TTC for 10+ months, part 3

[joycep]

The other thread was just about to fill up and so here we are again with a slightly different name now as many of us have been trying for well over 12 cycles now. We had a few great successes on Part 2, with a couple of people getting bfp's on their 17th and 19th month of trying. So let's hope for more successes on Part 3. (Moaning, crying, sadness, anxiety & bitterness is certainly allowed on here!)

My big news today is that I have found Manuka honey!!!! I tried a little organic shop that is on my way to work and they had about 15 types of honey one of which was Manuka. It is only 15 though so I hope that is ok. And it was the most expensive and smallest of all the jars they had. I can't decide whether to start on it straight away or whether to wait until the start of the next cycle.

I'm 9dpo and 99% confident that I'm out. No symptoms and nothing different to any other month. I do have sore boobs but I always do at this point. I wish I could speed up the next week so I'm into another cycle and can book the HSG and then arrange the IUI. I think I have accepted that I won't get a natural BFP but there is still a little tinge of disappointment when I realise I'm not pregnant again. I've found it helps if I pretend that I'm not actually ttc and that I won't start until IVF.

Did you do an opk Joycep?

Love the new name kitty. I keep think I should change mine to something more cryptic.

I wonder where pout is? I hope her absence is because she got her BFP and has had her head down the loo with morning sickness ever since.

kitty - I love your new name. Thanks for your words. I hope you are ok.

Mrsd - that's great you have found Manuka, you must be pleased. I would start on the next cycle. I have found it going down very quickly, probably not helped by me catching DH spreadig it on his crumpets. I havent come clean about why I have it so just had to bite my lip. Can you do the hsg and IuI in the same month? Or does it depend on availability?
My opk was negative yesterday thank god. I ha to inject at 5am this morning... God knows why but strict instructions. And IuI tomorrow. I am going to have spend the evening pruning myself. I find it so embarrassing exposing myself like this. At least with the scans I have a blanket over me but I have a feeling I 'll be put in stirrups exposed to everyone.

Yes where is pout - it has been about a month since she was here.

Just nipping in to wish Joyce good luck (more tomorrow than with the pruning ).

Kitty love your new name

Hope everyone else is doing ok xxx

Oh yes, good luck to Joycep

Mrsd I am glad you found the manuka.

I am on cycle day 7. The shagging starts soon. Although I am in Germany for work for the next two days which is going to make things tricky. I wonder if it is illegal to import human semen....

Hello everybody.

kitty excellent name change. It is a caveman style diet which is basically cutting out wheaty carbs. Been on it five days now and it hasn't helped my tummy especially and I feel exactly the same as normal! But I'm still going to see the month out. Breakfast has been a bit tricky. Dh not especially bothered and we've eaten the same basic meals but I've made changes ie today I'm having wild rice while he's having cous cous. He's being rather patient about the whole thing, as long as his weetabix and bread aren't remotely in jeopardy!

joycep now you are particularly in my thoughts. All the very best. The sperm will be magically transported to the right place chauffeur style and won't need to make that massive trek. May the fertility gods be with you! And I think you are a better woman than I - I've gone from a Hollywood waxer to full out bush lady since being happily married! I really should sort that out!

mrsden congratulations on manuka finding, I'm still just having it in my tea. I await to be convinced!

euro good luck getting the sperm and egg in the same country, I'm sure it will be fine as it's still quite early?

And of course may the force be with all the rest of our threadkeepers. I was surprised to realise I'm on cd11 already. Ladies, when not ttc the days don't half go quickly! I've had some horrible things happen down there this month, with great big globs of jelly coming out-eek! So gross. I feel pretty sure that an embryo just didn't bed in, because the after days following my late period have been really really unusual. But I might be wrong. I like that thought though. It helps me to think that one day....

Hycosy a week tomorrow. Ovulation is going to come and go in this household. Boo. But also, the forced rest is actually rather nice. It feels like my old life. Kind of.

Love the idea of MrJoyce's sperm arriving in a stretch limo - like a raucous stag party

lots and lots of luck for tomorrow Joycep, we are all cheering that sperm and egg on for you, and I am very much hoping that you will be our first IUI success :)
good luck with the hscosy too tomorrow Wine
like the name change kitty
I'm getting all bogged down with coursework but am enjoying the weather and being busy, cos less time to worry about the TTC, dh took sample in for SA yest so we will hopefully hear back in a week or so. Hope you're ok too our MIA posters Pout and purplelooby although I know purple said she was feeling a bit down with the whole TTC buisness last time she posted so might be not posting for that reason.

Wishing you the very best of luck tomorrow, Joycep and prune away. I too feel incredibly self conscious when I go for a smear test or something similar. I'm sure that they're not fazed at all given how many vaginas they see on a regular basis, but I always worry that they'll be passing judgment on my personal maintenance of aforementioned area

Shall we give pout a collective shout?

Neighbourhood cat has just given me the fright of my life by walking into my kitchen!!!! Must have snuck in through the velux windows on the roof because all other doors are closed. Off to try and cajole him out the front door....

Evening all,

The best of luck from me too Joycep. We could sooooo do with a success story - fingers crossed.

Good luck for the cat removal too Madness.

DP's back tomorrow, though I got a positive OPK this evening. It's the first time I've tested in a while & I've only got one left so I might try again tomorrow & keep my fingers crossed for another one (I normally get 2 days in positive OPK in a row). Then we can let the shagging commence!

Evening.
joycep am excited for you and keeping everything crossed. Feels like a big step for the ttc 10months+ers, is this the first such intervention we've had? I hope it all goes very well. LOL at the pruning and wine's megabush, I've got one of those :)

mrsd glad you got your hands on the Manuka and that's so funny that your DH was putting it on his crumpets joycep. I don't think I can get away with any more ttc woo purchases at the moment as my DH had a little fit the other day about the cost of the acu.

Totally get what you mean about starting to think you'll never get a natural bfp. I've not completely given up hope but I am definitely starting to come to terms with the idea. Ive totally stopped the whole 'ooh wonder if I'll be pregnant by (insert significant future event)?'

euro you could always shag a german

wine I hope the diet helps your tummy. My DH is similar, he doesn't really mind what health kick/woo thing I'm doing at the moment as long as he doesn't have to get involved. Can imagine it's weird having a month off ttc. Sorry about all the weird cycle things happening since your last af.

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Good luck for today joycep. I really hope that the egg and sperm meet and get it on. I have no dignity left, I don't even get a sheet for the scans, it's a case of taking off my bottom half clothes then walking half naked across the room and then lying on the bed with my legs open. The first time I went I made sure I was all trimmed and neat but the last time I didn't bother and I was in full bush mode. But I figure she's seen it all before and if she does think anything she's not going to say anything to my face. One of my pregnant friends is fretting about being naked when she gives births, it amazes me that you can get pregnant without having to bare all and be prodded and poked and see your bits on camera. It all seems normal to me now. At least we should all be relaxed about internal exams when pregnant.

euro I had the same thought at kitty, you need to find yourself a German.

I posted and its disappeared!

Good luck joycep!!

I'm on cd21 and assumed earlier that monitor would be low again but just checked and got a peak!!! Yay! Haven't swi in a few days so hopefully today and tomorrow will give us a chance??

Just home from 16.5 he nightshift so all tucked up in bed :) will need my rest for swi!!

Cd12 and more ewcm than I've ever had in almost a year and no swi allowed! bloody typical!

hi all. sorry not to be in touch. tough week. had hcg injection. last wednesday. followed by a roll in the hay at appropriate times should ovulation have kicked into action but tring not t be hopeful. was meant t go for a blood test monday t c if anything had worked but sadly my dog hhad t bput down. suddenly ttc isnt even on my brain surprisingly. apart from odd niggle at back of head. spent three days drowning my sorrows. well not really drowning but more like wetting at the edges. but still feel guilty just in case miracles had actually happened. back t hosp next week and waiting for af in the meantime. sorry for me me me post but feeling a bit lost. expecting af about sunday so its that waiting game again.

hows it going joycep? chin up :).

Oh hbc so sorry about your dog big hugs your ways, losing pets is sad and upsetting. May af give you a break and leave you alone x

Hi ladies, thank you for all your best wishes, I really really appreciate it. I had the most awful night sleep and was panicking all night about it having been too late. DH went in a couple of hours before me. He called me afterwards to say he had got his ding dong stuck in the pot as he didn't want to miss the pot. Anyway luckily he got it out and didn't need assistance!!
Anyway It is all done now. It was all kind of surreal. I was taken down into this basement where I was put in a room with a bed and with easy listening music playing. I was told to lie down and relax whilst I waited for my gynae. If it wasn't for all the catheters I could have believed I was about to have a massage.
My gynae arrived and I had to check out DH 's vial of sperm and confirm that it was his. Well it had his name on it (don't want to contemplate them having got his sperm mixed up). And then she did the procedure. She must have been fiddling down there for 15 minutes and she had to change a catheter because she couldn't get things around the corners I have in my cervix. Apart from ever so slight cramping it actually wasn't too bad. I was more concerned about my cellulite and how I look down there. She did announce I had lots of mucus which she thought was good sign of us having got the timing right. Slightly embarrassed by this. Anyway she placed 160million moving sperm up there. She said It takes 4 mins for the fast moving ones to get to the top of the tubes. An egg can last 2 days although it really should be fertilised within the first 12 hours.

I am bleeding a bit now which I hope is normal. It doesn't mention this in the pack I have got but I will try not to worry a out it.
She was really positive and said one of those sperm will meet the egg. Part of me thinks she is right, the sperm have been put 4 mins away from the egg, they've been washed and put in solution and have bypassed the hostile cervix - unless the egg is crap something has to happen. But I won't be holding my breath and I am expecting it not to work.

Less about me.hillbillie - so so sorry about your dog. Losing a pet is devastating , I hope you are bearing up.

wine - I am sorry sods law is doing his thing with ewcm. Bloody typical isn't it.

izzy that's great news about your peak , hopefully your body is getting back to normal.

madness - the nurse who does my smears says it is like looking in ears for her. Lovely thought but that really helped me relax with smears. My gynae on the other hand is very glam and beautiful and is clearly a yummy mummy who looks like she drives a convertible BMW . I feel very self conscious in front of her and I just hope I don't give her nightmares.

skeleton - glad you are bogged down on course work long may it take your mind off things.

euro have fun in Germany.

Mrsd - I did get a sheet today and wasn't in stirrups. I can't believe you dont get a sheet. There is just sth slightly more comforting about having one. My friend who has just given birth said to me the other day that she was about to go through something much worse than IuI ...I.e giving birth. I just said to her, I would much prefer to be having a baby right now and going through that pain rather than this emotional pain ...at least you get a baby at the end of labour!

I'm pleased it went well for you joycep. 160 mil is an amazing number, surely one of them can do their thing with your egg, the chances must be good. Your DH must be feeling very proud. Are you brewing more than one egg? Make sure you take it easy and put your feet up tonight .

So sorry to hear about your dog hillbillie, losing a loved pet is heartbreaking

I've just seen the latest photos of Will and Kate. Still no sign of a bump

Ha ha mrsden about Kate and Wills. I want us all to be pregnant first!

joycep that is a fantastical amount of sperms! Not sure we'd ever have so very many. I worked out, that on the last count, dh had 27 million normally formed, fast swimming ones. I think 16 million is the suggested min for iui success so yiu have ten times that number! I have a really good feeling about this for you.

I feel in limbo today. I did an opk and it's positive. I don't know why I did, just wanted to see, cd12 v v early for me, not sure whats going on with everything. And so so much cm, it's just ridiculous, it's been there since my one day period buggered off. As we approach our swi anniversary with nothing to show for it, I cant help but wonder what could possibly happen that would be any different. Not trying feels very strange, like, what if this is the perfect egg and we.re just going to let it pass on by!!! I wish someone could just tell me what the future holds so I could get on and accept whatever it is.

Sorry if thisnsounds a bit whiny, just feeling a bit lost.

Mrsd I was woken from my nap by seeing Will and Kate on the news and I took a very close look at her and couldn't see any weight gain either. However I know someone just as thin as her and she is 12 weeks pregnant and you would never know....apart from the rubbing of the stomach which is a huge giveaway.

the photo I saw (on the daily mail site) she had her hands clasped in front so maybe she was covering something up. I don't know why I feel like I'm in a race with someone I've never met, it's just that I've already been beaten by all my real life people.

wine I would give anything for DH to have 27 mil normal sperm. He had about 6 mil after the wash up test of good swimming ones which is why we think IUI has very little chance of working. But I keep thinking that if they put them so close to the egg, then why can't one of them make it? There has to be a small chance so we are going to give it a go.

Aren't sperm inefficient! if men just produced a few big mega sperms (not visible to naked eye tho!) that were tough and navigationally savvy, things would be a lot easier.

Oh joy cep, I'm so glad it went well for you, fingers crossed, when will we know?

I'm into the 2ww now, I don't think we got our timing right this month as dh has been sick, dr sent him for blood tests tmr, hope he is ok, worried :(

Sorry for being absent (again!). Must try to keep up!

Karbea hope your OH is ok, I'm sure it's nothing. I have to say I smiled at your post "when will we know". I like the image that we're all in this together! I know if I ever get as far as the labour ward, I'll imagine it like one of those films where there are 25 close family and friends all hanging around in the waiting room. I'll be picturing you all there with me - and vice versa of course .

Joycep that sounds like an amazing performance by your OH! I agree, odds sound very good for you. But when will we know? .

mrsden yah for the honey. And also for Kate not being pregnant yet!

hilbill I'm so sorry about your dog :(. I hate so much having my animals put to sleep; but doing so is almost always done as the final act of love and devotion. Your dog will love and thank you all the more for that :)

Hope you have been busy shagging izzy.

Hello to kitty skelly madness wine pixie and anyone else I've missed. Going to post as keep losing t'internet!