Emmsys over here! Come shake yer pom poms!!!

[VJay]

Here we are, it's getting chilly, the slanketsnare out. Were all here to support, laugh and cry with each other.

Thangs?? Sorry, clearly gone American on you things

evening neeko but you've probably gone to bed now

barbie good luck with the scan tomorrow. Hope the week of reassurance continues well for you and Ralph

*cupcake well remembered. However I think it's cos it's your birthday soon, too, isn't it?

Night out was great - but I'm such a lightweight - by 10,30 I wanted to get home to bed!!

Lots to catch up on!

Vjay Happy birthday to young Ajay today! Sorry to hear about your health worries, do hope its not endo my mum had gallstones removed when i was little but was only in hospital 2days if i remember rightly, not nice for you though poor sweetie..

Barbie lots of stresses for you, everything xd for good news on the fold at the scan, good news your hole in your heart hasn't worsened but a scary prospect at impending op I'm sure.. Tis a mothers job to worry but I'm sure the albeit petite bundle of energy that is Dolly is just fine, some people are just ickle! On a positive note, yay for the security of staying put til April

Cupcake is it your birthday today sweetheart? Happy birthday to you if it is! Its a yr today since Summers christening and if i remember rightly was the same day!? Hope your not still weebling too badly and enjoy your day?! x

Lbm is it belated birthday greetings to you to then? Glad you enjoyed your night out even if you did feel like a lightweight!

Blue sorry to hear you had to attend a funeral was it someone close?

Neeko how did Ms sleepover go? Did it involve lots of giggling and chocolate? Hope things are ok with you and when you're ready to share your stresses we will be here..

Mls meant to say at another cancellation for K! Did you say this is private treatment as well? Outrageous ..

BQ congrats to you brainy lady! Feels you've been pregnant for ages! Not long now!

OMG Buddha huge yay to improved sleep, how's he been over the weekend? to your new position on the list!

Curly tempted to do an early test?

As for me, finally got round to arranging apt with recurrent miscarriage consultant on thursday, will be armed with list. Bit of a faff as had to be referred again due to last under his care as our ante natal consultant with Summer. Won?t be nice going through everything, only 3 months since we lost the baby so not long at all in the scheme of things. Going back to that clinic feels like taking several steps backwards, but the ray of light is having Summer this time around... I confess I?ve occasionly found it hard reading about the pregnancies on here, just things like seeing the list and knowing i should be in big pants with only 11days between me and barbie , and knowing last time around cupcake was my pregnancy buddy with about a wk between us like her and mls now... However these really are momentary thoughts, and I absolutely wouldnt want anyone to feel awkward, that would be awful, I just occasionally feel sad that i should also be joining in on the pregnancy chat... Sometimes that instills the urgency to ?catch back up? so as not to be left behind,but in RL that?s thankfully immediately eradicated by the joy of Summer, and how extremely grateful i am just to have her... She is such a fantastic age at the moment, and DH and I are definitely happy to remain a unit of 3 for the forseeable!

Phew that turned into a bit of a frank and honest waffle!

Just back from scan, mixed news...

Membrane still there, this time it looks like a band (the worst one) although it could be that the membrane has shrunk in diameter

The good news is ralphie is ok, everything with him looks to be good. Dates ok, she rechecked kidneys, heart, head etc so fingers crossed its going to be ok

She did say that whatever it was was not effecting the baby thus far, but obviously she wasn't allowed to tell us anymore than that...and we only got that snippet of info due to me crying [hblush]

Roll on Wednesday 11.15 am!!!!

cupcake is it your birthday too?

Happy birthday little cjay!!!

4ever not ignoring you my lovely, just posting quick as dolly is inu the paddling pool, will post personals tonight xxx

Vjay Hope you managed more sleep now you're home, sorry to hear about all your health worries I bet you have done brilliantly in your exam even though you may not think you have! You usually do What's next for you hun, anything they can do for the endometriosis, will it be an op for the gallstones? Cannot believe Cjay is 9
Barbie Firstly let's do an hurray for the good news, your heart has stopped misbehaving although boo to an op at later date, also good news that the first move is off so you'll be having dc2 in the sandpit. Like 4ever said I wouldn't worry about Dolly's size, unless you are worried I would ignore the doctors, they seem to obsess over size whether it's big or small and you don't want to give her food issues! Lastly I was really hoping as we all we are that it was a fold and not a band, I've just had a sneaky look on google and all the experiences I read about had a happy ending and their babies were fine, but until you hold you're little one in your arms it will be no comfort to you I'm sure x
4ever I can see why it feels like a backward step going back to the clinic but accept all the help you can get and hopefully it won't be long until you are sharing your pg news with us. You are a strong positive woman and a fantastic role model for Summer just remember that
cupcake Yes he did beat his all time record and managed 5 nights, last night unfortunately he woke 3 times but did resettle quickly and in his own bed each time. Try not to stress about the symptoms it will be different every time I'm sure
Neeko Enjoy your week off, anything lovely planned?

Oh bugger have to go as E has woken from his nap, grumpy little bugger!

barbie Really sorry to hear that it wasn't great news today - but you sound pretty together which is good to hear . is it the consultant on Weds then?

My birthday is tomorrow - kids have something planned, although think Jo is a bit oblivious!! Thanks for all the wishes - last year I went back to work from mat leave on my birthday. This year is going to be so much better!!

Barbie omg you poor lovely lady, what a rough ride you are having. I'm hoping & praying hard that the band/fold is nothing serious & is going to right itself before little Ralfie-boy is born. Also just say 'pah' to the doctors about your dd's weight. All of the pics of her I've seen on fb look completely normal & she looks like she's totally in proportion. I think there are more kids around who have food issues rather than who don't have food issues. I battled for years to get dd1 to eat properly but now I'm totally chilled about it, if she eats she eats, if she doesn't eat then the plate gets taken away after 20 mins & no more is said about it. I think you only need worry if your child is one of those who will only eat cheesy wotsits or digestives or something similar! [hgrin]

Buddha so pleased E seems to be turning a corner with his sleep. It sounds like if he's settling on his own back to sleep then you are definitely over the worst of it.

4ever I'm all too aware that every time you look at the list you see where you should be right now. It's shit it really is. I've been there and as happy as you are for the ladies on here who are pregnant, it still feels like a knife inside your own heart. {{{hugs}}}

Vjaaaaaaagghhh bloody hell gall stones are supposed to be more painful than labour. Also endo.... yikes! Have they spoken to you about some kind of hormone treatment or surgery?

Cupcake I was about to tell you what Neeko said to me re expecting to have symptoms all the time after you've had a mc but she beat me to it! She wrote it on the brilliant text she sent me the day before my scan when I was having a wobble. Ok I'll give you another Neeko-ism 'you are a bleeder' & you've had no bleeding - love it! The funny thing is that since I had my scan last week, I've not paid a blind bit of notice of my symptoms/lack of.

Well I had to take my little dd2 to the docs for the third time in 2 weeks with her impetigo on her face. The gp took a swab & we'll find out on Friday exactly what it is & if the test comes back inconclusive, she'll be referred for allergy testing. It's got so bad that she had blood on her pj's & sleeping bag this morning where she'd been scratching all night. Also had a call today from her consultants secretary who has managed to get her an appt for her neck scan at a private hospital in Kingston tomorrow afternoon. They had originally offered us an appt at the Portland hospital first thing this morning but there was no way I was going to drive to central London with two young children on a Monday morning - that's just stress I can do without!

Waves to LBM, happy birthday for tomorrow!

Happy Birthday LBM I hope you have a lovely day, and how exciting that the older DCs have planned something for you

barbie argh, I'm so sorry you didn't get the all clear. What's happening on Weds??? Another scan/appointment? I'm v pleased you get to stay in the sandpit until after Ralphie is born, must be a big weight off your mind (to be replaced by others I know). Totally agree with everyone re Dolly's weight. She looks a healthy little girl to me. Remember, she is very active and she probably just burns it all off. Luke is like that, nothing to him at all. He's still under 15kgs at 4.5 which puts him on the 2nd centile. It also means he's too light for a booster seat still which is a PITA.

vjay Belated happy birthday to cjay - i thought he was 7 so I'm out on his age too! Did you do anything nice? What a lot of crap you are dealing with. Your exam will be fine because you are a brainbox . Hope you manage to get the health stuff sorted out. At least you know what the lump is now and can hopefully get it treated. Have you recovered from the trauma of visiting the difficult relatives?

4ever big tight hugs from me. Keep talking please. I know the appt on thursday will be hard but it is not taking a step back, it's another step forward on the journey to getting Summer a sibling.

buddha yay for getting some sleep. Sounds like you have finally turned a corner. Long may it last!

cupcake tis prime time for symptoms to go, but of course you know that already. I wish I could speed up time so the scan comes more quickly for you. The waiting is the worst.

mls so glad you've finally got DD2s scan tomorrow. Hope the impetigo clears up soon. There are some beautiful pics of your girls on FB. Are you going to find out the sex of DC3?

curly hope you are having a lovely holiday and it is not being rudely interrupted by AF. I know you are well into the 2ww because you got your last AF the same day as me. Have fingers crossed you come back with a bfp!

neeko hope you are having a lovely week off and DD1 enjoyed her sleepover. Is it half term there this week?

gracie hope you are feeling much more human now.

blue hope you're ok, did I see something about a funeral?

sabs glad saara is settling into preschool ok. She is growing up fast! Hope you manage to sell your flat soon.

I am v stressed out, courtesy of the passport office see here We also have the decorator in this week (rather last minute) painting Lukes new room so there is stuff everywhere. Somehow I need to find a clear space to pack. And I'm still suffering from an lingering cold/throat bug and AF at the same time. Apart from that all is well .

Happy Birthday lbm Have a lovely day and lots of and

louey Oh dear what a saga with the passport Really hope they pull their fingers out their bums and get it sorted for you by Friday!

Happy birthday LBM!

Louey Grr re passport. Really hope you get it sorted.

Sleepover went brilliantly last night. Girlswere stars. Hurrah.
Thanks for holiday wishes. Not doing much as DH not off. Surprise - not
Big waves to everyone else and a special hug to 4ever

Hi ladies... you rumbled me I did remember the birthdays cos it was mine too...but didn't want theirs to go unnoticed! Thanks for the well wishes :) Had fab day, now eating one of the birthday nutella brownies dh made me :)
Happy birthday to you lbm hope you have lovely time doing whatever your dc have planned bless them.

Thanks so much for all your reassurances re scan... MLS you're v right about the bleeding, and all of you about symptoms it's just so scary. I've made plans to see friends later on the day of the scan, and we're going out for our anniversary a couple of nights after and I just keep thinking those plans might not happen. It's rubbish waiting!!

Neeko sorry to hear you're having some 'stuff' going on whatever it is (might not even be bad...but kinda sounded like you were a bit down) hugs to you. Still haven't got hold of spatone..it's on my to-do list!

Barbie so sorry you weren't given good news :( horrible being in limbo but here's hoping you get more answers this week.

Arrrgh Vjay sounds all v stressful, and horribly painful about the possible gallstones :( hope you're ok, and that Cjay enjoyed his birthday.

buddha YAY for 5 nights!! That must have given you some big hope!! Hope it's continuing now.

4ever lovely lady, thanks for being honest. I know it will feel like going back to such a hard time in your life at that clinic but really hope you can get answers and continue to move on to expanding your family :)

As always thinking of monkey, moon and strawb and hoping they return to us soon. Love to all have to dash, off swimming soon!

Hi lovelies [hsmile] and a happy birthday lbm hope you had a lovely surprise from your dc's [hsmile]

Thanks for all your comments and questions. It is definatley endo. I used to have awful af's when I was younger but once I had cjay I was fine plus I've had the coil so that has helped, so I don't really suffer from it thankfully, I imagine if the coil was out I would and it does explain all the pain I had in my early 20's pre-dc. It's the indigestion/gall stones that are causing me pain, but will see how that goes, I will be back at the docs next month for that.

barbie roll on tomorrow and answers, I hope it's all good news for you I really do.

Buddha you are fabulous mum remember that, I really struggled with cjay when he was little and was very anxious having another, BUT it's the BEST thing I ever did [hgrin]

louey I really hope you get the passport, what a bloody nightmare!!!

cupcake you will do all your plans, and glad you had a lovely birthday [hsmile]

blue and neeko hope you're both ok, stay strong xx

moon monkey and strawb hope you're all ok and lurking.

I've been making mincemeat today and soaking the fruit for the Christmas cake, it smells lush

Louey any news on the passport? I know that they can be both helpful & quick when pushed. We applied for dd2's & it came back within a week. I bet you'll have it back by Thursday.

Cupcake all this waiting is just crap isn't it. You need to try & re-harness all that positivity you had last week. I'm sure you'll be seeing your friends later on scan day with a big smile on your face.

Vjay I don't even like Christmas cake but I sure love the smell of it & your post has made me feel all Christmassy! Make sure you drink lots of water for those gallstones.

Well dd2 had her neck ultrasound this afternoon. Not much to report. The Dr thinks it's a branchial cleft cyst which is what the consultant thought it was. It's still there & about 7mm in diameter now. Will wait to hear what the consultant says re removal or treatment.

I've added a pic to my profile of my girls on the day of their party!

MLS loving the girls outfits! The fb pics are so lovely - have you been outed yet in rl? bump wise, I mean!

4ever hope the appt goes well tomorrow - as louey says, it's want step closer if/ when you want to be a unit of more than three

Currently drinking fizz out of one of the little bottles that my dh thoughtfully got me for my birthday as i am still trying to loose that stubborn last half stone, i don't drink much wine and didn't want a whole bottle but boy do they lose their bubbles quickly!DH's solution is to drink it quickly but surely that defeats the object of a small bottle

Vjay I too am on the Christmas countdown - just planted up some bulbs tonight for Christmas presents and to sell for my friends charity. Feeling uber organised - it so won't last !!

louey now off to find out about your passport nightmare - hope it is solved soon

Hello all. I'm back :) loving the christmas talk!!

I can't believe how much I have missed out on. I'm so pleased for mls roll on more good scans

I need to go unpack so will catch up later but just wanted to ask for some white coat opinions if that's okay. I'm on day 28 and had a little brownish spotting today and yesterday which I've never had before. Could this be implantation? I'm trying not to get my hopes up[hconfused]

Big hugs to you all. I'm out tomorrow night but will try and catch up thursday. You girls have been so busy :)

Hey another one rushing in unpacking bags... Just back from St Andrews and to coin another neekoism have been busy "making happy memories".. no reception up there so couldn't even lurk We bought Benj one of those all in one waterproof zip suits to splash in the sea and he looked like a Forensics guy sent in after a murder

Tis mega late so will be brief but Curly implantation bleeding can be all over the place... if I remember I had a tiny bleed the week before I found out I was pg with DS1 then again at 5 weeks... Not sure if that's helpful

Barbie great news that Ralph's gorwing dandy but jeezuz you are going through teh mill having to wait for confirmation on the band... Big hand hold honey xx

Happy birthday LBM - planting bulbs - eek!

cupcake - pre-scan nerves never go away, especially for Emmsy's Angels, stay strong and remember and wear your lucky shoes/top/pants..

MLS - glad you've been seen at last re: DD2's neck, loved them in their matching converse. Still so at your scan last week.

Vjaaargh - man I missed so much of what's happening with you, really hope its not gall stones especially after seeing the episode of Friends when Joey had them - sore.com! Happy blated birthday to Cjay - was it LEGO a go-go? All grown up and nine years old - my.

4ever - heart felt post from you lovely, I know you are in a good place with your family of three but know it will still sting seeing the list move on... There are plenty of us non ttcers just muddling along enjoying raising our DCplease don't feel left out. It is hard as we have all been small panters and it can feel its second time around but some of us are not on the bus for lots of reasons and you will be back there in your own time and we will be here holding your hand x

Buddha - so chuffed to read about E's improved sleeping , did you show him this page ?

Neeko - hope you're still OK for next week, I'll txt you, we have so much to chat about x

Hey to everyone else, right off to bed I go, ahhhh, my own bed zzzzzzzzzz

I woke this morning and realised I didn't reply to 4ever, I'm sorry. I really felt for you from your post and can relate to it through rl when I was trying for aj. Keep talking on here, we are here to listen and we understand too [hsmile]

Hi curly I too had a brownish bleed with cjay around when af was due.

blue your hold sound ace, love the sound of B's suit [hgrin]

barbie good luck today xxx

Hols not hold!!!

Barbie Good luck for today, lots of hand holding and hair strokes winging their way
VjayThank you for your lovely comments
Cupcake yes it's still continuing We've now had 8 nights where he's been in his own bed, sometimes all the way through mostly just stirs once and I just go in and resettle
Mls Thank goodness you finally had the scan and can start to think about what comes next. Btw gorgeous photo's of the girls
lbm You are in sensible mode - small bottles of fizz and bulb planting!!
Curly I had brown spotting on day 26 (the day I tested positive with E) everything is crossed! Have you caved and done a test yet?
Blue Sounds as if you had a fantastic time away, did you get some pics of B in his CSI outfit?

Personals will come later, I'm rushing.....

Just out of hospital,.....

It's a band.

Far enough away from ralphie that the doc isn't worried, baby looks perfect else.

Fortnightly scans to make sure he doesn't get too close, if he does we shall have to deal with it then, not thinking about that outcome.

So, in short not 100% reassured but calm enough to get through the next few weeks until the next time, not going to burst into tears at traffic lights like yesterday!

Speak to you all soon xxx

Barbie Well that is the best news! So pleased that it's not close to ralphie, how many weeks are you now? I will keep everything crossed that he doesn't move closer to it over next few weeks, good to hear you feel a little calmer for the time being and we'll be here for the next hurdle

That's great news barbie hopefully you can have a stress free few weeks, you certainly deserve it!

Passport turned up late afternoon. I'm a wreck! Off to bed soon cos I'm not feeling brilliant but at least I won't have to send tomorrow waiting for the passport and can concentrate on packing.

Just a quick one to say thanks for sympathising about my outpourings on my last post, it took a deep breath to actually press the post button literally just comes down to the fact I get sad to not be joining in the pregnancy chat, but I'm cool about things, I really am, obviously have my moments but don't we all?!

Feeling pragmatic and matter of fact for apt at MC clinic later, not expecting answers or miracle cures, mainly this is to ask about steroids for next time and get him to give EPU a prod after my hoo hah with nice sonographer and moody sonographer, just addressing the protocols really, though do wanna discuss the fact all babies have grown fine with strong heartbeats til 9w so I'm certain its an immune issue and my body attacks, or something happens at that point anyway..

So, trying not to get caught up in the memories that clinic holds and fact Summer will be with us changes the vibe totally anyway....

Sorry for me post, back on for personals asap xxxxxx