Rainbow Babies - hoping and trying for rainbows, loving and remembering our Angels xxx

[Ellypoo]

Hoping this thread brings us all luck and hope xxx

Welcome mecha so sorry that you find yourself here. I hope you find this thread supportive thru your ttc and pre-ttc journey.
My daught Ophelia was still born at 36 weeks 15 months ago. We have had two early miscarriages since.
Please tell us your babies story.

wtw get signed off and have lots of rest before that little baby comes along.

moomin great news!

I had a bit of a break down yesterday and ended up crying after swi. Never done that before. Its all this waiting its driving me nuts!

Sorry not to name check everyone I'm on my blackberry and its hard to see all the posts.

Waves!

Welcome mecha im sorry you have found yourself here but there is not a more supportive group of ladies for ttc and going through a pregnancy after loss than here. I lost my dd2 Erin at 35 weeks last August. I am blessed to be expecting my rainbow in about 5 weeks time.

Oh Fan it's just not fair lovely. I'm not surprised you had a meltdown you are definitely entitled to! Big hugs xx

I think I will give it another week at work and see how I feel. If I am still struggling I will see GP. Will be nearly 33 weeks by then anyway.

Hideous sleepless night, lots of bad dreams when I did manage to sleep. Have had a bad pain in my side since yesterday morning so have just text my midwife to see if I can go and see her today. Rationally I know it's probably just a pulled muscle or something innocent but in the dark of the night i managed to convince myself she would die if I just ignored it. This is so hard

WHATEVER... You poor love. Do you have an understanding medical team/ midwife? I'm sure it's nothing, and things get so scarey in the night don't they, but your MW should see you whenever you want I think..... Even if it's to reassure you and let you hear your little ones ok. You are doing so well, and it's not too far now....

FAN... I want to give you a big hug. And I want this to be your month...

MECHA... Hello again, I know your story from your thread. I joined this thread and started trying for another baby as soon as the doctor said I could after my little girl Merryn died when she was 6 days old. I miss her ever moment of the day, but these ladies have shown me its ok to try again, even very soon. It's terrifying though! I hope you get to have your op soon, and you are finding your way through the days and hours.

AUGUST, how are you?

Horrid wtw, I hope you can get yourself signed off and that you get to see your mw today.

blue - fab news on your scan, loved the pic xx

(((hugs))) fan and blizy - it doesn't get any easier, does it - have just signed up for that clearblue trial, so we'll see if that helps at all, have either of you tried anything like that?

Hi mech - I recognise you from the other thread, well done for finding us here - this thread is full of such supportive ladies who all know and understand exactly.

How is everyone else? Seems like ages since I've been on - so much seems to have happened! Me and a couple of my angel mummy friends organised a charity do last weekend for Sands, so that really took up a lot of time - a local paper came to take pictures and did a big feature on us which was great, but I feel drained now!

Nothing more to report really, am going for blood tests on Monday because of my light-headed spells and headaches, and then back to the doc next fri for follow up. Not plucked up the courage to call a counsellor yet. Still struggling to cope, but then I suppose we have got so much pressure on us at the moment which is keeping me dead busy, so I suppose it isn't surprising really.

Wtw- hope you are feeling better today?

Ellypoo- what's the clearblue trial? I am in my second cycle using the clearblue fertility monitor.

I saw a thread on here, so I went onto the website and entered my details - I guess they'll call me if I fit their criteria. Basically, I think they give you the CBFM to use for 3 months, and you have to send details and information and things back to them, I guess so that they can see how well they work! Will see, I probably won't be accepted anyway :)

Oh that sounds good elly, fingers crossed you get accepted! I got mine from eBay for only £15.

Lovely midwife fitted me in for a quick check up. She has no idea what the pain is but babies heartbeat all fine and urine clear and bp normal so just have to hope it goes away soon! It's very odd, its like a ball of pain in my lower left abdomen but if I take a deep breath in or sneeze the pain intensifies and shoots across my bump. Weird.

Hope you get picked Elly! Saw your sands event on Fb it looked really good

whatever Glad to hear that you sound more reassured after your appointment. Hoping you have a restful night. But if you don't, please do get to A&E rather than lie there and worry. x

Thank you for the welcome! I am indeed Dexter's mum. He is our first son. On 30th April this year I went into labour unexpectedly and with no warning. Dexter was born at 24+2 weeks. He stayed with us for 12 wonderful days, but was just too premature and his lungs were not strong enough.

We took two years to conceive, and had just started having further tests. I had had no periods for 18 months, so really saw Dexter as my little miracle. There is not a moment we do not miss him. But we need to try again. Although we haven't yet had any answers as to why he was born so soon (infection has been ruled out but that is all) the doctor has said there is no physical reason we should not try again. I am so anxious it will take as long again.

Although, saw the surgeon today and it will be at least a month before this darn gallbladder is out. And I will have to wait a month after the op to start ttc. This has made me surprisingly sad.

WTW I hope you feel better soon! Glad your midwife is kind and taking you seriously.

wtw pelvis woke me up tonight so you have my sympathy - I have a knee cushion, a bump cushion, a bunch of pillows, a D shaped pillow and memory foam mattress topper and a support belt lol I can't exactly get comfy but they do mean I can usually sleep. I've also had quite a bit of ligament pain this pregnancy - some below the bump, some around it, partly what all the padding is for - you can get bump supports on ebay do you think that might help? It really hurts if I sneeze or cough without holding myself

fan I think you're entitled to a bit of a cry, probably slightly overdue really got FX for you and Blitzy

blue so pleased to hear the scan went well, did you say you were being moved back to midwife led care - if so that's fab, congratulations on being low risk (if it's baby brain do forgive )

Hi meach, so sorry to meet you here but it's a good place with very good people, hope we can help you, it's quite a journey. I love your little boys name. I lost my son Sproglet at 42 weeks, we'll never know why, I'm currently 30 weeks with my rainbow baby, we waited two years to ttc again as I have a wonky body and needed to get it stuck back together as much as possible before it was sensible to try again - it's hard waiting but it was worth it.

Things have been wonderfully boring here - long may it continue

Trickle glad u re ok?
Welcome & sorry Mech xxx my first DD was stillborn at 41 weeks due to E Coli on 10/10/10 ;Georgie. My second DD was born on 18/10/11 :Phoebe our true rainbow .. Xxxx
Hope u have lots of RL support xxx
Whatever glad u feel reassured as Mia said if you re worried get to the hospital I virtually lived there the week Phebs was born ... Try & rest , take care xxx
Love to all xxxx
Busy here , Phebs much more settled in her own room so we re all getting more sleep yeh
Yesterday was my day off had a lovely day shopping with Phebs. Work now then pub after for a leaving do tomorrow off to see Ant in micro light flight!!! ( note to self; insure him today!!!) we bought him as a 40 th present last year but obviously have to wait for decent weather!!!! Rather him than me !!! It's my idea of hell !!! Xxxxx

Sorry I've been a bit absent the last few days and haven't name checked! I've been lurking and reading but just feel so so tired still... no energy to do anything (you should see the state of the house) I better tidy up as I've got a friend with her 2 little boys coming over later this afternoon.

Mech welcome here! I've followed your story on the bereaved mums thread! I'm sure little Dexter is watching over you and wishing you a sibling for him as soon as you are ready! x
My little girl Sterre was born at 20+4 weeks last year, after we discovered at the 20 week scan a few days before she had died. She had a chromosomal disorder called triploidy which is incompatible with life. Currently pregnant with what seems to be DD3 :) Today I'm 20+5 weeks, so I'm pregnant longer than I was with Sterre last year... reassuring and scary both at the same time.

trickle the consultant hasn't released me yet, and I'm actually quite happy about that, she is seeing me again at 28 weeks end of August and if everything is fine, will probably release me back to midwife-led then...

wtw glad the midwife saw you so quickly and I echo Mia do go to A&E/maternity ward if you are worried! I've got terrible and very vivid dreams as well, which just make me more tired in the morning when I get up than how I felt going to sleep... not fun!

Elly what an amazing achievement you did there for Sands! Read the article! Good stuff! well done!

mecha hello again, so glad you want to be on this thread. Lots of people here who will understand you. It might feel like a waiting game for now, but you have taken the first step. I think you know my story - my beautiful red-headed Mia died totally unexpectedly last October at the age of 13 months. I am 42, and knew we wanted more children, and were thinking seriously about IVF when I found I was pg - a birthday present from Mia. Now 18 weeks, and nervous, but have realised the love and joy I shared with Mia is what I must think about for her little sibling.

trickle I hadn't known your full story, but have so much admiration for your tenacity and determination. Sending you speedy, uneventful thoughts for these last few weeks.

blue sorry to hear things haven't been so easy these past few days. Hope the weekend is better.

angel yay for lovely shopping trips with your gorgeous girl!

Sorry to hear you've got a long wait mech what a little fighter dexter was to stay for 12 days xx

Ah trickle sorry your pelvis is giving you trouble too Whats the plan for your birth elcs or induction?

Yay for more sleep angel I found the same with K when we moved her I think she was more comfortable in her cot. Good luck to Ant rather him than me!!

Sorry you're still feeling tired blue are you signed off next week as well? Miserable weather isn't helping could do with some sun! Don't worry about the house wish I could take my own advice

Miasmummy you will get there, you will love this little one as much as you do Mia. I felt strangely detached until about 22 weeks this time then whoomph the love for this little one hit me like a tonne of bricks. Just remember if Mia was here, as she should be, you'd feel no guilt whatsoever about loving her sibling just as much xxxx

Still got stupid pain in my side but she is moving around fine so am going with it. Still another week at work down, maximum of 3 to go!

Hurrah for Andy Murray, can't wait for Sunday now! K got offered a place at our original first choice of school today so now have a big dilemma

Fab news on K's school offer. Sorry you re having pains 3 weeks will totally fly by . I can t believe how quick this year is passing its scarey. 3 little weeks then you re one massive step closer to your baby
Hi all hope you re all surviving the weather? Fully expecting Ant's micro- light flight to be cancelled got to ring them this am. Phebs so tiny in her cot bed looks like a little dot !!! However, slept much better from 9:30- now!!! Bliss...( though damn cat causing mischief downstairs!!!)
Mia I certainly do enjoy my shopping trips!!! Don t think my credit card does though hope you re ok?
Love to all xxxx

wtw can't believe murrays in the final can't wait till tomorrow!
I saw about K's school on your fb, is the other school close to your work? I've always thought R was a really good school. I went to W, it is a dilemma.

Again, thank you all for welcoming me. It is good to know this is possible although hard!

I feel sad I will have to wait so long to even start trying, and guilty that I want to try again. I could never ever replace Dexter. He is my precious, first born baby boy. My son. But we always wanted siblings for him as soon as we could.

We have so much love just waiting for a baby.

Trying to be positive and look at this as two months to keep tempetature charting, being healthy and taking unholy amounts of folic acid.

Hope we are all having a good weekend xx

Hi mecha, sorry to about your little dexter. My dd Zoe was stillborn at 41 weeks on 28th feb 2011, she was our first child. We have been ttc since May 2011 with no success yet.
I hope time for your op comes around quickly.

Mecha thats the way to think about it, your other children that you will have are siblings to Dexter not replacements. He will always be your first born, nothing will ever change that.

Just seen the sad news that Aillidh has died, her poor family. She has touched so many lives with her story 'love like starlight'

How is everyone this Winmbledon final day? I have booked the tv for the afternoon, DH is down the pub. Hoping for a really good match.

Hi all - been quiet on here, how's everybody doing?

Loved the tennis did you fan? thought both played fairly immaculately and it made for a very high quality final. Federer just managed to pull it out the bag when it mattered though. Think Murray should be v.proud of how he played today.

Am feeling much better after a weekend of not doing too much. If all the pains start up again when I go back to work tomorrow I will have to think about stopping early.

Whatever..... Glad you are feeling a bit better! I didn't get to watch the tennis....had to go to DSs dyslexia tutorial instead. Hmmm.

Mecha.... The time will pass and you'll be trying soon. I too am on ridiculous amounts of Folic acid. They said they would put me on baby asprin if I get bfp too. My days of caring about doing it all naturally are over, I'll do anything!

I am not coping very well with the whole ttc cycle. I want to just 'be' pregnant, I don't want to have to go through the worry of maybe not getting there again... I am prob able to test on wed, but already feel a bit premenstral so I think it's not going to be my month anyway. If its next month the due date would be in the same week as Merryns birthday, I don't know if I can cope with that either. Hell, it's all a bit impossible really.

green it is so hard ttc, isn't it? I remember it so well, and being pregnant is not easy either... once you've experienced what we've all been through you're bound to worry about everything :(

wtw and fan watched the tennis, but fell asleep during the last set, woke up to see that Federer had won. E was fast asleep on me, for almost 2 hours and it was so cosy she made me fall asleep too... It was so nice being snuggled up with her on the sofa!

Green it's all hard xxx
Mech we were asked to wait to after Georgie's PM results ( about 8-10 weeks after she died) however, we didn t !!! Though I didn t get pg until 2-3 months later.
I m afraid I m the opposite of most & glad Wimbledon is over with , bores me to death & Andy Murray is a mangy beggar ; never smiles!!!
Got 2 days off now ; yeh however on my AL got the dentist tomorrow , not so good as need a filling replacing as had toothache
Hope u re all ok? Actually saw some sun today xxx