Hi there. All your lovely thoughts towards me and my little rainbow are just lovely - thank you.
Green remembering gorgeous Merryn, and her heart-shaped stones of love... I think it's ok to remind family that this is an important day every month. I do. Maybe by not 'officially' thinking about ttc, it might feel normal. After all, it is an enjoyable activity, but somehow, that can get lost when there are so many emotions and expectations around it all. Hmm. That sounds a little callous like that, as feeling normal is the last thing you are probably able to do after these last tumultuous months, but I hope you get what I mean...
Kleine yay for an appointment. Little steps.
fan hugs to you, you truly are my wonderwoman with your courage! Not that this really helps you, but know that you are loved and supported by your MN friends here.
blizy how are you feeling today after your brother's farewell?
angel personally, I would be adopting a friend / local gym in your situation!! Just makes me shiver. Yet for some bizarre reason, we are doing nothing about our own boiler, even though it is on its last legs and I have already said to MrMia I cannot think of anything worse than a cold house with a new baby and a houseful of family here for Christmas!!
amyboo what a scary week, but glad baby is ok, and that you can now be monitored on the discoveries which turned up. Hope it hasn't been too emotionally tough - or if so, that you are taking things easy this week.
blue on the countdown with you, sounds like you are well and truly ready for this baby to make an appearance!! I'd like baby to appear on cue, but wondering if it might want to choose its own birthday.
whatever loving all the photos of little H, she is so cute!! 12 weeks already...
elly hope your break away was what you needed, and that an offer for an alternative Christmas location has transpired. I have avoided baby clothes for almost a year, it is totally normal, I think. Online is definitely the way to go.
babyH loved your colours of autumn flowers. Made me smile. Thank you.
rainbox we are here for you, lovely. Just write when you can. Sometimes I find writing does feel overwhelming, other time it helps so much to clear my head and figure out why I am feeling the way I do.
I went through the year's worth of paperwork for Mia on Friday night, as it has been sitting on the floor of the study all this time, and we really do need to sort it out. MrMia came home to find me sobbing my heart out. I found a picture drawn by one of Mia's cousins of a rainbow, with MrMia and I holding hands with a little curly-topped red-head... and then I found the little packet of Mia's curls we have kept.
Today I have just done a joint interview with the local paper about working with two other bereaved mothers whose children also died in the same hospital. The hospital has approached us about becoming more involved, and as we have some very clear goals about what we want to achieve in terms of 1/ paediatric care 2/ communications with bereaved parents, we are really hoping that this time, the hospital is ready to listen and act.