BFP in 2012- a thread for winkling-advice and COD-avoidance!

[wishfulthinking1]

So... here we are!
In a positive move to avoid monthly heartache this is the thread where we'll ttc in 2012.

"will there be winkling?" of course!
"will there be tinkling?" too right! you filthy buggers
"will there be time in the COD?" probably- but it'll only be short lived!
"will there be BFPs?" YES YES YES!

A pledge! do you think I'm taking this too seriously?
I, wishfulthinking, promise to ttc with all my might. I accept that ttc is a long, drawn out process and I shant allow myself to become too obsessed with the process in 2012. (if I remain in-duffed at new year, however, I reserve the right to be right royally pissed off with life and everyone in general!)

Who's with me?

Wishfulthinkng1- ttc numero 1- expecting a sticky BFP on July 31st (and at 28 day intervals thereafter!) Days till wedding - 6!

Xxx

shopping mall not sopping mall! although perhaps I should call it the sobbing mall

Kitten - congrats works!!!

Yeh I was glad today that we'd made that decision and I honestly didn't think the levels would have dropped so dramatically.

I hugged the nurse and started crying. Then cried over your messages. Cried on the tube when I saw a family all laughing together about the jokes that toddlers make. Cried when I got home to DH. Cried at the end of "Fools Gold" (who does that?). But I did another test and still negative so very unconvinced its fertilisation. I am VERY PMSed I think and just generally emotional.

I am so relieved. I think it's the end of a short-but-emotionally-draining road!

Sorry we are all having a bit of down day with the belief. If it means anything, my DH always tells me that everything we said we "couldn't picture happened" has happened. And even better. So he said that's not a really justifiable sentence for me to say since I've said it for lots of things before...

Oh and also, the nurse was just brilliant. She literally chatted to me about everything and any concerns and said she didn't think I could take too much folic acid (that the amount I was on is actually fine) and that they will only give me the full go ahead in a month, but that if I fell pregnant now, the baby would be fine. She was lovely.

Thanks ladies. And thanks for your support. It's been truly amazing and I've appreciated it more than I can say :)

Oh god, sorry for ignoring lots of important stuff. I hadn't refreshed after having the page open for ages.

Yay to kick. Sorry to red and winkle.

Very non-MN hugs all round.

winkle

The thing is that it's a step forward now. I wouldn't tell the doctors or nurses that you have ever had a smiley face either - even my nurse said to me not to tell them.

We've been trying and plotting for over a year as well and the thing is that you go in now and they get it sorted and you work towards sorting what needs to be sorted.

Don't give up. It's actually not long enough to give up just yet. You're still in the early stages and it will happen. You honestly just need to believe and I think putting aside the aids and trying but trying without the monitoring and the crap and just focusing some time on you two is probably better. Take a month and try to just get the love back - no SWI and stuff.

I treated myself to a little Tigger baby sleeping suit the other day. I figure if we aren't pregnant, I can give it away as a present but it was nice. I don't really care if society agrees or not. It made me feel good.

Oh winkle I really feel for you.

I just wrote a long post trying to cheer you up and then deleted it all as it was full of trite nonsense. All I can really say is it's shit and I feel really bad for you.

Hello ladies, im still lurking keeping an eye on how You are all doin!
Congrats kick, well done on all your hard work your levels are proof of that achievement- don't rule out pg yet, 5/6 days early is really not accurate , I found that those Internet cheepies wernt that sensitive for me aswell no af is defiantly still in with a shot
Sorry a few of you are feeling blue, believe me I've been there, it took 18month + for me first time and I had just started tests, believe me you will get there and when you get your dc you will be all the happier and thankful , I do believe no matter how hard times have been everything happens for a reason

thanks kick, your message did help. will try and think positive.

thanks whenshewas

kitty! How you doing???

Eh I find it easier to concentrate on not being fertilised. Then I either have a nice surprise OR I don't have quite as far to fall if I am not pg.

Winkle

You don't have to stay positive and feign happiness. You can be sad about it and feel like your body is letting you down. Just don't give up!!

I'm ok, still in abit of limbo, had as you know the + test then bleed then levels were tested after I was still showing + they continues to rise much to everyones surprise as by that time had full af, it stoped and I though maybe things were ok but 3 days later I started spotting again that's 4 days now, levels still going up as of yesterday but I don't know what to think,im terrified truth be told I feel like I'd have so far to fall now, scan on Thursday!!
Kick is right sometimes you have to embrace the sadness, I bawled yesterday getting my result again as I just don't know what to think

How long ago was the positive, again?

A lot of ladies on here seem to have bleeding in early pregnancy and they do go on to have healthy babies though.

First + was 2 weeks ago very faint digi was 3 days later, I know people do get bleeding but so far I've only had 3 bleed free days!!
And mine was heavy red blood too
Ever day I pray it's stoped but no

What do the doctors say??

That's very shit, sorry mate :(

I'm sorry, kitty, that must be absolutely awful for you. I can't imagine how worried you must be.

I hope you've got plenty of real life support.

It's so hard 2 catch up after a busy wkend and no mn-ing! Here goes...
@Winkle. I was feeling v down at the beginning of this cycle, u all made me realise its ok 2 feel shit and pissed off with it. You're bound 2 b worried about 2mor. But try not to, it could b all for nothing. I was told by gynae I'd struggle to get pg, 2 months later I had a bun in the oven. It. Does. Hapen. It. Will. Happen. It's just taking its time for us.

Iv spent the afternoon with an old friend and her 2 kids. It took her 3 years to conceive the youngest a fter an eptopic and concequently a tube removed.

@kitty. Have u gone to epu? I bled like a beast with both pregnancies. One successful one not. It was when the bleeding stopped, I had the problems. Good luck, mate. It's hard not to worry.

@kick. Well done on bringing your levels so far down. It'll b a weight off.

Sorry to hear what you're going through kitty - it's such an emotional rollercoaster!
And winkle I know it's awful having these really down days - it makes you wonder if it's all worth it and yet the thought of not TTC is incomprehensible! It's a hard slog for some of us and that's so unfair, I know.

I will be thinking of you both this evening as I enter day 3 of the b*stard 2 week wait (which is a bit of a joke really given only 1 inappropriately timed episode of swi this month!) x

X post with ribs - forgot to say congrats to kick on the hba1c - very impressive! Fx for you too this month x

Sorry kitty just seen, scan on Thursday. I know there's nothing worse than having bad news. But if your levels have been increasing. It's a good sign. The midwife told me some women are just bleeders and everything is fine. Iv got everything crossed for good news for u. X

Thanks girls,
Doctors say they can't explain it, at the moment it looks like its progressing and women can bleed, however I now really don't feel right, have really bad lower back pain and the bloods gone red again, has been brown the last 3 days so I think it's going, I just don't know what else I can think, I can truley say these last few weeks have been tortuous and after a mc in may I think I'm about ready to throw in the towel for now. I just wish if it was happening its happen, now I'm scared on top
Epu said they detected a urine infection aswell so not system if I feel unwell because of that or because there's something not right
Sorry I didn't mean to come on hear with all this, I've been ok all day it's just started the last hour or so

Kitty thanks for your kind words and so sorry to hear you are going through this. I hope it's sorted soon x

kitty I'm so sorry abt what you are going thru mate. I really hope the bleeding settles and you go on to have a very healthy sticky pregnancy thinking of you.
How are your pregnancy symptoms? Like others have said a lot of women have had bleeding in early pregnancy. Really wish you werent going thru this. X

They have found a UTI? They're fucking rubbish. Sorry mate :(
And very common in early pregnancy.

Are your doctors seriously saying that they don't know what causes it? Can they not send you off to a specialist???

The worst thing about TTC and the forums and this random idea that we can somehow "control" pregnancy is what makes this all even worse. We can't control it - no matter what we take or how we plot and plan and hope. I think relinquishing it to whatever god you believe in, or to whatever you do think works - science and biology or whatever, is just about the most practical thing we can do for it.

Otherwise, we drive ourselves mad. I have a bit of humpage drive. We are DTDing even though I am like 5 days away from AF. So it's erm...DTD for the sake of it...

Aw winkle you are not bringing the thread down, don't even think that.

We are all here to support one another, and you give out so much support and encouragement to the rest of us; of course we want to do the same for you.

I'm not fantastic at expressing myself, but I want you to know that I am rooting for you so much to get what you've dreamed of. You and your hubby.

You WILL be a mummy. And an amazing, kind, wonderful one at that.

Big huge un-mumsnetty hug for you.

Sorry to jump in and make it abt me but I need some dtd advice. I had a +ve opk on cd15 and we've dtd on cd 9,12,14 and 16 so far. Today is cd17 and I hv no energy to dtd. Just physically exhausted :( Dh goes away tomorrow and not back till thur. Do you think we would have covered it?

winkle hope everything goes well at your tests tomorrow. Sorry you are feeling down. The reality of getting pg is very different to how I think we imagine it will be. You honestly shouldn?t feel like you are bringing the thread down ? this is a place where you should be honest about how you are feeling and talk about it with other people. I don?t think I would be able to share some of the things I put on here in RL.

Nicola ? with boobs, when I was pg mine were really really sore and felt really heavy. They seemed to grow quickly as well! Hope you get your BFP soon.

Kick ? that is really good news.

Red I know what you mean about dtd every day. It kind of loses all spontaneity and it?s easy to feel like it?s just about ttc.

I was crying at the opening ceremony last night ? don?t think this is a sign as every time I heard the national anthem during the Olympics, I was in tears!

Kitty I really hope your scan is ok on Thursday.

Was away for the weekend and actually didn?t think about ttc for the first time in ages. Today, I?ve had the tiniest amount of really dark blood (almost purple!) when I wiped. Not sure what it is ? maybe start of AF? But nothing since.

Hi Woody

My boobs have been on my mind all afternoon, as they were REALLY sore at work. All I could feel was my sore nipples! Very distracting when you're trying to give legal advice, ha ha. Reminds me a bit of jogger's nipple. Not sure if they're bigger, but they could be...I'll ask H2B to check later on, if I can stand him touching them. He will know more than I do as to what's happening with them. He has his uses!

It's been a really up and down day on here, I always feel really awful thinking about me when there are people going through real shit and heartbreak.

And nobody should worry about coming on here to rant / cry / moan / bitch as if we're not here for each other during TTC, then who can we rely on?