Oh Milly! I really hope you?re doing ok? I?m assuming you?re out of hospital now? Gosh what a shock! Look after yourself and get well soon.
Knackered I?m glad you?re feeling better. Sometimes work isn?t the right place to be, but sometimes it can provide a welcome distraction, hope you?re getting on ok.
Welcome to Isit, fingers crossed for your first FET 
So sorry to hear that Raspberry, but it?s good that you can consider other options. I think adoption in the UK can take about 8 months to get through the approval process (can?t think of a better word 
) but they seemed pretty optimistic that about 99% of couples get approved. The area I?m in says they won?t consider your application until about 6 months after you find out you?re infertile/failed IVF or similar, so that you can grieve for your lost biological child. I very much believe you have to grieve, after all, the biological children you assume you?ll have gets snatched away from you, your future as you imagine it changes in an instant and is lost. When I thought the IVF was going to be cancelled, and it would have been the end of my chances for a biological child, I made a small memorial in my garden. We have a beautiful azalea tree which is the only thing we kept when we made-over the garden as it is so pretty, and I?ve just put some little ornaments around it, and resting on the bottom of the tree stem is a little pebble with ?Hope? etched into it. It made me cry when DH put it there. I?ve put a sculpture next to it of a man and a woman holding each other with their foreheads touching, as a monument to what DH and I have stuck together through. (sorry that was a bit long-winded!)
Duggs I am a similar position ? I don?t think I can go through it all again. I?m on progesterone pessaries and have got no symptoms whatsoever
As for me, well I?m not holding my breath for testing on Friday. I?ve become an expert in how I feel when I?m not pg, and that?s exactly how I feel now. So I?ve had a bit of a shitty easter weekend in some respects. I?ve done loads of baking, but DH and I have also done loads of pretty aggressive arguing, mainly because I?ve been feeling so low. I?ve tried to tell DH but he won?t listen, he still wants to be optimistic. So I?ve been considering my other options, i.e. using an egg donor. I?ve only had one IVF cycle but it didn?t work very well and I just don?t think I can put myself through it again, I know that might make me sound weak but it?s just the way it is. I think donor eggs will ultimately be an easier option for me. Although I have to admit I still have to get my head around it. There?s just a few things that are still quite upsetting for me, but if I want to have a child, I?ll have to deal with them. It just makes more sense. They say you have a 50% chance with donor eggs, but with IVF I have 10-15% so odds are, donor egg will be more successful for us, especially when you consider how my last IVF went, and how I didn?t respond and ended up changing to IUI, with which we have an even smaller chance than with IVF. Ah, I?m all over the place emotionally at the moment. I?m ok, just sad.
Anyway, sorry for a huge post! 