Just MC and ready to try again? Pregnant after MC and seeking somewhere safe to hide? Come on down to the mosh pit for some serious metalling and cake overindulgence

[WhyAlwaysBoris]

Continuation of the last thread.

There's cake for scoffing, backs for patting, and screeching death metal for all your metalling moments. All welcome so come on in and get settled into the plush sofas!

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So settle into the mosh pit, we have special VIP area's for those on the 2WW, the new bumps metalling with segregated areas for the first/second/third trimesters and the club class cocktail bar for those who have just got AF and can get-pissed let loose for the first two weeks!

pebs I am so pleased you liked Rai and that he has thought of some other angles for you. Here is hoping it solves the problem for you.

jaffa wonderful, wonderful news, that has made my day.
Bring on the 2nd trimester!!!

manda how frustrating for you! Can you take your DH with you to the next meeting, its hard to make your point clearly without feeling vulnerable given everything you have gone through? Your mental health should also be of paramount importance at this stage (althouh agreed this has to be balanced with inducing you too early) I don;t know much about it but can you ask for them to assess your bishop score? Apparently this can be quite a good indication as to whether induction will work or not?

manda and martha thank u girls the support from here is just amazing it's so hard when in rl no one knows except dh and i feel it's so unfair to lay all my mentalling on him the minute he gets in from work so I try not to but I've no one else to over share with so thank u.

I've been googling like mad loss of symptoms between 7-8 weeks and for as many 'this is normal it happened to me and dc is now next to me' stories there are just as many 'I knew something was wrong and I was right I mmc' so confused and in for a sleepless or nightmare filled with empty sacs and blank scan screens night tonight I so wish I could feel more positive but it's so hard.... Maybe I'm a bit bonkers to ... Even considered a cheese sandwich earlier with big milkshake .... Not unusual u may think BUT I'm dairy intolerant and this would be a sure fire way of making me puke thus I could then induce ms type symptoms now really who in there right mind would consider trying to intentionally give themselves fake pregnancy symptoms to stop metalling?!?! well me obviously!!!! im just so fed up anxious and scared that I am quite literally going mad

mumtum I have done my fair share of creating pg symptoms. Like eating too much so I feel sick, poking my boobs till they're sore, making extra trips to the loo even though I don't really need to. Hang on in there.

mumtum I'll have all my fingers and toes crossed for you tomorrow xxx

marbles we share a birthday! I've had a few more than you though. You must be very worried about DD but she is now on the road to diagnosis which can only be a good thing?

Jaffa enjoy your trip!

manda maybe next week! How exciting! Here's hoping for a spontaneous labour and a sneeze birth

I have told people at work so now I am official - bit scary and I'm counting down the days til my 16 week scan - even though I don't have a date yet

Right ladies. I have officially begun to breathe agan. 14+2 scan today at noon and......all is good. Baby is still measuring perfectly for an EDD of 6 November and was wriggling around. Baby is still incredibly stubborn though - refused to pose for more than 2 pictures. He is apparently now 9cms long and has little hands and feet with fingers and toes :) Still too early to tell the sex (grump) but that's fine.

I've signed up to the Pregnancy Outcomes Predition Study that Addenbrookes is currently running. They give you 2 extra scans (at 28 and 36 weeks) for free and take blood samples, and then will analyse the data to see if there is any way to predict various outcomes/illnesses/etc from the various scans and results.

kirren thanks! although... that's kinda my problem. I do have sneeze births (well, the last two, it took an hour to get to 4cms, then 40 more mins until birth). I am GBS+ so need antibiotics during labour (didn't have time last time, obviously, and as DS2's infection markers were high he had IV antibiotics for 3 days - not the happiest start to life). I'm also of a distance from the hospital that means during rush hour I could end up birthing at the side of the road...add to that my morbid fear of a life threatening PPH such as after my loss and all in all I just wanna be in the hospital when things start (ie, to have the anti biotics started, then induced and bobs my uncle, fanny's my aunt, I am in The Right Place if things move as suddenly as usual or if things go Tits Up). Oh, add in that DS2 was 9lb 12oz and although I birthed him ok, I'm aware of the increased risk of should dystocia if this babe proves to be of a size such as his brother (or, woe, outdoes him...). I just wanna be MANAGED! If I was in the States, they'd be bending over backwards to intervene - it's their default position! (not saying that's best - I actually prefer our more hands off, it's a natural process way - just that when you've been on the wrong side of statistics a few times, when you have genuine concerns (as well as irrational ones!), when you just need a little more hand holding... it seems the hand is reluctant to be there).

Wow. Rant much?

Innyhoo, I've got a bit of an off tummy today... when I went into labour with DS2 that's how it started (altthough I only twigged it with hindsight). I'm such a tease, eh? I actually feel a little bit queasy too so it's probably NO! NOT THE RETUEN OF THE NOROVIRUS! just a bit of a bug or something.

If I get as far as next appointment, I'll bring up the bishop score far even though I don't relish the idea of being rummaged around with for them to say 'Hey, come back next week!'. DF can't really come in with me as he has to look after DS2 - the curse of daytime appointments; other daycare options are at work or college.

pops on to say manda am eagerly lurking for your news (just wanted to let you know!) and I hope DS has a smooth arrival into the world :) xx

tiago great news! I am still fretting every day that something will be wrong and feel like i'm wishing away the next 7 weeks!

Hello everyone, not been around this week so just had a big catch up read now!

Brilliant new on the scans, girls:
jaffa, :) so relieved for you, congratulations on your girl
leedy :) (hope the bp behaves itself)
tiago :)
tits :)
midge :) but am by the syphillis- surely they should make sure the test is right before they tell you!!!

marbles and martha good luck with testing saturday...

pebs glad things went well with raj rai, and thanks for updating us on what he said, i always learn lots from you.

I have had the whole battery of clotting tests done but my dh has not had any so now i am metalling like mad about whether he should have had them too and whether to email the consultant to ask him about it or whether this would further blot my copy book with him ( i have form here for previously asking why i wasn't having a teg test)...

My blood test results appointment is in two weeks, should i wait till then to ask, or should i email asking if it is worth DH having them in case they can be done quickly??

mumtum, will be thinkinng of you tomorrow

Still one week to go on another bloody two week wait for me....grrrr.

oops how could i forget to say to manda am awaiting news on the arrival of DS.....queasyness plus off tummy plus contractions, surely an immient before the week is out arrival.

AF arrived this afternoon

Fingers crossed for you martha

Manda wow that seems like it has come around so quickly (for me, probably feels like a long time for you ;) ) really wishing you a smooth and straightforward time of it and like everyone else eagerly awaiting news!!!!!

Blue that must mean you're up soon too my lovely - how exciting How are you doing?

All of these imminent babies are reminding me that it has been almost a year since my MC and when I joined this amazing group of ladies. Can I just say once again, THANK YOU!!! To all of you, and especially those "old-timers" out there who have been with me on my journey for all of this time (and a special thank you to those who are about to produce (and already have IQ I speak to you!) hearing how you have been getting on over the past few months has provided some much needed positive vibes....

Anyway, I'll stop now before I start blubbing.....I guess the hormones are still a bit haywire at 23 weeks.....

hi all, haven't popped on for a while but have been lurking -
jaffa so sorry you've had such a rough time but glad the tests all came back negative, rest up now, you deserve a break
midget glad you have good news too
manda very excited for you, not long now!
marbs sorry AF has hit you again
tiago great news on your scan
pebs glad Raj appt was good
state hang on in there
Marbs and martha good luck with this month, I hope your DHs are up to it
iq if you're still lurking, hope that lovely baby is letting you have some sleep (lovely name btw, great minds!)

to everyone else, it seems like you all have good news, but have only skimmed the thread so apologies if I've missed something

We're TTC now, I'm in the 2ww, I'll join you marbs, boris and martha and anyone else (and root out that stats thread).

I've been madly baking bread for some reason, so I'll bring to the party - walnut and cherry bread, tomato and olive foccaccia and some choc brownies

So much to catch up on...

Good luck Tas and great news Tiago.

Boris I think DH had clotting tests too but we have had so many bloody tests over the last few years they all merge into one.

Manda you should be getting your hand held. I was surprised at how the consultants took my issues so seriously yesterday (actually more seriously than I do and we all know what a mettaller I am). I think it is the least good care providers should do. I struggled to start speaking up for myself and I am also not normally backwards in coming forward. It was my DH who went into all teh things that went wrong and then I realised how shit/dangerous it really was. Shall I come down with you and lick them into submission? Sounds like you need someone by your side speaking up for your concerns.

MumTum get the hell away from google. We can drive ourselves demented like I did all day on Tuesday. Knowledge is power but random threads full of mentalists aren't not that any of us are like that.

Marbles thank god you have an appointment, so worrying for you all until you know what you are dealing with. Big raspberries to shoulder surgery and AF though.

Pebs so glad you got on well with Raj Raj. Makes such a difference when you find someone who listens and understands. I was so relieved just after my first consult with the nurse specialist at St Marys as it just seemed like someone was listening to it all, in a holistic way. And it was the first time really. Hope things start to move for you.

Kirrin congrats on coming out - hope it didn't freak you out too much.

martha I don't want to have to come to you to kick AF so good luck POAS.

I am sure I have forgotten someone important but the TIVO box is calling me so some much needed catch up TV vegging. I am still getting over syphilisgate

oh marbles so sorry the-bitch AF got you i have a feeling i am not far behind as i-did four ICs tonight all with BFNs i am just bloody hormonal with those stabby pains which imply AF is on her way

if so i am on the wine this weekend!!

Mumtum, I hope you get good news tomorrow. You are in my thought.

Marbles, sorry about AF. I was so hopeful for you.

Manda, I am thinking of you too. I hope you gather enough physical
and emotional energy to get through it all.

Tiago, Addenbrookes is my hospital! I did the POPs trial with my DD. The extra scans were fab! (in pre metal days).

Midget, loved the comedy syphillis story. Has the bleeding stopped? Hope so.

Tas, glad you are back here again! Lots of luck.

Pebs, so glad you had a good appointment with Raj Rai. I hope you get some answers.

Martha, good luck with the tests.

My discharge is improving so huge sigh of relief. Having some twinges, but they feel very stretchy rather than crampy.

Waves to boris, state, tits,poppy,pie, kirrin and anyone I have missed.

Evening all,

I told my closest friend today, which is always very hard, she has pcos and other problems and has been trying since before I had dc1, she's a wonderful friend and a doting godmother to the dcs but I always feel a huge pang or guilt and greed when telling her I'm expecting, she was lovely ofc as she always is. Still makes me feel bad though :(

I have a horrid blocked nose that's making me dizzy

:( marbles

Sorry manda - no sneeze births for you then. How about I wish for a really quiet labour ward and your own personal consultant ready and waiting?!

Thanks for the boos to AF I'm surprisingly laid back about it this cycle I'm glad of a 26 day cycle unheard of for me to be honest

Boris I think it's worth asking your consultant for dh blood clotting tests. I have never heard of anyone having this before but maybe it's the norm at st marys. Raj rai said if it shows up on dh tests you will need a blood thinner that crosses the placenta. Heparin doesn't so it wouldn't work.

I am not sure if my consultant will do it but if not we can go back to London to get if done.

I couldn't sleep last night and have been up since 4. I am driving myself mad worrying about referrals etc. I just wanted to ttc this month and now I can't do anything for ages .

I am annoyed with my consultant as I asked for a referral to Liverpool last year and she said they wouldn't do anything more than she had done so there's no point. Now she (and raj) want me go to for the hysteroscopy. I could have done that while I was having a break from ttc last year. Just feel like time is passing me by as it's two years since I started ttc and I am still waiting.

Good morning so lovely to see so many of you in the thread again ( although not lovely for you to be here - gah, you know what I mean!)

So the sun has made its first appearance here (down south) but typically after a nice evening with no sickness ( although we saw American Pie and it is as shite as the first ones) I woke up feeling terrible and have spent my time with my head in the loo ever since, so sun or no sun I'm staying out for the day and will probably sleep until at least lunchtime. I will then entertain the idea of house work or some sewing of more blankets.

Tonight I have to go to a birthday meal, which bizarrely for a 27 year old man is in Pizza hut, not a problem except my ex and (a**ehole father to my boys) gf works there, she is an actual psychopath, so that should go down swimmingly because she actually hates me and wants me dead.

Oh well. Enough about me, I hope your scan goes well today mumtum and I hope everyone else is well
And good.

Morning all :)

Fingers crossed for you today mumtum

tits hope you're feeling better soon - and remember, house work can always wait.....

Thanks ladies

Just got to the car park for the hospital and drive straight into a space that is unheard of. Now have time to kill before my appointment .... You know that bonkers side of my personality I may have previously mentioned? Well how's this to add to it. Since my wedding reception I've had a small piece of the ribbon from wedding cake in my handbag tied around the handle loop. I changed bag this morning ( needed brown not black and desperately trying to kill time) and had this unshakeable feeling that if I didn't swap the ribbon onto the new bag it would be bad luck now what is that all about ?!?!?but to add to it to ..... Ive now convinced myself if they go straight to use the dildocam I've mc they must know something.... If they go to scan abdominally I may be in with a chance .... So bets on I'm in tears when she gets the dildocam straight in?!?! I think my rationalle on this is that I should be 7+5 today so they should see something abdominally surely ?!?!?

Omg omg omg I'm so tense this makes the 2 minute wait after poas seem like a walk in the park now I have to wait for a trained professional to tell me if I'm pregnant

Sorry for the me me me

Tits sorry you feeling so sick still
Jaffa thank u for your thoughts and midget and everyone else to

Good luck to those that need it and Martha any news yet ? Have u caved and poas again?????

Good luck Mumtum (for the record I think ribbon - not mad, dildocam thing - little but mad - they often go straight in with the dildo before 8 weeks so don't deck her when she slips on the condom).

Hope you don't get decked at Pizza Hut Tits.

Not good sac now has foetal pole and yolk but only measuring 6 weeks I should be at the minimum 7+5 no heartbeat could be seen. Protocol states as there is change from 2 weeks ago I have to be re scanned in one week to confirm the mc. They were really not positive . Another one over for me

Oh mumtum xx x xx