More ongoing and continuing conceptions and follicling ahead of Feisty, Fabulous Forty somethings

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I've started a new thread!

Louisesh - did all go ok with the midwife? hope so xxx

I'm currently trying to see if I can get the HSG done under my husbands BUPA cover... problem is that I'm covered for problems arising out of the ERPC, but not covered for endometriosis (as I'm exclude for pre-ex)... however who can tell from an internal scan what has caused the thing they see on the scan picture ??.....
rung a BUPA Gyno and they have requested my file from the NHS Gyno....
back to waiting

Thinking of 40somemum and louise as you both have appointments today. Hope all goes as well as it can.

What has happened to muchlove - whoo hoo where are you??

BB did you get some troops in there, Mrs? We need to be cycle buddies.

tankgirl how long have you been trying?? Come and sit down at our lovely suspended fire and tell me all about yourself. Do you like the fire?

OOPHS... I'm really sorry guys, I just drove ma tank straight across the front lawn again and buried it in the south snug wall - have made a bit of mess, I'm afraid... I was thinking about an extension anyway - how about some floor to ceiling windows that make best use of the morning light. It really opens us up to the forest anyway - it's an outdoors feel inside - so shag inspiring. Just as well we built this in the middle of a wood anyway, given all these logs we keep throwing on the fire

hippy I love the fire. It looks like something I might have chosen myself if I wasn't a such a desert-loving tank-owning chick

Anyway, I have been trying for about 6 months. I am a fan of the EMSp - however Booga (my mutant Kangaroo DH) never disobeys me, so that makes things easier. TBH, I think actually having a firm plan does take some of the stress out of it - cos it takes away all the decisions about when to SWI and gives you a formula to follow. Louise you might find it easier than others, because it does involve a lot of shagging, but that is a bit easier if you don't have other DCs to factor in.

Louise hope your mw appointment wasn't too stressful. No one in the world could blame you for feeling defeated. TTC is exhausting, but grief is on another scale of exhausting. Obviously tell me to get my sneaky beak out if appropriate, but have you thought about giving yourself a wee break - y'know, you can drink red wine, go somewhere exotic etc etc. Or would the idea of not trying (and missing out a potential pg) stress you more?

Now where is much love It is awful quiet in here without her....

(wanders away looking for her measuring tape... )

40somethingmum I 'm sorry your scan is not good news.

I just went for one myself, and the hospital were very good. I don't know how things are laid out in your hospital, but if you asked, I think they would arrange for you to wait in another area, so you would not meet your neighbour.

All the best hth.

Hi Tel1 hope you re well? Hope you sort out your further investigations.

Hi Hippychick hope you re well?

Hi Tankgirl no need to remove sneaky beak from anything!!!! We re hoping to book a cruise for the end of Jan, just awaiting some money we ve got coming to us.I , indeed , had a glass of red last night and got a few things linned up including a "little" bit of socialising with just the odd cheeky drink thrown in!!!! I used to drink a lot when i went out [not an alcoholic!!!] which has dropped off as i ve got older but i kinda feel odd drinking alcohol again like its betraying Georgie but do have the odd drink when we gout or for a meal.Don t want a break fron ttc but will just continue our plans alongside the same.You re right this whole process is totally draining.

Think our plans ttc soon very much on the lines of emsp anyhow .We haven t got any DC so work and other stuff permitting anytime sex is not a problem , particularly, now as DH wanting ttc as much, if not, more than me now after falling in love with Georgie.

Well, another first been back to our gym today.Hard as my sis bought Georgie a swimming cossie as i m a water baby and from the gym i could see the kids pool but i had a little cry, blasted my ipod and pounded the cross trainer.I now weigh less than my pre-Georgie weight is another fab thing Georgie has done for me.Very down last night telling DH we were going to adopt but better today and as he says we owe it to us and Georgie ttc again to reach our end goal.

MW appt fine, she is lovely and very upset about Georgie says i mmto ring her asap get a bfp and to contact my EPU to return to them straight away for twice weekly preganyl and 2 weekly scans.She hoped it won t be lomg before we re in touch again and said next time she ll see me every week at her drop in sessions or she ll see me at home.

Sorry,mammomth post!!!! All me, me,me!!!

Hope everyone else is well XXX

Excuse spelling mistakes!!!!

louise I guess it must be hard for the professionals when they have to hear such sad news as well.

When I went and told my GP we'd lost our baby at 11.5 weeks she got teary eyed (as was I!!!). she looked genuinly sorry for us. Also when we were told that our next preg was showing only a small sac at 6 weeks and didn't look very promising, and I started crying my DH said that the the lady who scanned me had tears in her eyes too.

I think you'd have to be a pretty tough cookie to hear about a still birth at term and not be shaken.

I want to give your DH a big hug cos he sounds so sweet and also so heartbroken. I hope the next BFP is really soon for you guys so you can get going with all those MW appointments. You are not betraying your little one by having a drink - i'm sure she would want you to do whatever you need to (within reason obviously!)

bunty are you a new person or a namey-name-change???

tankgirl interesting that you say a wee break. I thought that was more Scottish than Aussie . Ok I'll stop now

40somethingmum what did you decide about your scan?

Louise The mw sounds nice - that helps, don't you think? When something traumatic happens, I think it takes a while for your head to catch up. I know i've been in situations where I've been thinking - "I'm not meant to be here, doing this" - like you've fallen into the wrong life. Going to the gym sounds very positive though - lots of painful stuff out there, but if you keep taking it on, I suppose it gets more bearable - that's my line and I'm sticking to it anyway

Hope you get a bfp soon, and are back on the bloody rollercoaster.

Anyone everyone - I have working all afternoon, and here's our new snug <a class="break-all" href="http://www.google.co.uk/imgres?imgurl=www.jimandmaggie.co.uk/img_2266.jpg&imgrefurl=www.jimandmaggie.co.uk/gallery4.htm&usg=__QBRg_x7KZBv2ORZgM9gjkZfSH38=&h=380&w=570&sz=51&hl=en&start=0&sig2=MNu2nK3RYnItQ6bieRXaFw&zoom=1&tbnid=7219efKnPodfNM:&tbnh=119&tbnw=170&ei=CrDZTNCWGt6W4gbhqpylCQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dburrell%2Bcollection%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1276%26bih%3D558%26gbv%3D2%26tbs%3Disch:1&itbs=1&iact=rc&dur=359&oei=za_ZTK6TG4GLhQeZ54nQAg&esq=7&page=1&ndsp=18&ved=1t:429,r:3,s:0&tx=114&ty=43" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">wall Isn't it fab? Don't worry, the fire is just to the right of the picture.

hippy I am very well travelled you know.

Have been lurking and thought how rude of me not say hello.......as you were

Hiya curls. (big wave).

Hello you (hippy) how's things? (sorry way too tired to scroll back) I see we have some newbies, hello tankgirl louise and bunty and anyone else I have missed.

I'm good thanks curls. I ov'd early (nearly missed the whole thing!) So I am moving into slanket phase already. How are things in the curly household??

Hi curly nice to see you, I remember you from other threads.

louise its a very long road that you are walking at the moment, and sometimes you will stumble, sometimes you might even fall into a black hole and it might feel as if you won't ever get out, but you will get out, you will smile genuinely again, because you are a strong woman, and one day you will be happy again. Trust me, it will take a long time but remember we are all here for you, and it sounds to me like your dh is a wonderful support to you.

Don't be afriad of ttc, what happened was a terrible terrible thing, and I can't say it wouldn't happen again, but you have to have hope,if we don't have hope, we have nothing. What happened to precious little Georgie reminds us all of what we take for granted on a daily basis, not just on here but in our lives. Nothing is sacred for want of a better word, and nature can be cruel, I don't think we are meant to understand it, how could we? it's impossible to understand losing a child, it's wrong. :(

Use us Louise to rant at when you are having a bad day, use us to cry with. Hopefully one day, you will use us to laugh and rejoice with too. xx

Hear hear lia and hello to you too

I wish i'd written what lia did. Wise words, matey.

lia what did you think when they said it was a girl? Did you have a preference before the scan or were you happy either way? I know you really just wanted a healthy one - but you know what I mean. I can't remember whether you have girls or boys. I think a mixture.

Thanks LIA thats lovely, thanks v much XXX

Hi Curly nice to meet you XX

Thanks Hippy yep my DHs ok , hes taken some training ...HE HE but don t they all???? Seriously, hes really grown up in the last 4 months [at the grand old age of 39] think he s really re-evaluated his life and what he wants.He s taken all my crap and when i ve needed to has said the right thing.Yes also agree it is lovely to see that lots of people do show their emotions.Our gp [who we also see at our gym] was in tears and cuddled me and the MW who delivered Georgie was in tears when she was born , its nice to see.

Tankgirl i totally agree with you, at times the past 11 months seem lke a dream at other times this life now is odd like i m living someone elses and i should be living with Georgie and having new experiences not same old.

hello all

tankgiirl - am trying to find some cryptic clue in the ii in your name to your normal identity!

lia delighted for you - is she number 6?

can't even think about scan - don't want it.

Things took a turn today when teenage dd brought a friend round for advice. I shall say no more suffice to say - it was so odd me trying to counsel her and being in this predicament iyswim life is funny....

Chins up girls. Am knitting myself an all in one cashmere slanket to pass the winter in.... Lost my needles so its taking some time

Hello everyone. We have a great group here don't we. Hello Louise - I am so sorry for your loss.I know there's nothing I can say to ease your pain, just that i wish you didn't have to bear this.

One of my very close friends lost her little girl at full-term too. She had another little girl a year later.

Hello to Bunty too.Are you also ttc?

Well - ripe old age of 44 today.I'm not letting it bother me, but I would have liked a bfp for a present!I'm only 7dpo so was fully expecting a bfn, but thought I'd give it a go anyway just in case the Gods decided to give me a great birthday present.

Not sure if I'll keep testing daily (would only do this so I could see a progression up to the bfp I'll get this month!)We are going away on Saturday (10dpo) so might do one then, and wait til I get back from our weekend away.If RTD stays away will test on Tuesday morning.

we are going to the big city, staying in lovely apartments for a couple of nights and going to see a Crowded House concert at a beautiful winery. I'm looking forward to it. Last time we went to a Crowded House concert I got pregnant 2 weeks later!

Must run, my sister is coming over for birthday cup of tea!

Have a good day lovelies

P.S:
List of symptoms:
sensitive nipples (ouchy for breastfeeding!)
cramping
breast tingles
constipation (sorry tmi)
nausea whenever I feel hungry

Could just be nothing....

gum happy birthday Hope you have great day despite your bfn which you know is far too early don't you so means nothing.

Symptoms look good, I didn't get bfp until day after period due this time, and I was testing every day from 7dpo too. Why do we do it to ourselves? :)

So you are catching up with me and hippy at 44, think it's just the 3 of us at the mo, not sure whos next in age.

Have good day all. x

40somemum I think you are barking up the wrong tree. I wanted to be tankgirl, but it was already taken Clearly someone had been impersonating me before.

I took a look at that blog you linked to. I am not hopeful for your slanket production. This is good news. As you know, tankgirl DOES NOT DO SLANKETS. YUK, YUK. However, I am impressed that you are reading a Finnish blog - I got google to tranlate it... "notes and everyday life in the old rectory". OMG I am filled with lifestyle envy - she fills pots with lentils and photographs them.. and her kids - there should be a law about kids that cute - and she snaps her dogs chasing their tails... and does artistic pictures of her breakfast... OM feckin- G!

Please tell me you are really Minja.viitamaki and come here incognito - I thought people only had lives like this in Country Living and it was staged for a 2 page spread - rather than living it and blogging it every day..... If you are Minja, I have always wanted to go to Finland - maybe we could have a feisty 40 meet-up at the old rectory

Happy Birthday gumblossom Fingers crossed for a BFP for you this month!

Hi Gumblossom thanks for your welcome XX

Have a lovely birthday enjoy your weekend away and FX for your bfp XXX

Hi all hope everyones well?

Oh, thanks for telling me about your friend gumblossom i v heard many stories of successful pregnancies straight after stillborn children its very, very hopeful and we re clinging on to those hopes for all its worth.

Oh Tankgiirl i just realised i misspelt your name duh!!!!I seem to have lost my brain in the last few weeks!!!!

44 , the 3 of you??? God, i feel like a mere spring chicken!!!! I hardly make it in to this group do i???? HE HE [Louise actually feeling good, first time since Georgie} I ll be 40 on 1st Dec.....so on my way in to the group.

Todays the annivarsary of a month since Georgie was born.Happy 1 month annivarsary darling miss you so much XXX

happy birthday gum - hope you have a great celebration and the present you want most of all xx

louise so glad you're here; thinking of you especially today one month on. I think you're doing BRILLIANTLY. And as you say, so young too .

just seen really sad news on the MC thread posted last night from Hairy... if you're reading, hope you're doing ok.

wave to everyone else.

Got to go back to the clinic on Fri to be re-scanned as my ovaries were hiding behind "bowelly stuff"... yeah, nice. Otherwise all tests complete and now awaiting results and follow-up consult.

Must dash, DS in a right grump today....

Happy Birthday gum. Crap being this old innit love? .

I didn't realise you were 44 as well lia - that makes me feel a bit better.

I read Hairys news too. She just found out at 10+ that her little one stopped at about 8. Totally totally horrid thing to happen.

Love to all.

i started back at work today 9.30 -2.30 - yawn yawn, am now exhausted .

So, I just got home from hospital with my 6 day old dd, Genevieve. Had a c-section, quite disturbing for a semi-hippy like me after three vaginal births. Will tell you the boring story when I feel like a human being again. But, I wanted to say thank you for all the support on this board. Good luck to all of us "geriatric" mums!