Rainbow Babies - hoping and trying for rainbows, loving and remembering our Angels xxx

[Ellypoo]

Hoping this thread brings us all luck and hope xxx

Ten more minutes and I can have the 2nd blood test and eat something

How are you feeling now August? no more signs of early labour? xx

Yeah feeling better thx - well a bit knackered and still getting lots of BHs but more sporadically which I think's normal! Baby's really fidgety so reassuring
I'm at the MW now... Quick check up... Then another scan on 21st. I've got just over 5 weeks to go! I'm actually very excited but also having dreams where I'm in labour and telling doctors 'please don't let my baby die, I wouldn't survive' - all the anxieties come out when we sleep xx

august thats good to hear, so glad all is well. I had alot of BH with Fi. THat was really the only movement I felt. Because of my fibroids. 5 weeks how exciting, not long now till we have some more rainbow babies on this thread, yayy cant wait to hear their birthing stories and to hear their names.

Ooh August 5 weeks that is getting close. I've had similar dreams - it is such an anxious time. Are you c-sec or induction? I've definitely had more bh this time than with K or E. I had 2 that were picked up on the trace yesterday so I now know what I thought were bh definitely are as I was never quite sure!

Hi all, feeling ok at the moment. Nuchal scan results back, and while not quite as good as blue, still at the low end and don't need further tests, which was a big relief. Then our first consultant appointment yesterday, about which we had been a little worried. However, we actually saw the top consultant who helped with Mia's birth, rather the one of her team, and she was lovely. She knew all about Mia and wanted to know how she could best help DH and I deal with this pg. She has noted the dates of Mia's inquest and added quite a bit of extra info to help anyone reading my notes, plus a sticker on the front to highlight our situation. She is also happy to arrange scans whenever I decide I need them, and has already stated she would expect me to want a ELCS, given the circumstances of Mia's EMCS birth - which I do. Interestingly, DH admitted that he is very scared at the thought of me having VBAC. We came out feeling very supported, which was nice.

blue didn't realise we were quite so close together. EDD for me is 7 December, but will be a week earlier with a c-section.

whatever how did things turn out today?

august very excited for you, these last few weeks must feel like forever. Well, if you are like me, you have probably felt impatient throughout this pg!!

Excellant news Blue xxc
I too had GD test whatever I thought the drink was fine & the tests harmless... However , the HCA got flustered by taking blood from a " sister" & forgot to repeat my FBC also!!!! Was fine by me .., but just delayed results slightly...
Fan hope u pick up soon cx
Moomins congrats cx
August not long to go cx
Love to all... Had a good time here but weather crap been drizzly but freezing at night. Poor Phebs slept with 4 blankets on so we ve decided to go home tomorrow ( should be staying to Fri am) but we ll go the scenic route home & have Friday at home to chill. Also means , hopefully, we ll all get some sleep as we ve been sleeping in the room with Phebs on the settes!!! She's been very un settled at night due to the cold...
It's ok this as a cheapie break but just grateful its not my proper holiday!!!
Love to all xxxx

X posts Miaaxlendersmummy !!!! Glad you feel well supported ... Elective section is fab to have a date to aim towards. To know what day your baby will be here. I'd have another elective without a minutes concern.
Oh have your baby the week before!!!! My birthday is 1 st Dec , damn good day xxxx
I found having a set date reduced a lot of the stress towards the end & my date was at 37,3 weeks xxxx

miasmummy Im so glad they are looking after you properly it must be a huge weight off your mind. So glad the scan went well.

angel Ive had a few holidays like that. Hope being home will help you all sleep warmer.

Im still not feeling right, feel sick this morning have a headache. Ive decided to stay at home again. I might get into trouble but im not feeling well so stuff them! I feel better than I have for the past two days but still not right, and I know it will be tough going at work, it being a physical job and to be honest dont really want to work in the office at the moment.

Miasmummy so glad your consultant was kind and understanding it makes such a huge difference doesn't it. I agree with you about elcs - I will be glad to have an exact date to work to in those last few weeks. Get results of GD test in a few days - sooner if there's a problem I guess.

Fan poor you I'm still not feeling a 100% even after 3 days for AB's. I'm glad to be staying home again - definitely think you should too. Don't sorry about work it will all still be there next week.

Oh Angel bless you - I must say a whole day at home in the warm and your own beds does sound more appealing. Bloomin ' weather is rubbish! Hope you had some fun x

Ah no appts today so am going to drop K at school and then settle on the sofa to watch dvd's for the day. Bliss.

can I ask you girls a question before I ask the boards?

When I had Fi, I had a retained placenta. I went down to theatre where they unsuccessfully tried to give me a spinal block three or four times. This part of the day haunts me to be honest. In the end they ended up putting me under. I worry about this for when I am next pregnant, obviously I will talk to my consultant about this but I wanted to ask your guys experience. Have any of you experienced anything like this? if so when you next had a spinal block or an epidural did it work out fine?

This worries me, I so want to be there for the birth of my next child, but I am worried that if I get induced that it will lead to EMCS and an epidural, or the baby will be breach and I will have to have a CS, and what if I cant have an epidural, what if it doesnt work again.

I just cant get this out of my mind this morning!

Im also worried that I will end up with a retained placenta again and have to leave my baby at some point.

God im even annoying myself now!

I don't have any direct experience of that I'm afraid fan but what you could do is ask for an anaesthetic review next time which can check your suitability for a spinal block. Hope someone more knowledgable comes along xx

I have just read thia amazing story and wanted to share it with you all, its given me alot of hope today.

www.bellybelly.com.au/birth/birth-after-stillbirth

Ooh it makes me feel guilty for having a c-section!

wtw I didn't intend, I hope you don't think, don't feel guilty its a personal choice, its just a wonderful story of a rainbow and an angel and its just the way it was written that made me post it. Please don't feel guilty.

august I had more bh with ds3 and Jacob, well atleast they seemed more noticeable. Ds2 is 8 years older than ds3 so guess I might have forgotten.

Miasmummy glad results were good and that your consultant is supportive. I'll have the same consultant this time as with ds2,3 and Jacob. He's lovely which makes me feel alot more relaxed about everything.

fanjo I had retained placenta with ds2 and had no problem with the spinal that time, however ds3 was an emcs due to cord prolapse and they couldnt get the spinal in that time. When I had the stitch put in with Jacob she realy struggled but did manage it in the end. I'll be having another one in 8-10 weeks so will let you know how they get on this time!

angel shame the weather is so rubbish but glad you enjoyed yourself regardless of the cold. Where is summer

Well the morning sickness is getting pretty bad, I think ds3 and his lack of sleeping might be making it worse

On a crappy note, we received court eviction papers yesterday, apparently the landlady wants the house back to sell and wrote to us in feb informing us she wanted us to move out in April. We never received anything and had no idea! I can't understand why they didn't ring us when we carried on paying rent in may and June. If that isn't bad enough they want us to pay their court costs.

moomin thank you, yes please do.

wtw I'm sorry if my link has upset you? It wasn't my intention.

moomin that is scary, what are you going to do?

Oh Fan of course you didn't - it was just the bit about 'honouring your child with a vaginal birth' It's my own guilt coming out! x

wtw please don't feel guilty, your circumstances are so different.

I'm not sure, were struggling to find something in the area that we can afford and is suitable at such short notice. Someone said try the local housing authority as we are being made homeless. They also have private landlords that won't take large deposits. I think I'll go and ask their advice tomorrow.

moomins i'd speak to someone at Citizens advice. I used to work in a legal department and we had to send important documents relating to warnings by recorded delivery to show proof that it had been done and that the person had received it. It should buy you some time to look around . I agree also with suggestion to try local authority, my friend was made homeless in same way you are and she got social housing (really nice new build) after a period of time in temporary accomodation ( not B&B just a place that was too small for them long term). Definitely worth a try.

Thanks macinahat will try them. The court papers say that they hand delivered the notice, when dp rang them and said you can't have done, we didn't get them why didn't you send them recorded delivery. They said they didn't have to. They had a copy of the notice that is proof

Jut a quicky,

Wtw- I'm staying in Lullworth cove tonight. It's very nice! Hope you are feeling better?

I got my first peak on the cbfm today. Dh and I have made a lot of use of our time together this week.. Let's hope it works.

Fan- hope you are feeling better?

Better get off we are just heading down for dinner.

Hope you are all well. X

Good luck Blizy cx
Whatever I had a vaginal delivery with Georgie ( though I asked for a section when they told me she had died) & an elective section with Phebs & do not feel 1 minute of guilt. Don t think for 1 minute fan meant anything by the post. it's very nicely written , very moving but in all honesty I didn t give a monkeys how Phebs arrived as long as she did alive & safely... I would have a section if I had another in a shot. Xxx
Fan hope u re picking up? Cx
Moomin hope u get something sorted. Cx
Hope everyone else is well? Xxx
Home now had a lovely day & of course was lovely & sunny when we left but after another crap night ( Phebs awake from 02.15-04:00) not settling & whinging we needed to come home!!!
Now enjoying lovely hot bath , Phebs bathed ( only shower at the caravan) I never feel entirely clean when staying elsewhere!!! Hitting my lovely warm bed & hopefully Phoeberella is knackered enough to sleep through!!!!
Love to all xxx

Oh I definitely know fan meant nothing by it. Just touched a nerve as I stupidly feel a bit sad that I'll never have another vaginal birth but like you angel just want her here safely by whatever means.

Glad you're back home safe

Blizy Lulworth is beautiful, hope the weathers okay there. Are you going to monkey world tomorrow? xx