Fantastic 40+ thread - part 6

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Over here everyone

Hello, can i be so bold as to add my story to the amazing, moving stories on this thread.

I'm 40, have one DS age 3 who was conceived on first attempt, now ttc#2. Tried three times Oct-Dec 11, each time convinced I was pg. Got implantation pains, emotional surges like the first time. Stopped then started again in May. Used the clearblue sticks you wee on and give a smiley face. not sure if this is OPK or CBFM. Again, in fact especially, convinced I was pg. Implantation pains, emotional surges. Took test - negative. Took test again - negative. Then period was late by one day. Now it's arrived and it feels much worse than usual and I feel sick. Wondering if I was pg or not.

There's no way of knowing what will happen. I don't want it to take over my life, but at the same time I want to try everything.

Welcome somewherebecomingrain all best wishes for this attempt.

Gum - can't offer any advise sorry, I would be as in the dark as you, my love. But I'm really hoping for a good outcome for you. X

I have had a thought gum - it's not what you'd want to hear but it is possible to conceive an ectopic and a normal pregnancy at the same time and then MC. That would account for the bleed but the ectopic would continue to produce hgc. It happened to a friend of mine and also Matthew Wright's wife I think. Obviously, I hope this is not the case with you but could you or have you ruled it out? XXXXXXX

btw i would like to say how moved i am by angelgeorgie and mias stories. I.m not sure I understand all the ins and outs cos it's such a long thread and i've not been able to read it all. but thinking about you and mia well done I am literally praying for you.

and thanks italiangreyhound

Thanks & welcome Somewherebecomingrain xxxx certainly has been a very long & horrible journey but so worth it to have my 2 girls ( though not as I'd want it) .... Hope your stay is short & fruitful!!!! Good luck xxx
Gum hope u re ok? Interesting ... Xxx
Hi Italian xxx
Any babies yet? Hope Lol,FF all ok?
Love to all; hope everyone's well? Xxx.

Hello ladies as usual I've been away far too long.

hopeful, I wish I had some words of wisdom and truly hope that your doc on Monday gives you some good news. Your head must be all over the place at the mo.I think the not knowing is always somehow worse than the knowing.
welcome somewhere, I hope your stay is short.
Hello to everyone else italian, angel, hippy, clicking, MAM and all the newbies
lol, FF any news?

As for me, I'm doing OK....I think there was a faint second line on my preg test this morning (DH also agreed). I'm quietly stunned especially as we didn't do the do on the smiley face ov stick day - just the night before. After last year's M/C and chem pg, I'm feeling extremely cautious. I've had some waves of nausea today (which makes me feel anxious about morning sickness which I had fairly badly with DD but hoping that second time around I'll be better, but also hopeful hormones are doing the things they should be doing.....) According to my dates I'm 4 weeks 3 days. Early early days. I think it's a case of wait and see.

Lots of love to all xx

That's frigging ace knicky. Fingers, toes and everything else crossed for you.

Gum hoping you get a good outcome from your visit to doc Monday.

Welcome somewhere

Hi Angel. Hope you're doing ok? Thanks for asking about me, and knicky too. Start of week 39 today. Beginning to get slightly anxious about birth from newbie's point of view. Wasn't bothered before. Oh well, it has to come out in the end!! Started drinking lots of Rasp Leaf tea, taking EPO and about to have Clary Sage bath, in hope of bringing labour on before dreaded induction. Hosp bag 90% ready and by the door.

I went through a load of old emails on Thursday and realised it was as good as a year ago that first round of IVF failed. So, feels pretty good to have made it so far. Was losing hope last Sept of ever having own children, and then got that miraculous BFP.

Lol how are things with you?

Love and hugs to all. FF xx

Hi everyone - thanks for checking up on me . No news here, I'm afraid, although the head is engaging more every day. Due 19th, but hoping it will come a couple of days early, like the others. Had a lovely clary sage aromatherapy massage in a bed with a cut outs and hammocks for boobs and bump. She also gave me some reflexology to help start things off, but all I've got is rather strong Braxton Hicks and nothing more. Am going to watch some comedy to see if I can laugh this baby out!

Gum Gosh, the flood sounds awful. Bad luck! How unnerving about the tests, as well. It's a question of sitting back and waiting, I suppose, to see what happens. So frustrating for you. Have you said anything to DH yet? How are you managing? ((( ))) xxx

Knicky fantastic news! That line is magical, isn't it? FTYAP!

somewherebecomingrain Welcome! Hoping you have some good news for us soon.

FF yes, we're hurtling towards B-day. Think you're due next Sat? I'm due to following Tuesday. Bring it on!!

Italian Angel Diege Clicking Twirly Sparkly MiasM Purple hope all's well with you guys. Sorry if the name check is lacking. Getting very tired and forgetful! xxx

Knicky fabulous news, well done. Bit hugs and arrow prayers.

That is great news knicky.

I can't believe you are so close to B-day, fireflies and lol. I'm really excited for you both.

I am trying to prepare myself for bad news tomorrow . It is going to be a long day today and tomorrow, waiting for test results. I think the most likely thing is that it is just something leftover from the miscarriage. But the funny thing is how the symptoms have only been noticeable since about Tuesday this past week. Why didn't the symptoms remain after the initial bleed,whether pregnant or not?i suppose it is a mystery and I'll find out soon enough. I still have tender boobs - they were really sore last night- and that preg taste in my mouth. But I'm not feeling any nausea, which I usually do by 7 weeks.

Someone (on another thread) suggested a molar pregnancy. It is something that never occurred to me. I really hope it isn't that. I do not want to have another erpc, that would be the pits. Nor do I want the worry of possible complications of molar pregnancy. I also hope it isn't ectopic.

I had kind of come to terms with the early miscarriage, to have it drag on just makes it harder.

On the other hand,if it is a real progressing pregnancy I will be elated...

Well, just did a clearblue test after holding wee for 3 hours and it says 'not pregnant',so I'm expecting the same news tomorrow . I just hope the hcg is leaving my body so I can move on. Really quite tired of the whole thing and want to move on.

Now I have fingers crossed that there's nothing retained, I really don't want surgery again. Also wish my boobs would stop misbehaving as it is just giving me altogether too much hope!

Hello all . Back from hols last night - had a great time in Whitby; weather not half as bad as predicted and kids had a ball. Quite tough going with ds2 waking regualrly at 4.55am but we're home now and just work and washing to look forward to...
Knicky that's lovely news, so pleased for you
Gum phew...what a rollacoaster you're on . I think I would too be mentally gearing up for it not being brilliant news, in light of the current preg test. I suppose one ray of light might be if indeed the pregnancy was a later conception, and you were just 1-2 weeks after all, then the digi test might not show up yet (I know they aren't as sensitive) but I know you can drive yourself mad going round in circles and I just hope you can get some certaintly tomorrow. It must be doubly hard keeping this to yourself (ie, not telling dh). Is there anyone in real life that you've been able to confide in? (sister?) Thinking of you x
Another week until my smear/hpv results, so trying to put to back of mind.
Love to all - cheering on fireflies and Lol!!!!

Glad u had a nice time Diege we re off tomorrow on our SUN cheapie: a week at Haven Sands. Dead excited as haven t stayed in a caravan for years!!! Hope it stays dry... Xxx
Gum sorry you re going through it... Some times it seems to drag on doesn t it? With my first MC I was medically managed & it took about 6 weeks before all was settled. Was a proper pain!!! Hope u get some answers tomorrow xxx
FF gosh 39 weeks wow!!!! nearly there!!!! You ve no choice over the baby coming out I m afraid!!!! But it ll all be so worth it in the end... Xxx
LOL nearly there also. Didn t realise you were so close. So excited for you both xxx
A week on Tuesday ???19 th June?? My wedding anniversary ... Go on , you can have that date!!! Xxx
Congrats Knicky hoping for a quiet & uneventful 40 weeks for u xxx
Hi all; love to all xxx
We re good , though knacked Phebs been full of cold again from nursery so disrupted sleep & generally very whingy & clingy. Most unlike her however, think we re turning a corner. Just been for a lovely walk in our local park, fed the ducks etc... Get her out in the fresh air while it's not raining. Off to see my lovely consultant & delivery staff with Phebs tomorrow ( only chance we ve had to catch up with them due to work etc...) then off to the seaside... Yeh...

I did a pregnancy test again this morning and it was positive, however, this afternoon I've started to bleed heavily so it seems I've had a chem p/g - I'm 6 days late on my period. Not to be this time - the waves of nausea have subsided too. Will make an appointment to see the GP tomorrow to see if there's anything he can do. This is the 2nd chem p/g - and with that m/c also there's clearly something that's not quite right yet - though in fairness it may just be the quality of my eggs these days (sorry ladies.....)

Am doing OK, just feeling like I need to wear the biggest baggiest pair of tracksuit bottoms I can find and eat the bar of galaxy in the fridge.

Thank you for the lovely words from you all, I'm so sorry not to be able to give you all more positive news.

xxxx

Oh Nicky I'm so sorry you think it might be a mc The heavy bleed must have been a horrible shock after the good news of 2 bfps. I hope your gp is supportive and that you can get to the bottom of whatever it is that is causing these early mcs (if this is indeed one) if it is something more than simply 'old' eggs. Will be thinking of you xxx

On a happier note, have a lovely break at the seaside tomorrow Angel - you deserve it! My sister goes on the Sun cheapies and has always had a wonderful time there .

Diege hope your results come back ok next week.

Sorry to hear it's not sounding so positive Gum

Knicky so sorry to hear you think you've had a chem preg and are now suffering m/c. Not fair at all. Am v upset for you. Please eat some more galaxy for me too. FF xx

Cheers Diege xxxx
Hope u re return to work is painless ? Xxx
Knicky sorry I too had a couple of CP s they stink ... Take care xxxx

Knicky don't give up hope, i may be OK. Get into those trakky bottoms and eat that chocolate, rest and see. Love Italain

Angel sorry, posted without saying hi. Have a lovely holiday. Glad things are going so well for you. FF xx

hopeful not sure really what to say, nothing can really help except to say we're here. I soooo want this to be a pg for you, it must be so confusing at the moment. xx

knicky I was elated then devastated to read your recent posts on here. As italian says, it may be ok. But yes, it sounds like seeking out more knowledge about what's going on could be helpful. I just hope you don't have to. xx

angel enjoy the caravan! Some of our favourite holiday memories growing up are our silly caravan adventures.

lol and fireflies wow, so excited for you both!

somewhere thank you for your thoughts about Georgie and Mia. My little red-head died last October totally unexpectedly at the age of 13 months. Life is still remains very terrible in all kinds of ways, and the fears of this pg are very real in my mind, but I know that both DH and I want Mia's little sister or brother very much. There is lots of good advice about ttc on this thread, and wonderful support, so I hope you see a BFP very soon.

well still consider myself fairly new to this thread and I am not fully upto date on everyones stories, but having just got a brief catch up on some of them, realise how trivial my moans are. Knicky and gum thinking of you and MiasM my heart goes out to you and also thinking of you. As I said trivial moans for me not my month yet again, 15 cycles of trying since mc, I don't even know if ovulating, opks positive is it worth doing temping I'm 43 or should I just accept its not going to happen, less tearful this month but still not keen to go back on pill etc in case there is one little egg left!! Just need to say it all out loud and prepare for next month. good luck everyone

No probs FF take care xxx
Miaalexandersmummy xxx thanks am looking foreward to the break. No work & chilling out .... You re doing so well. 1 day at a time. Odd how poignant the month of October is for us both???? ( Georgie born & obviously died oct 10 th , Phebs born October 18 th) bittersweet month indeed. Take good care of yourself xxxx
Love to all xxxxx

Oh Knicky, I'm so sorry to hear this. I wish we could both have good news. This journey is so hard. (((hugs)))

Today is going to be a long one, but I'm pretty sure of what the verdict will be.Feeling a lot less preggers today. Boobs settling down. But then I think - that's what happened after the miscarriage, so why the resurgence of symptoms last week? It's like a cruel joke!

Miasmummy, sorry to hear that things are hard for you. Sending loads of love your way.

I'll drop in tonight with my test results, but won't be surprised if it's not good news.