I can't stop -ing!

Ah wonderful news Frank! [hgrin] I luff that name actually perhaps a little too much because of a Top Gear episode when they went to Africa and that's what the hamster named his car!

euro I do believe I congratulated your fanjo directly! :)

My mistake, faif. [hwink]

Aw, Frankel that's lovely. My friend had her baby at 4.30 yesterday after a quick labour. They both look great. No name yet though!

Hurrah for babies! Well done all respective friends.

I have a letter from the hospital - I am to report to the ultrasound clinic on Monday evening to see if they can figure out this long-droid nonsense. We shall see... 5pm is going to be hideous, though, isn't it?

Hello BESHes. Frank found me on another fred and asked how stuff was.

Stuff is terrible actually, my love. Utterly, utterly shit. I'm not gonna lie to you Father is really very very very poorly.

But thanks for asking

Crap, ariel, I'm really very very sorry to hear that. Is it dementia? It is an utter bastard of a condition and so cruel to the sufferer and their family :(

Oh I'm really sorry Rie (((un-BESHly hugs))). We're all here whenever you want to rant/cry/scream/get pished.

It's not dementia. It's extreme depression, anxiety and now psychosis. Fucking nightmare.

Sorry rie. Sounds dreadful. I have a not-that-bad depressed mother and that can be hellish at times. I can't even imagine how tough things must be for you at the moment.

Look after yourself.

Sorry to hear things have escalated to psychosis rie :( what a rough time for you and your family. You know where we are if you want us.

Oh that sounds awful Rie. How are you bearing up?

Draf I think a mere 45 min delay sounds ambitious.

I am flipping shattered. Off to bed. Night Besh.

Fanks hags.

How am I bearing up? Er...dunno. Up and down, you know. Sometimes ok, sometimes in such grief, guilt and it's like my heart's breaking. Then ok again.

On another note entirely, anyone else loving series two of Fresh Meat?

I'm so sorry. I don't want to imagine how awful it must be.

Are you taking care of yourself properly - eating and sleeping ok?

We are rie but on catch up 11 is too late on a school night! :)

Oh Rie so sorry to hear how bad your dad is. Many sympathies. No watching anything at 11pm :) too old for that! But is it worthwhile catching up?

How is work going norf?

And how's the new role faif?

I am tired it is too early, but I am off to work already...

Work is ok-ish, lem. People are being kind, but there is no-one to sort of make me take care of myself, if you see what I mean. I'm meant to be working short hours, but am so panicky about not achieving anything in them that I am actually working my normal hours anyway. On my way in now for an early meeting, for example And I just feel lumpen and slow in both body and mind.

How was your own return?

Sorry so many people are having a shitty time :(

Oh Rie. I feel for you. I did the grieving without bereavement when my mum was diagnosed with cancer for the second time. It was enormously tough.

I feel absolutely shattered at the moment. I'm not sure why. Tired in body and mind and just out of sorts. Meh.

Maybe something in the weather euro. I feel so low at the minute. I came into work after a few days off and people were yapping - I wanted to scream. I had family staying with me and it was so noisy and busy and fun, when they left it all felt so quiet and empty. Like all I do is struggle through work then come home. No point to it at all.

Definitely agree the weather lends itself to low moods. I wonder if its a SAD type thing, what with the nights drawing in.

I confess I had a teary phone call with HWHNN last night, probably brought on in part by the arrival of my BFs little boy. Don't get me wrong, I'm over the moon for her, I know he was a hard fought win and she had to deal with her mother's death in the middle of TTC, but I am more than a small bit jealous and feeling sorry for myself in a "why not me?" sort of way.

As HWHNN keeps saying, I must learn to be more positive. I'm already assuming, without reason, that this cycle has failed and I'm only bloody 5 dpo .

Right, off for lunch. I have some of my chocolate cola caked stashed in my handbag for later

Well I would drink the gin, Bugger, but I am Off The Sauce