Emmsy's ladies lets roll into spring together! Bring on some sunshine!

[4everhopeful]

About time I start a thread! Pom poms still shaking, bumps growing, babies and toddlers talk a plenty, while the support, laughs, hand holds and weebling continues...

Darling monkey , praying for a miracle for you and sending over a huge big cuddle xx

evening ladies - hope the sun has been shining with you today?

monkey - as with the others, you don't deserve this . Once, just once, culd something good happen to a good person rather than the numptys who normally get the luck. Hope you're OK xx

Love to all else - I'm away for the rest of the week and need to get the house sorted, lunches made, dinners found etc.

Busy weekend as ever - was running the bar and tea and cakes at the summer fair on saturday and it didn't rain! Then school does there own festival in the evening - so was dancing away with the three kids untill 9pm in the school hall. Oh, we know how to live - bb was in her element!! Will be back for more personals on wednesday, when I'm up near Neeko, Rumours and Blue in Glasgee

Monkey Still crossing everything for you
Louey Have a lovely time away hope you get time to chill after your busy weekend

Well I'm fit to burst tonight E decided today was the day he would give his diddys to our friends little girl as "she's a baby and I'm a big boy" He showed her each diddy and explained what each one was decorated with and then put them in her bag. He only had them for sleep but he's settled today for a nap and now tonight he's gne down I am so pleased and shocked at how painless its been!
Meeting at nursery went well, I've laid out how to discipline him, they've assured me he's no worse than any of the others and talked lots about how bright he was they are taking some if my suggestions on board and raising some training needs so I feel it went v well and feel just a teeny bit more confident thanks for your unending support ladies

Still thinking of monkey, obviously empathising completely, its just shit isn't it? Is it really too much to ask to give our children a sibling?

Buddha gold shiny star to big boy E! Sounded like a really positive meeting with the nursery too, glad its renewed your faith in them and reassured you...

I'm feeling a bit and Id felt really positive about ttc again, I didn't really have time to take in my mc as we went straight off on hols and I purposely tried to bury it all and just move on as quick as poss.. Id half assumed id be ovulating whilst away, and as on holiday, Dh and I made the most of it and dtd every day for the whole wk, so was quietly hopeful we had a good chance, anyway I'm due around sunday (at least that will be 28 days since i started bleeding) I stupidly test today and yest, both BFN also a tiny bit of spotting today

I'm just gutted as thought i had symptoms and everything, every mc I've had I've been convinced I'm preg again the first cycle, its just that wanting and wishing I suppose...

Of course my 4everhopeful head says it could be too early to test, and the tiny browny spotting earlier could be an implantation bleed, but I feel very down and disheartened, Id felt quite upbeat with the secret hope i was pregnant again.. The big thing, of course, is the huge issue of treatment timeframe and that we will only have 2 more cycles after this for it too happen

Sorry for the me rant, had to get it off my chest...

4ever we are weebles remember, we weeble all over the place, we're up and down and sideways, but we never fall over. You are bound to be feeling down, it hasnt been very long, and probably now you're back from your hols and doing the normal everyday things, and your body has healed, your brain is still playing catch up and wonders back to what might have been. We know more than anyone how much that hurts, its your dreams that have been dashed and your hope that's been shot down. And of course, we all wanted that magical bfp in the first cycle after mc, its only natural, so dont be too hard on yourself about it. I dont know what else to say other than we have all been there and so we do understand (although I'm not doing a great job of saying it!) and it hurts more than anything, but you can get through it. Big hugs xxxxxx

Couldn't have put it better myself moon that's was lovely. Hope you're ok 4ever {{{hugs}}}

monkey hope you're ok and keeping everything crossed for tomorrow xxx

Thank you so much again moon, you just made me cry, what a kind empathic post, you're so lovely.. Thanks too Rumours for the hug, very needed and if wasn't virtual would of made me cry too..

I can't help but feel stupid for pinning all my hopes on being pregnant again, I totally threw myself into ttc again without dealing with any emotional aftermath of the mc, so am now being hit with a double whammy of sadness and disappointment 3rd BFN this morning, and af def on its way

Monkey know we just tx but I'm holding out for that miracle

Thanking god for my gorgeous miracle Summer so much right now, despite feeling utterly crap she is making me laugh singing cbeebies theme tunes and dancing crazily... Thank god thank god thank god, feel bad to be sad cos not a second goes by without eternal gratitude for being blessed with her...

4ever if we didn't have hope then what would we have?!? Keep hoping, it's all we can do in some circumstances. I am hoping for you and monkey, moon and buddha.

Just lurking for news from monkey. Computer is on the blink and I hate posting from my phone.

4ever - moon said it so eloquently. I think we have all done the same post mc as all you want is to be pg again. Don't be hard on yourself - it is just a natural thing to do. You had the holiday to look forward too and take your mind off things. And now you're back and back to normality -you start thinking about what it might have been and it sucks. Hugs. We're all here for you xx

Hi rumours - hope you are ok

Back later. I have a upright baby and he's causing havoc!

4ever so sorry it looks like this cycle isn't the one :( you have every right to be upset about it all, you're right that the last pregnancy and loss was a whirlwind & u haven't had time to take it in. Be kind to yourself lovely.

moon you are so lovely & wise.

buddha that's amazing about e and his diddies what a grown up boy u must be so proud. I have a thumb sucker here (and looks like ds2 will be too!) So will be a while yet I'm sure.. but I'm not bothered yet, I sucked my thumb til I was about 12

lbm hope you're enjoying yourself in blue & neekoland.. as ever sounds like you're winning in the supermum stakes..school fairs! How do you do it.

Another rainy afternoon & we're watching Ponyo for the millionth time.

4ever I'm so glad Summer managed to put a smile on your face today, what a little darling Rumours is right, you have to hope, or we may as well just give up. It is so tough each time that hope is dashed, but you have to believe that it will happen, and live up to your name... It got you Summer didn't it? I'm sending you a big hug, and I have high hopes for the next cycle for you

Moon I loved your post, such heartfelt words How's married life treating you? Xxx

Hello to everyone else Hope you are all well and that O isn't making too much mischief Louey .

No surprise here, I got the results I was expecting as hCG levels are down to 5 now. It's okay. I seem to be getting used to this now, and each time I go into autopilot a bit quicker. We have lots of lovely things planned over the summer to look forward to (meeting up with barbie being one of them!), and I wouldn't be able to do it all if I was pg. Am also going to start running, and am signing up for the Brussels 4km Ladies Run in Oct so that gives me something to work towards... Getting fit might help too! I do feel very frustrated because I don't know why we are continually having such bad luck. I really don't understand it at all. I just have to hope that our luck changes, and soon, because I'm not sure how much more of this we can put ourselves through. DH is gutted, and so wants another baby, and I can't help but think that I'm letting him down. I've said that to him, and he was lovely and told me to stop talking rubbish, but I really do feel like that. Each time I have to tell him bad news his lovely face is just so sad. Right, better stop now, or my composure will slip...

Will try to come back on over the weekend, but ds needs supper so have to go xxx

monkey I am so gutted for you, you brave lady. Thinking of you.

4ever another brave lady. Sending you ! Huge hug .

moon how serene and wise you've become since you added a Mrs to your name :)

buddha glad you got everything sorted with nursery. That's a clever cookie you have.

Sorry for short post. Out on work's night tonight but stop tomorrow for summer so will be back soon.

Anyone else reading Fifty Shades? I'm loving it !

Oh monkey I am so so sorry, I never gave up hope for you and will renew it now. You're not letting anyone down, but know how it can feel that way. Be kind to yourself, and remember to talk, let it out, talk to dh, us or even the walls, it helps

Oh monkey, i know you resigned yourself to the facts already, but once again, my heartfelt sympathy for an unfair and crap outcome, you are so right, your luck will change if there's any justice in this world cos you so bloody deserve your dream... Its great you have so much planned you can throw yourself into, and I'm glad to hear you are keeping the faith...

I had high hopes we could of held each others hands tightly over the next 8m, but I still have high hopes we will still get to do so in the hopefully not too distant future, along with moon & buddha too

I've taken heed and inspiration from you monkey, and from each of your lovely kind words, it has been a whirlwind and i have come back to reality with a bump, you are all right, I wasn't stupid to hope, its all we can do isn't it, it is what got me Summer, it is hard but we will get there, I think I needed to get all my bottled up emotions out, so as always, thank you.. xxxxxxx

neeko Ive heard so much rubbish about it that I just had to download it onto my kindle yesterday to see what all the fuss is about. Not started it yet...

That was meant to read I've taken inspiration and comfort from each of all of your lovely words and thoughts all lovely ladies!, Wouldn't want any of you to think that I didn't appreciate you taking time and thought to post your kind words to me, I'm forever grateful (& hopeful )

We're HOPEFUL weebles

monkey I'm so sorry :( but glad you are being practical about it all, sometimes it helps to have other things to focus on. I totally get about letting your dh down, I feel like that constantly and its a hard battle to win when nothing anyone says or does lifts that feeling. But I'm sure your lovely dh would not want you to worry, and would rather have a happy you anyday over another child. (I dont mean to come across as flippant about it, but my dh always says that as much as he wants a baby with me, he loves me and if it never happens, then I would be enough for him). Big hugs to you.

4ever more hugs for you too, and possibly a group hug?!

neeko and monkey not sure about being wise, more cynical these days, and a kind of 'whatever' attitude at the moment I am loving being married, I didnt honestly think I would feel any different, but it does in a weird kind of way, like more complete - we are still stupidly grinning at each other

to rumours cupcake and louey and all the other girls

Oh yes and 4ever it is not silly to hope, if you dont hope then what else do you have.

Oh monkey I'm so sorry, I was so hoping for better news . Your DH is right, it's not your fault and don't ever think that. Just wondering whether you have been tested for blood clotting problems as that seems to be the cause of so many very early mcs. I know my little sister was when she had her ivf and it turned out she did have clotting problems so they premptively treated her for them. Glad you have a fun summer planned and taking up running is a great idea (says me who loves running now!)

Off to watch the penalties in Spain v Portugal....

not fair, not fair, just not fair - monkey it's just rubbish. autopilot is a great protection, me thinks. Hope you and DH are OK - also rubbish that you have to tell him the bad news each time.

and 4ever you're not daft, just positive and positivity will get you another baby, it will, you'll see

neeko 50 shades - even my taxi driver the other day was telling me how good they are. Saw a girl at work who bought them in tescos and the old lady who sold them to her told her that they aren't your usual read. Sounds intriguing and a bit rude if you ask me!!

I understand summer has started here as schools have finished and it is tipping it down!!

Hi girls
Sorry ive not been on in ages i have been lurking just wanted to gives my love and hugs to the girls that need it [grin

Will be back soon xxx

Monkey