Rainbow Babies - hoping and trying for rainbows, loving and remembering our Angels xxx

[Ellypoo]

Hoping this thread brings us all luck and hope xxx

Little take your time off work I had 5 months off then went back on phased return. Don t know what you do? But my job is especially hard as I come in to lots of contact wit pg women, girls etc.. So even when I returned my first few clinics I only saw men!!!
Whatever good day Phebs measured ahead all the way through at 32 weeks she was measuring 36!!! & she was a whopping 10 lb,0:5 oz!!!!
Fan hope u re phone's fixed? Not an I phone by chance? I ve got one & totally hate it ... It's always playing up. Last night I recieved a text from my SW consultant ( a group text to 105 members) which subsequently forced my messages to freeze for 6 hours... Even when I ve got 3G on you can t calls everywhere it's shite.i pay for mine & Ant's & we re stucjk in our contract to next May. Looked at buying us out of the contract but was way too much!!!!
Green time flies but drags doesn t it? Sad cx
Love to all: yes, not to brag but an actual day without rain here... Don t get too jealous don t think it's lasting much longer!!
Knackered glad it's Friday Phebs still having disrupted sleep & hard when getting up for work!!!
Love to all xxx

angel its a blackberry, and its being slow, trying to make it work like it did is a nightmare, but think I have fixed it for now. Im on a contract too, got it for another 8 months I think. Can you not do a free upgrade?

wtw maybe little girl is turning which makes the measurements bigger, thats what happened with Ophelia I was measuring 35 weeks at 28. Then at 34 it went down to normal. Went for a growth scan and all was normal and they said then that she had probably turned on that day.

mecha thinking of you and Dexter today.

Ive just eaten a big bag of wispa chocolate naughty, and thats after eating a Soothills pasty (wtw do you like them?) and a belgium bun for lunch. yum.

wtw hows the baby names coming along?

Thinking of you mech and green today. I still find the 25th of each month hard and it'll be 11 months this month. I remember how hard 2 and 3 months were. Big hugs xx

Sorry it's not your month green xxx

Little like angel I had 5 months off work. I was due to go back after 4 mths but got my bfp just before I was due to return and it threw me so I had another month. Take your time you are allowed your normal maternity leave xx

Ah soothills fan Best bakery ever! Their sausage rolls and cream slices are amazing!! Mmmm might have to go and get one at the weekend! No further with names. Think we are going to have to wait and see what she looks like and hope inspiration strikes!

Mecha- hope you are feeling better soon.

Green/mecha- the dates are hard, I still struggle a bit on the 26th and 28th of each month. Thinking of you both and of course Merryn and Dexter. X

I was never measured during my pregnancy. At the pm consultation I was told Zoe was small for dates and if I was measured I'd have been sent for a growth scan. That scan may well have shown up the problems with the placenta.

Well the SWI for the month has started, I'm due to ov on sat.

Fan- is you af due soon?

blizy yes its due soon, not sure when it will be here as I had a couple of extra days of spotting before AF came fully so not sure if Im on CD27 OR 25. Im trying so hard not to be hopeful. I dont think we caught my ov time this month, ov tests were a diaster as I was testing after work. So we kind of did it when we thought so not sure really.
Got my fx for you.

wtw little can't take normal maternity leave as just like me she lost her little girl before 24 weeks :( it is so unfair!

We went to see the Queen today at RAF Cosford today! The weather was gorgeous and E stood on the front row as the Queen drove past and absolutely loved it!
Absolutely exhausted now!

Hi little- sorry I missed your posts. Do sorry about little Daisy, such a beautiful name!

My dd Zoe was stillborn at 41 weeks on 28th feb 2011. Dh and I have been ttc since May 2011, hoping it happens very soon for us.
Your dogs sound fab!

Sorry little I didn't realise I'm sure your gp would sign you off though?

I didn t take mat leave I changed to sick. My employer pays 8 weeks full mat pay then 16 weeks half + SMP so 2 months after Georgie died I came off mat leave & went on sick as we get 6 months full sick pay & there was no way I was loosing £500 a month whilst grieving.
Little as Whatever says you re dr will give you sick notes if you want xxx
Morning all: TGIF nice lie in tomorrow xxx
Looks like the suns gone here that was summer!!! Xx

I've decided I need a little more time so Dr has signed me off work for another week. My boss is really supportive and I was going to ring him today to discuss returning to work but couldn't face speaking to him so realised I'm not quite ready to go back at all. Am aiming to go back a week on Monday, so will speak to him next week about it. Just feel guilty for leaving them in the lurch (my boss would scold me for that!!).

Had a bad morning, but feeling a little more positive this afternoon. I just feel really drained all the time; need to find some energy from somewhere if anyone has any to spare?? Must try to get back to the gym at some point.

That's good Little take it easy! those first few weeks are so hard to get through! I went back to work after a month, but it was the same time this year and just a few days with the schools to do before they broke up for summer holidays... and after that it was just preparing stuff at home which took my mind off things!

little9 dont be forced back to work by the thought that you are slacking or letting them down, you are greiving for your little baby, its doesnt matter how many weeks you were. You need to adjust to your life and you need to be selfish a bit and take your time.
I thought I was ready to go back to work I had 4 months off but I ended up having a mini break down on the way to work, luckerly my boss was understanding and he met me at the gate and took me in to talk to individual people. I then started work for good the next week, looking back I think I should have staggered by days going back. I should have just done a couple of mornings and worked my way back. I had plenty of days where I just had to be sent home as I couldnt handle it.
Be gentle with youself.

Little I am glad your Dr and boss are being sympathetic and supportive. You are certainly not letting anyone down, if you go back before you are ready you won't be any good to anyone!

I haven't gone back to work yet, can't until they take my gallbladder out which is really frustrating me. The allergy just means they have to use drug B not drug A. My mum has it and nearly died having c-secs with the three of us before it was diagnosed.

Judging from how my insides feel this morning, this is not our month either! Which I knew, we are not really allowed to try yet, but would mean I have had two periods since Dexter was born. Which I am pleased about, that is two more than I had the 18 months before he was concieved! Never thought I would be looking forward to AF!

Wishing us peaceful weekends. x

I am very tired this afternoon, I feel like af is on the way but then again not. I have lower back ache. So I'm symptom spotting, ahhhgggghhh I really hate this. I can't get my hopes up but there's certains parts of me that can't help it.

Oh fan it must be impossible not to symptom spot. I have everything firmly crossed that this is your month. Miserable weather not helping with the tiredness too.

Glad you're taking a bit more time little

Well we've spent the day shopping for some baby stuff Have bought some early baby clothes as I think newborn/0-3 will be too big at first and a gorgeous blanket for her and stuff for hospital bag. Had some tears in mamas and papas as we saw the soft toy and blanket we had bought for Erin that we buried her with God I hope we actually get to bring this baby home. I'm so scared.

August Blue Mias Trickle how are you ladies all doing? xx

wtw that must have been so hard. Its so hard not to think that ligthening will strike twice.

When I am pg I'm going to crochet a rainbow blanket.

We're doing ok! Went to the Next sale to get a dress for E as all the dresses she has are hand me downs and we are to attend a wedding in the congregation in 2 weeks with the family she gets the clothes from so she needed a new one only bought the one dress for her, we have been very good... :) we're still quite tight on money every month so not a lot of extra's...
Went into ToysRUs to have a look at baby stuff but the selection was rubbish. Looking at buying the the Tommee Tippee Closer to Nature Complete Starter kit and found it for £59.90 on Amazon... now to convince DH

fan my mum is making me a rainbow quilt for this little one... She made one for E and is making one for my nephew and is gathering all the stuff for making one for this little one.
She thought it was a very nice idea of it being a rainbow one, she hadn't heard of the term rainbow baby before...

wtw hugs! must have been so hard! I hope for us all we can take these little ones home...

blue they sound really nice. My mum makes blankets and she made some during my last pg, but I dont think of them as being Ophelias, but I dont want her making anymore. I want to make a big rainbow blanket that my next DC can use it for a long time.
It is hard isnt it when you buy all this stuff and make stuff for your baby and then they are not here. But Ive decided to think of the stuff as hand me downs from Ophelia. I guess thats the only way to think about it all.

Everything is so bittersweet now. I was looking around in mothercare and mamas and papas at the excited couples and I was so jealous that we weren't like that. I chose a 'going home' outfit for her and all I could think was 'please god don't let this end up being the outfit we have to bury her in'

Packing my bag was weird as I haven't touched it since Erin so there was still nappies/breast pads/clothes in there that were intended for her.

Fuck. Those who said the closer you get the harder it becomes were so right.

Meant to say I like that way of looking at it fan. Both yours and blues rainbow blankets sound gorgeous

wtw hugs to you, must be so hard. But you have done it now, all you can do is wait I guess.

Did you get my fb message?

I think that is the way to think about it wtw thats what Erin has left for her little sister.

Whatever xxxxx know where you re coming from so hard but all this will be forgotten in a matter of weeks xxxxxx

Im going in for induction on Sunday 22nd. Feeling excited one minute and terrified the next. Finding it all really difficult so sorry for short post, just wanted to let you all know.
Lots of love xx