Well I'm trying really hard not to, but I am of course going slowly and quietly mad. Someone should ban Google. I mean, I've done this all before, I've seen it all before, heck I've Googled it all before, and of course just because you read women saying "oh I had low hCG/faint pg tests for days and it was all fine" does NOT mean that is the case for yourself! I'm not going to test again until one week past when AF was due, next Sat, and then if the FRER is still faint, well I know the answer for definite. It's like I'm a split person - one half of me is shouting "you've seen this before, you know this is an early miscarriage, you'll start spotting in two weeks' time", but the other half of me is stubbornly saying "well you never know, stranger things have happened". Half One of me is quite disgusted with Half Two, and has stomped off muttering about insanities and pie-in-the-sky attitudes.
Ok, I'm going quietly insane, I did say so, right? :) The hard part is, I am most likely not going to actually know for a couple of weeks - it seems to take that long for my body to wake up and realise things aren't working properly even with a CP/early miscarriage, which ticks me off no end. And I am not the most patient person in the world!
Any of you lovely pregnant ladies got a spare crystal ball I could borrow?
I'll stop muttering now and try to stop my mad Googling ... hard, when you work in IT as I do and so am on a PC all day long ...