Just MC and ready to try again? Pregnant after MC and seeking somewhere safe to hide? Recently graduated from the mosh pit? Come on down to the mosh pit for some serious metalling and cake! Part ?

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Thought we could do with a new thread since the old one is full.

Just a flying visit as I need to work like a dog today so I can slope off early to get to the o2 to watch men in lycra (or the mens team gymnastics). Polka what are you seeing?

Woody No idea I am afraid. I never monitor things properly - my answer is always to POAS but that may not help in this instance.

Pixie So sorry - also not had the tablets. Either waited it out or had ERPC's. Such a dissapointment I know - allow yourself time to recover physically and mentally. Miscarriage is a bastard indeed.

Confused America. How exciting. Hope work can cooperate.

MrsPear Hope you are recovering well.

Jolly Hope that bitch AF hasn't got you.

State and Jaffa the numbers keep getting bigger. We are pregnant for today. Jaffa Glad things are sounding less worrying for you.

And last but not least Pebs So happy for you but almost feel your anxiety for you. The 2ww from BFP to scan can feel immense. Keep taking that miracle asprin, Will Liverpool be scanning you every 2 weeks from 6 weeks? I found that so reassuring - kind of stopped me going totally mental just a bit

Anyway best go as stacks to do. 27 weeks plus something, officially 3rd trimester - every chance baby could survive now. Bloody hell - there just may be a baby. I am pregnant for today.

Waves at everyone else and buggers off to do some work.

thanks for the congrats everyone.

i already had an appointment at liverpool to go through my last blood test results so i will give them a ring beforehand and let them know i am pg so that they can organise scan etc. midget do you have the number for the nurse?

i had a tiny bit of brown spotting yesterday. just a small amount on wiping. i am trying not to worry about it and haven't really had anything since - if you look really closley in the right light the paper might look a little dark in a small speck!

i have been having a bit of crampy pain for the last few days as well but it doesn't feel like period pain. that has stopped today.

i think these two things might be everything implanting so will not worry.

taking each day at a time so for today i am pregnant!

ps i am tempted to join that pregnancy test trial in manchester to day or tomorrow. i might fill in the questionaire and see what happens.

mrspear glad everything went well.

pebs congratulations!

migetm whoop whoop for the 3rd trimester

Well ds1 knows I'm pg due to all the sickness and me cancelling a night out last sat. He text and said I'm not stupid you know!

Good luck with the move confused I'd love to go to the states!

3rd trimester whooop for midge

Hope the stitch does its job mrspear

Congrats pebs all that early days anxiety is still so fresh in my mind, I totally agree keeping busy and your mind occupied is essential!

Sorry woody I have no advice either, also a bit useless at watching things properly x

Well I'm 19+2 totally shattered and freaking out mildly that in just over a week this baby will hopefully be known as a he or she and then this shit gets real!

I just had a panic, scan appointment came through for when I'm 14 weeks and was with a different consultant.

The lovely women on appointments has changed it for me so I'm in next week with my old consultant

Midget I am very envious that you are going to see the gymnastics! Hopefully they will win some medals.

Moomin I'm glad you got your appointment sorted.

thanks stateofconfusion I hate this wtf cycle. Just going to try and stop obsessing and fail miserably I expect

Thanks for all your congratulations - third trimester is somewhere I never thought I would be again and if I can make it here there is hope for us all.

Pebs sorry my scans were with St Marys (can see from my post why you may have thought I was at Liverpool) darn baby brain. I am sure they have the same practice as St Marys though. So I don't have a number for them. And I had the brown stuff too. Really annoying - had it early on and at 16 weeks. Difficult not to freak but sounds like you are doing a good job.

State one week to reality - get in there!

midget someone said they had the number for liverpool ages ago and i thought i was you - not sure who it was now.

they will scan me every two weeks. i had that at my local epu as well. my local epu will scan every week if you want.

i am trying my best not to freak out. i am not taking anything for granted and will want to see a scan before i believe i am actually pregnant. i don't think i will be able to accept a pregnancy until i can feel a baby moving. dh says he won't believe it until we have a teenager in the spare room!

i am managing to forget about it most of the time and just get on with other things. i have started a bit of knitting at weekend and i need to concentrate a lot to do it so that takes my mind off things.

pebs I think I'm with your dh, teenager in the spare room will make it real

Hi ladies thank you all for your kind words - i had the pessaries this afternoon and am home now wollowing in self pity :0(. Gonna take a break from MN for a bit I don't want my glum mood to detract from all you lovely ladies good news .

Good luck to you all and I will be back when I am a tad stronger xx

hey pixie I hope you are ok.

thanks for your thoughts ladies. I am really low at the mo, just want to be in bed all the time. think pressure of ttc and work is taking its toll, am not a happy bunny atm. I definitely had a CP, yesterday's Af was so heavy I filled a pad every ten mins and was very dizzy, DH had to help me out. Then I passed some stuff, must have been lining around the implanted egg? And was ok after that. Just feel insanely tired today and should be ok again tomorrow.

BUT anyway, had to pop back to say congrats to cycle buddy pebs! Am completely delighted for you

Def not ttc for me this month and prob not next either. Am scared to to be honest, and think PhD submission and failure to ttc is a double whammy of shitness.

take care ladies!

Just a quick one from me.

DH's new job is in Seattle. We are just going through the paperwork. But looks as if we'll be going. Yikes! Work are unwilling to send me on secondment (not surprising to be honest), so I'll just have to take statutory mat pay and then resign at the end of the year - at least they'll be paying my pension for that year. They will however help me to find a us job when I'm ready to return to work, so not all bad. It's all very exciting and a wee bit scary.

confused That sounds really exciting!

wilde sorry that you are feeling low. I know that nothing I can say can make you feel any better but I am thinking of you.

Thinking of you wilde x

confused how exciting!

pixie hope you are ok. A hot water bottle did me a world of good xx

pebs amazing news!

It's DS's 3rd birthday today and he's had a lovely couple of days, culminating in me actually managing to make a cake that tasted good. I have my booking in appointment tomorrow and I think I might have a wee cry on the midwife. We'll see... Feel a bit tearful tonight. Am feeling really crappy with all day nausea. Not actually been sick, but feel it!

Morning. Hope you're all well. Been a stressful couple of days here but fortunately not pregnancy related.

Seattle - sounds very exciting. always wanted to visit.

backward possum hope your cake tasted good.

Wilde hope you're feeling a bit brighter today. But remember wallowing is allowed and an essential part of recovery. I think my partner thought I was a bit crazy after my second miscarriage but I really needed to go through that stage. Try not to stress about the phd too much.

All seems ok here. Paranoid that my boobs are feeling less tender and still testing daily but doing ok. I'm beginning to think about making a GP appointment but don't want to jinx things. I seem to spend my life cancelling midwife appointments and 12 week scans.

Wondering about early scans too. My EPU doesn't seem to be very progressive - ie you can't self refer and takes ages to be seen. With my last pregnancy I went to a private clinic in the road next to me but it was such a horrid experience. I was by myself (bad idea) . I could see the screen and could see a huge empty sac. The consultant didn't have a great bedside manner and so I spent ages crying on the receptionist. I then forgot to pay so had to go back a few days later! Am not sure I can face ever going back there. I suppose best thing to do us speak to my GP. I think I'll wait til 8 weeks though as I don't want there to be any doubt.

What about everyone else - was it easy to get an early scan on the NHS?

Hi Jollyb I had an early scan at UCLH at 7+2. As my mc was diagnosed there I was allowed to self refer to their walk in clinic. Otherwise, I would have needed a referral from my GP. They also saw me at 8+2 as I'd had a bleed. Again, no referral required, just walked in to the EPU and cried. If you can get to London I really recommend UCLH, there is a dedicated EPU and the staff are some of the most compassionate I have met at the NHS. Both times I went early and was seen within 30 mins of arrival. The doctors talked me through everything and really seemed to care.

jolly my local epu let you self refer. can you not get your gp to refer you and get an appointment for around 8 weeks? maybe if you book this far in advance you can get an early morning appointment and the waiting might be less.

some of you seem to have terrible service on the nhs. i have never had to cancel a midwife appt or scan. the epu always sort everything out for me when things go wrong. i feel quite lucky to live in a good area for this sort of thing.

i am wondering whether to ring liverpool or not in case they have some advice for me before i get a scan. not sure what to do really. i have an appointment booked in to get my results from blood tests and i have booked the day off work for it so i would like them to do everything on this day then i don't need time off. it raises too many questions at work when i have an appointment and i would rather no-one knows anything. i suppose i should ring as i can't just turn up expecting a scan.

Me too pebs, can't believe how badly some of you have been treated. My area seem to be really brilliant in comparison!

Ugh feel rough this morning, and have so much to do as have visitors coming to stay for a few days today.

I must admit my situation was complicated by the fact that I moved house. The EPU staff here were lovely though - I just wish I could self refer like I could at kings. I went to my GP at 9am on a Monday morning with my private scan result. The GP was on the phone to the unit by 9.10am and still the earliest they could see me was the Wednesday . To their credit I did have my ERPC at 9am the following morning. God I'm feeling tearful this morning!

Well, just to add to the brilliant reviews of my NHS authority, I went to see the midwife today to book in and she said she would get me an early scan (I hadn't even asked for one at that point!) so she phoned the EPU and booked one for me on Tuesday next week! Excited, but also shitting myself...

Nice one possom, that must be a huge relief! and not, of course, but great that the MW is on the ball. Well done on the cake!

Jolly I was referred by my GP for an early scan, but he was quite negative about it and seemed to think it was a waste of time, as 'what will be will be'. He was the same GP who told me that a MMC at 12 weeks 'Wouldn't have hurt' so needless to say, I don't make appointments with him anymore!

Pixie and wilde I hope you both feel better soon...if not immediately! You have both said lovely things to me when I have felt down, I wish I could think of something inspirational now! It is just so shit isn't it.

Pebs did you do the thing in Manchester?

Hello to everyone else and sorry for not namechecking...it is nice to hear how everyone is getting on.

I have finally given up being patient with the WTF cycle, which for me has now lasted 3 months. I rang the doctor yesterday and demanded a call back, actually got to speak to a doctor who doesn't think that continuous bleeding is just something to put up with for months on end...so I have got an appointment for next week to have it investigated. He was shocked that I hadn't been called in for another scan after the medical management. Even more shocked when I told him that the orderlies on the EPU had 'lost' some of the bedpans and so the consultant had no idea whether I had passed everything! Sorry if TMI, too late now though!

Evening all. Lovely to hear about the bumps on the thread. Wilde, sorry you are feeling so low. It's a horrible business in it.

Limbo-land for me. Day 38 of my second cycle since ERPC (first cycle seemed normal) - I normally have 30-34 day cycles. No sign of AF and getting bfn. No idea what's going on really. I don't feel pg, although we have been dtd every other day. I'm assuming this is just a stupid long cycle and feel really low - just wish AF would come and at least I would know where I'm up to. I feel I can't even have a glass of wine in the evening on the off-chance I'm pg, but then next morning I get bfn again so what's the point? Just feeling really low and like I'll never be pg again at the mo.

Possum, good news about the early scan!

Think I spoke to soon - beginning to bleed. Bollocks.