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using your full name to show strength of my feeling, bit hugs, really hoping it will all be fine. Try not to worry, try to rest. Really hoping and praying all will be fine.
KateBBC Thanks for being up front. I can?t tell you anything about going abroad but wish you all the best with your work.
Lissy can you tell me what your NK cells numbers are? If you are willing to share! I am not sure if I should get my NK cells tested. Our consultant says based on all our info that I am not a high risk person for this. Bagofholly any advice? We are with Care not the one everyone talks about! Yes, Lissy I know my Jewish holidays. I went to college in North west London in a very Jewish area, my cousin is married to a Jewish lady, so I guess their daughter?s are Jewish, and my dad worked for a Jewish man who kindly bought the lovely green and white dinner plates (we still use) as a wedding gift - but more so I think being in a church you get to hear about it all a lot too. I remember once suggesting we added milk to the mashed potatoes at my churches (attempting to be very authentic) Passover supper! Luckily no one added milk! 
Horton thanks for your kind words, you are lovely too.
Wish we could meet up for real one day! It is so weird all this virtual world. Well, I too am not sure at times how I feel about the prospect of going back to pregnancy, birth, early days. DD talks about babies a lot and I feel I want to do this for her, but for me, I am not sure, I want it and I also feel if it is not to be then I want to know soon. I want the waiting to be over. Like the bit in the film, Clockwise, John Cleese?s character says something like?It?s not the despair. I can take the despair. It?s the hope I can?t stand.? Don?t get me wrong, hope is fantastic but sometimes it is time not to be hopeful about it all. For me I am not there yet! But I want to wish you all the best, Horton with whatever you do.
Nooknook sheer panic normal. I think not feeling panicky would be odder!
Hamster is still great; my sis asked me how I can love a hamster! What is not to love? He is cute, clean, cheap (now we have the cage) and I love him!
Is anyone watching the biggest Loser? It's total car crash TV but I think they are learning from it and me on my sofa watching it with a bag of Cadbury Nibbles, I am learning too!
Too tired to name-check properly so thinking of you only! All of you I mean.
Love to all