Evening,
Well we went for the tests this morning, enormous wait, and then 1 tube from DH and about 12 from me. Thought I was fine about it, a step forward etc etc and then ended up weeping on the train into work after. It was the first time I'd been back to the hospital since my scan post-MC2, and I guess it stirred up a lot of memories. They're testing for follicle screen, lupus, clotting stuff, chromosomes and not sure what else...lots of labels but not easy to decipher.
Anyway we'll crack on with the SWI and see what happens this month..it'd take a miracle, but actually I've said that on both the months I ended up getting pg this year, so am just going to shut up and see what happens.
Was interested to see the 'deadlines' are looming for others - for me I've got them all lined up. October is 1 year since we started ttc#2, November is due date of MC#1 this year, plus my birthday so will feel the clock ticking even more, December - Christmas natch, then February due date MC#2. Bloody hell...I'm going to be great fun for the next few months, aren't I.
barrenbrook and Tigger I can imagine that it must feel really odd to be told 'nothing wrong with you' after all that. I know I'm going into these tests assuming that they'll find something. Not the chromosomes, 'cause they can't do anything about that, but something they can tell me 'take these pills, then the next time you get updiffed it'll be fine'. That's my assumption. It's a lousy one, because chances are they won't find anything with me either and then there's some more crushing disappointment and bewilderment to get through. Can't offer much sweethearts, just a big old shoulder to lean on and a squeeeeeeeeze.
HairyT that squeeeze has got room for you too chicken. Really sorry you're in this down zone, but I think there's nothing wrong with allowing yourself to be sad and angry for a while. A bit like a splinter, you've got to let it work itself out sometimes.
choccybick how are those tea/coffee cravings going? any more symptoms worthy of spotting?
hi tamashii, sorry to hear of your MC. For me I think it was about 10 days extra on my cycle both times - so normally have a 27-day cycle, took about 38 days for AF to turn up. I think...sorry can't advise about OPKs though. Lots of us on here are the wrong side of 35, you're in fine company 
backonceagain I hope you get your results soon. I wonder if that cramping etc was OV pain? Sorry about the day of crying..I had a big delayed reaction too - sobbed and sobbed and sobbed one evening after I thought I was 'over it'. No slaps from me - just a hair stroke.
caribou, totally recognise that situation, it turns out that DH didn't know what we'd decided to do about this month, he asked after the tests. So..maybe I'd been assuming we'd got it all clear between us when it was only clear to me.
YouRemindMe - good luck for tomorrow's test..hope it's a lovely line for you.
Dachs, have everything firmly crossed that the ol' IUI goes well. My bestest friend had her DD with that method and is about to start again for her no.2, think it took her a few rounds which was difficult (and expensive) but they got there. Is that reassuring? It doesn't sound it actually, but was meant to be 
sunchild your tears at the swimming pool encounter sounds totally normal to me. The being happy for her but gutted for yourself, there's nothing wrong with that, the two things aren't mutually exclusive. Sorry about AF though, good luck for this next cycle.
reallygrumpy, I'm just taking the usual pregnacare plus the metformin (not very regularly tbh), have asked DH to take a multivit or something with zinc. That's it.
kat that's lovely that your colleagues handled it so tactfully, must have helped a little on a difficult day.
oooh oooh Izzy I vaguely recall something on the CBFM thread previously saying dipping the test sticks often gives better results than peeing on. Not sure whether that helps if you've missed the surge. Are you temping as well? I'm not this month (can't find thermometer).
hey jolls, it's just crap isn't it. So bloody pissed off to be even having to think about counting days and persuading DH to do the deed at the right time. I'm even sick to death of the first trimester - the prospect of having to go through the sicky, tired, off-food, generally crap feeling for a prospect of it all going wrong again...just don't want to.
Hi barrenb, prettyv, vivc, freezing nice to see you back!, mamap, MA, PinkFF, everyone else - must try to keep up a bit more . Hope you've got nice weekends planned, I really should try to persuade that DH of mine upstairs...