Feck off with your babydust - The hut of gl/doom, home of inadequate reproduction

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ok, so the hut disappeared so I decided to open a new one. tis a 20's style gin joint!

Man I hate this day. I don't get it either way: my Mum died 3 years ago and I'm still no closer to being a Mum myself. Bah!
Sorry, self pitying wine fuelled rant over.

my god I'm feeling sooo broody its unreal. This WILL be my month!! It bloody has to be!

Anyway, now i've let that out, how is everyone faring?
ellangirl good luck for your appointment and fingers crossed for dh's sample.
pooch how are you feeling? Do you have to have the counselling often? Maybe its something you have to do a few times to get anywhere with? I hope it gets better for you.
sleazy how are you? Whats your plan for after easter? Hope your dp can resolve his problem with his tube.
bex self pitying wine fuelled rants are ok, they need to be had once in a while or you'll go mad. Sorry the day makes you feel so sad but I can totally understand why, have a gin on me x

hello to any lurkers on the thread too.

Ah yesterday, sucky day. Today much better. Lovely dad got choked up and told my sister she'd given him the best present ever (it was his birthday), her ds. I felt like crap! Ah well this time next year...
How are people?

Another of my friends is pregnant. Started trying 8 months after us. Drowning my sorrows in cake.

That's so shitty bex, sorry and hugs. A few friends of mine are due any day, all started trying after we did. We're distracting from the no baby situation by getting a puppy to join our other furry children. Anyone else have children substitutes?

does a lonely goldfish count?

Bex sorry you've had a bad few days, hope the cake & alcohol have helped.
Sleazy ninja - yes think the counselling may help, have to have another 5 sessions - a friend who'd had one MC said she'd had therapy, so maybe having had 4 I should have done this before now... AF started as predictably as ever so the tiny glimmer of hope I had over the weekend ended Sun night.
AF has been really really light the last couple of months - not a good thing as that shows I'm not producing enough progesterone - prog affected by my ever-soaring stress levels.
So plan this month is to forget TTC as much as I can - start the day with a large coffee followed by several more, alcohol at night, SWI whenever...
ellan am seriously considering a furry friend substitute - DH would hit the roof though.

Long haired hamster called Peppa. She's not very cuddly.
I am having therapy to help my anxiety issues, they peak with pms but I realised through counselling the issues are ever present but while I hold it together rest if month I lose it with pms. Had 3 sessions get up to 3 more. Massage also v good.

Bex - didn't know you could get long haired hamsters!
Having acupuncture which makes me feel stoned afterwards and when I can afford it massage too - all feels v. self-indulgent but don't care.

I think when ur ttc and down you have to do whatever you can to feel better!

AF arrived today, as expected. Was really upset for some reason. Ah well. Wish I could afford lovely massages and acupuncture. If I could I totally would, why the hell not! Not sure goldfish and hamster really count :o And pooch wouldn't recommend getting a pet without DH thinking it's his idea- mine still brings up the fact that I got a dog without really consulting him when he's cross!! (In my defence we weren't engaged, married or even living together at the time...)

Hugs ellangirl that sucks.
I am fed up with it all atm.[starts shaking up a gin cocktail to pass round. To be served in classic cocktail glasses with an olive].

i've been lurking around. nothing much to report here. Not sure I ovulated this month. Every other month I get pain on the left side that coincides with EWCM etc and that happened the month i fell PG with DS so I do wonder if im only working on one side, or if there's another reason why I only feel it there. On the 'off' month i still usually get EWCM but nothing this month.

Two more friends announced pregnancies. Finding it harder and harder to muster a 'congratulations' without wanting to burst into tears and stamp my feet and wail at the unfairness of it all.

Ellan I can't afford acupunc/massages but am past the point of caring. My bank mgr will catch up with me at some point. Sorry AF started and no I wont' get a pet unless DH agrees - its hard enough persuading him to DTD at requisite times without landing a furry companion into the mix.
My new boss at work is 9 wks PG - did have an ectopic same time as my MMC so am pleased for her!! But seeing another friend tomorrow who is 20 wks PG - never had MC, no problem getting PG - am insanely jealous of her - hate feeling like that - but being on here at least I'm not alone in feeling like a cow for someone else's good fortune.
Off to counselling now - feeling upset already at thought of having to 'talk' about everything...

and why not pooch, you have to look after yourself- sod the bank manager! and don't worry, I know normal sensible people don't get pets without consulting the other half, only me! I'm just a sucker for animals!
Don't hate yourself for feeling jealous of your friend, it's such a normal and acceptable reaction, and we all understand! Just try and block your ears when she says something stupid like how tired she is of being pregnant already

Was on a mandatory update today oh joy. There was a girl who.was pregnant, not just pregnant but so elegantly neatly bump pregnant. I kept looking at her and thinking 'I'm so jealous of you'. Ttc is turning me into a crazy person!

Hi ladies.

I got a substitute baby in the form of a kitten a couple of months ago

Well I had my hsg today and the only word I can use is 'horrific' - enough said. Thankfully it was all clear and the very nice doctor there looked through my notes and said basically it just takes longer once you start getting older and that most people do eventually get pregnant. I'm hoping my tubes being flushed out might make this a lucky month...

Wave to sleazy

Two friends announced pregnancies today :(. One has had two mc and is now 11 weeks ... Am really chuffed for both of them but it's more people getting what I want and me being left behind.

And I'm getting symptoms but it'd be a decking miracle.

Hairy - you're back, have been worrying about you but hoping that you've been lurking instead - something I'm prone to do... If one of my friends gets PG - am only happy if they've had a MC or problems conceiving - then in my mind they deserve their good fortune!! Am trying not to lurch from month to month, counting every day - trying to look longer term - hoping sometime 'next year' I'll have DC2 instead. Plus bought verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy nice bottle of Chard Sauv- reduced and have downed most of it tonight! Will return & buy some more - all part of my master plan to drink more booze & caffeine - being good for last 5 mths hasn't made a blind bit of difference TTC.

Hi there pooch. Been feeling less gloomy lately and have been on my Hols.

The fucking "January bus" has apparently "left" and they are all "climbing aboard". I don't know why but even the ! At the end of the thread gets on my wick.

Fecking bus riders! I refuse to hop on, would be too gut wrenching each time. Glad you had a good hols hairy.pooch I agree, if Dh gets sniffy I say 'can't be mad at her she had x mc's/been trying for longer then us'. E.g. have one friend whose first baby was born at 22 weeks and only lived a couple of hours :(, she us preggers now and about to POP, happy for her!. Anyone else has jumped the queue/it should be my turn first!

Drives me crazy with rage, for some reason Bex. When people think it's just a case of 'oh we'll have a shag now and nine months later we'll get a baby'.

I don't begrduge their naivity, it just winds me the fuck up and makes me want to scream 'don't you realise what some of us have been through'.

Jealousy I suppose :(

I'm finding the queue jumping very difficult - I staked (staked? stoke? ) my claim a while ago to next pregnancy and there are now four people who have jumped :(

Ah well, I am at least having bloods taken on monday for recurrent MC testing so some progress. could be worse.

Oh great. Third pregnancy announcement in two days :(

Well that sucks royally hairy. Get yourself a pint of gin.
At least someone is being proactive into looking at what's happening with your body. Hope it give you some answers and most importantly something they can help with. Keep us posted.
Tonight I have drowned my sorrows in bulmers.

Meltdown today. Passed two women today who were about seven months pregnant. Have had a horrible day bawling and sleeping :(