Rainbow Babies. Making it through the storm, missing our Angels, loving and hoping for Rainbows.

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A shiny new thread in memory of our angels. To bring us all BFPs, sticky beans and healthy happy Rainbows.

I have missed a lot, love to everyone.

And wow for Blue and Lotta! What a beautiful name. Thinking of you all, hope these early days are wonderful!

Love to us all x

For some reason I can't post on fb, blue she's beautiful!

Elly excellant ... Sounds very similar to my care plan with Phebs ( bar the AB) xxxx
Blue she's truely gorgeous xxxx
.latest; circuit board is being couriered here from Gateshead tomorrow am at an extra cost of £25 more!!! All being well will be fixed then as planned to go in to Leeds for the Xmas markets... Phebs fine after her 13 months jabs... Xxxx

blue so happy for you what a lovely name!

Hello ladies. Sorry haven't been able to keep up as have just been going to work and sleeping!! Thanks for all the advice on consultants. My mum, sister and her two DCs can up for the day on Daisy's due date so was kept fully busy. Don't think anyone else realised so didn't say anything as didn't want to spoil the day.

Congratulations, Blue. So pleased for you and Lotta. xx

Angel hope you get boiler sorted tomorrow. A few years ago ours went 2 days before Xmas. Luckily there was a plumber down the road who did a temporary fix which saw us through Xmas but was not fun with no heating or hot water.

Blizy - enjoy vegas. Very jealous!

Elly - so glad you have a plan and is all well.

Hugs to everyone else. Sorry brain has gone to mush and can't remember what I've just caught up on!!

Feeling extremely nervous at mo. Trying not to stress as I know it's not good but keep having such awful dreams. Also, not felt so tired for the last few days which is worrying me that something has gone wrong. Am only 9+2 weeks. Had this with first mmc, so just willing the next few weeks away until 12 week scan on 7th dec. If all ok, will be demanding to see the consultant as if they do as with all of you and not see me until after 20 weeks, that will be too late to help if the same thing happens as with Daisy. Have about 6 other friends who are all pregnant at the mo (all are around 20ish weeks) which is nice in one way but will make it so much harder if this one goes wrong. Bargh! Hate being so negative during what should be such a lovely time. Am seeing midwife on Monday for booking in appointment so will speak to her about my fears. Soory about being so self-absorbed. Haven't been on here for ages and when I do it's me, me me. Will try and be better tomorrow, promise.

little its no wonder you are nervous, you are bound to be. I wasnt due to see my consultant til 20 weeks but called and got the appt yesterday at 15+3 so maybe they would see you earlier knowing about Daisy.

angel, I hope they get your boiler sorted today x

How is everyone else doing?

Sorry little meant to say hi, and that I'm glad that Daisy's due date passed for you. This is the best place to be able to discuss your fears and feelings, we are all here to support each other xxx

Hi Little I m lucky . My consultant is fab & I saw her as soon as I was pg , think it helps working in the same NHS as they " fit" me in!!! I also had to contact EPU at 6 weeks as they scanned me to confirm a viable pg to start the luteal support . Don t see why they won t see you as early as possible. Xxx
Elly hi xxx
Hi all; oh bliss, boiler at a cost of £425 finally fixed now having a luxurious soak , good book, large glass of wine. Ant out, Phebs asleep who says I don't know how to live the high life????
Didn t get to the xmas market in Leeds postpone that to next week however, I have a house that's too warm again!!!! Yeh!!!
Xxxx
Love to all xxxx

Hi ladies, I've been reading and lurking for the last month since I lost my little Blake one month ago. I am doing much better, which shocks me...still have a good cry nearly every day, but I always feel better after it. I'm amazed at how many things set me off, like no longer needing my "pregnancy" shoes...or driving by a park where I had hoped to take him. I struggle a lot with feelings of guilt since I've found out not only was Blake very small for date but my placenta was very small as well. I feel like although I couldn't help it, I didn't give him what he needed :( . Hoping to ttc again in January or February, but told to wait 2 cycles first and I feel I need to find a dr. I will trust first. Hope you all are hanging in there as Christmas approaches. Best wishes and baby dust to all of you

Morning ladies

Ive spent 45 minutes typing a big long post and lost it as I typed the last line grrrrrrrr its so frustrating when that happens.

So just gonna say I am thinking of you all. Ive gotta go but will type it all again later.........maybe in smaller blocks in case I lose it!!!

love to all xxxxxxx

Hi miss sorry you are here and for the loss of little Blake. Were they able to give you any reason why he was measuring small? I know in the early days I felt the same, that even though it wasn't my fault I still felt guilty that I wasn't able to carry him longer. I have incompetant cervix. I hope you have lots of support in rl and if you need to talk we are here x

angel glad the boiler is fixed, it's freezing at the mo!

little hope you manage up see the consultant. You are bound to feel nervous.

Had the gtt today and was fine, saw the consultant to talk about the progesterone. Had swabs taken and the stitch and everything looks fine. Actually the doc said everything looks healthy down there reminded me of Elliot on scrubs! Fundal height is 32, which is well off the chart. Think he might be huge.

Saw midwife today for booking in appt. Blaaah'd on her as soon as I went in, poor woman. Have been spotting and getting slight pains, but she has managed to get me a scan first thing tom morning. Had this with Daisy but can't help panicking! She also said I'll see consultant asap after 12 week scan if all ok, to talk about pregnancy plan and whether they think a stitch is required. Nice!

Sorry not feeling up to checking names but I hope you are all ok and sending big hugs to anyone that needs one. Will report back tomorrow. Take care, my lovely mners.

Hi all.... I've been a little bit absent the last few days, but you will forgive me, I think, when I tell you my news...

Today, I am pregnant.

I hope Lotta is keeping you busy blue

angel bet you are loving having a working boiler again. You don't realise how much nicer they make life until they give out on you... And it has got fricking cold out there now.

miss nice to see you again. I think guilt is such a huge part of babyloss. It's misplaced guilt, and you probably know that on some level, but it's such an instinctive reaction - that feeling that your job as a mum is to protect your baby and so you feel you must have failed somewhere and then turn it over and over trying to work out what you did wrong and feel so terrible about it. But you didn't do anything wrong. It's quite clear from your posts how much Blake is loved and wanted. You might not feel it yet, but please believe us all, you have nothing to feel guilty for.

little thank goodness for a scan being sorted so quickly. Lots of luck for it, and for having a good MW who has sorted it out and lined up your consultant for sooner rather than later. Here's a hand to hold for tomorrow x

babyh ack how annoying! Must have been an epic post

moomins blimey, a whopper! Mind, that said fundal height is a pile of utter bollocks. They frightened me half to death with it - at 31 weeks with Freya I measured 29 cm, fine ok, then at 34 weeks I still measured 29cm, so officially 5 weeks small and no growth. Was sent for growth scan (obv a terror filled night whilst waiting for it) only to find she was a contortonist porker and measuring up at 35 week size so actually big for dates. V unscientific.

I have been having a totally nostalgic few evenings and reread my old threads from Conception and antenatal tracking my ttc and both pgs. Some very harrowing moments as I read in seemingly real time about Bobbie's death and remembered the total shock in which I posted, and the dark heartbroken posts over the months that followed, but more I was struck by the joy and excitement she gave us, and all the great laughs I had with my ttc buddies on the Charter's threads whilst trying to conceive her. And a bit misty eyed reading about them all rooting for Freya's safe pg and patting down my frayed nerves for months on end. MNers are fab! It was so lovely reading all the little details of the girls' pgs that I had quite forgotten now. So glad this place is here
And god it makes me want to do it all again!

In other news I am now a trained breastfeeding peer supporter Finished training today.

OMG! kleine!!!! !!!

I have only read your first para.
Will now read rest of post !
But oooooh! Congratulations!

Oh oh oh, it's even better now I have read the whole thing! That is so fab about the hcg going up so much, such a good sign and hurrah for a scan really soon! In the meantime, if you possibly can, eat eat eat ready for months of feeling rough as a badgers arse. Also, top tip, clean the loo now so at least it's nice when you have to stick your head down it

I am beyond thrilled for you.
And fx for just some morning sickness and not full blown hyperemesis eh?

poppet you have made my day, its a miracle! I'm so happy for you. E is watching over you and this little bean.

Oh I'm so happy, all you lovely ladies with your little rainbows growing inside you.

Gives me a lot of hope for my future.

Ooooh kleine I'm so happy for you FX for an uneventful pregnancy! :)

Yes indeed Lotta is keeping me busy! Little boobie monster and not wanting to sleep in her Moses basket! Not that I mind that much...
DH is going back to work on Thursday, he's had some days off unpaid as he's not entitled to paternity leave :( so I'm a bit anxious about how it's going to work with bringing E to school in the mornings on the days he's at work.
E is really in love worth Lotta and she's very caring and helpful.
The only one in the house having difficulty adjusting is the cat. He got extremely stressed today, we had another poo incident and he weed in the carrycot...

The birth itself was great and very straightforward. I absolutely loved being at home and would recommend it to everyone!
On Thursday I picked up E from school and felt some niggles, I had been quite busy in the morning. We cuddled up on the sofa and had a bath together at 3pm. When DH came home at 4pm I asked him to put on the Tens machine. That was really great, had it on till after I delivered placenta.
We phoned the hospital to ask them to let midwife know things were happening so she could prepare coming out that evening. She phoned me back and came over to check me over at about 6.30pm. I was only 1-2cm then and contractions were quite irregular still. She left again at about 8pm, saying we could phone her back at any time. We phoned her up again around 10pm to say contractions were getting stronger and very regular. So she and trainee midwife came out.
I could cope quite well with Tens. At around 11.45pm midwife sent me upstairs to have some rest. As I settled down on my nice clean bed, with sheets I washed that morning, with a pad underneath, at exactly midnight my waters broke. They checked me again and I was 4cm, so they called out the second midwife. Contractions ramped up after that, I coped by sitting on all fours and leaning on my birthing ball. Lotta was also in a funny position and At one point they did talk about transferring me in as her heartbeat dipped a bit because of her position, but she managed to turn and they were happy for me to stay. They were absolutely fab in monitoring her constantly.
At one point, I felt I needed to push and started making moany noises. They then offered me gas and air, which was fabulous! :)
They talked me through the pushing stage, as I was getting very high on the gas and air. Apparently I did 3 poos [shame] but DH said they dealt with that...
Lotta came out after 10 mins of pushing...
She was then passed through my legs and I turned round to sit and held her, she took to my breast straight away and then it was waiting to deliver placenta, she was still attached to it, I had to get up to get it out.
Just add they were getting me ready to go upstairs to have a bath, E wandered down the stairs asking if she could come and have a look. The look on her face was priceless, I'll never forget...
She stayed up and helped me and Lotta in and out the bath and helped DH get her dressed. The midwives left at 4 am.
It was just perfect!
She brought real joy back to our lives!

Sorry this must be a long post, but I just had to write it all down and thought it would be nice to share it with you lovely ladies who have been such a wonderful support throughout ttc and pregnancy! :)

blue thank you for sharing your labour story and the story of Lotta.

Oh my goodness oh my goodness Kleine I am so so over the moon for you Honestly couldn't be happier for you, MrKleine and your little miracle bean. I remember so well the very very early days with a whole 9 months ahead but take it day by day and you will get there. So much love xxx

Blue what a beautiful birth story - sounds utterly perfect. How lovely that Ella woke and was such a big part of her little sisters birth day. How much did Lotta weigh?

Lots of love to everyone - especially Mias in these last few weeks. What is your due date again my lovely?

Big brave step here tonight - Holly went in to her basket upstairs after her bath instead of coming back down with us. Felt very anxious but we managed it! Am in bed now though with her next to me

It was indeed absolutely perfect, I bet Sterre was watching us! She weighed 7lb 8oz!

Love to everyone! We're off to bed! X

KLEINE.... Huge congratulations on your BFP my love!! I am incredibly happy for you and Mr KLEINE. Here's wishing you a boring and uneventful nine months! I am just so happy for you. my Dp also said I have to say congrats from him!

I've not read back yet, but I will. Here things are ticking along, just waiting for AF to turn up so we can get on with ttc again.... The lovely news on this thread lately has really inspired me, I feel much more hopeful again. Love to all. X

Such lovely posts on the thread tonight!!

Kleine I am utterly, totally and completely delighted for you. Go, sticky poppet bean, go!!

whatever well done, very brave. I am fully expecting that I will be asking MrMia to sit up and watch baby while I sleep...

I am due on 7 December, but not sure baby is going to wait that long... excited, but nervous, as I have an ELCS booked, but am worried that if baby does want to come early, I have no idea what to expect, and if I will even recognise the difference between early contractions and BH, since with Mia, my waters broke and then nothing at all happened, hence the hospital visit where things all went a bit mad. Did have a moment yesterday when I suddenly thought my waters had broken while I was out shopping, but a false alarm.

ooops, posted too early!

Blue thank you for sharing your birthing story, it really sounds like it went so well for you. And love that E arrived on the scene just as her newest sister made her appearance.