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[VJay]

How's that? Just hope we all haven't had the same idea and there are now 5 new Emmsys threads

Morning,

blue I totally agree re naps. Ajay has a 2 hour nap in the morning and is tired in the afternoons but rarely naps now. Oh and loing Pjay [hgrin]

cupcake Cjay had a lovely birthday thanks, and as for the diet, well [hgrin]. Your birthday sounded lovely,all filled with chocolate cake and sweets, my kind of birthday [hgrin]

4ever so glad you had such a lovely day [hsmile]

Right my exam is tomorrow so I'm off to revise now, I also have a temperature of 100+ and a very swollen throat, so don't feel good at all. Luckily the inlaws are up and are helping out with the building work and the boys, plus we are rehoming a wee doggy today [hsmile], but more about that later xxx

Hello [hsmile]

Whoops i missed cupcakes b-day, sorry love! Glad you had a nice day anyway...yum chocolate and cakes, im starving! Im 3 hours in to my fasting cos today i have to go for a scan on my c section scar. Cant remember if i said but they think a nerve might of got caught while stitching me back together, this would explain the pain i get. So off to the hospital for me at 4pm today.....

4ever you day sounds fab i bet summer was so gorgeous.

Oh dear Dolly is awake (should of known as its been 2 hours ) Back later to finish xxxx

OK, epic coming up ! I?ve been working on this all morning (gold shiny star for me for once !)

Holiday was fab ? very very relaxing and a lovely place. I hadn?t been to Italy for probably 15 years and had forgotten how much I love the Italian way of life ? they ADORE babies aswell.

Ovulated before we went and no BD action at the right time ? have got to laugh really ? I am a day late and have enormous, painful boobs ? if I thought there was a chance, I?d be getting excited. As it is, I?m simply moaning about it being painful doing aerobics at the gym cos I?m bouncing around so much !

Diet restarted yesterday ? I am far, far too overweight and had to go out and buy a pair of size 18 jeans on Sat as I literally have nothing to wear on my bottom half outside of work now the weather is colder ? I optimistically threw out all my ?very fat? wardrobe last year. So, my challenge is to exist with one pair of jeans until I can fit into some of my other clothes.

lbm ? hope the return to work was OK and you enjoyed your birthday

buddha welcome back 

4ever ? Christening sounds lovely and I can?t wait to see piccies of princess Summer

Sabs ? Absolutely delighted for you that the work situation has turned out OK ? must be a load of your mind

Vjay ? hope you feel better soon, good luck for the exam (not that you?ll need it) and I am dying to hear more about the doggie

MLS ? Not sure I?ve even said congratulations yet ? eek sorry Loved the pics and thankyou to Neeko for texting me the news

Moon ? The girls have said it all. I hope you find the strength to get to the GP ? just talking to an understanding professional must help. I was a real sceptic of counselling and definitely found it difficult to open up, but I think it was of some help (although you only get 6 sessions on the NHS !)

Barbie ? have been following Dog-gate and your sleep trials and tribulations. Obviously no experience to offer but it sounds like you are doing everything you possibly can. Hopefully difficult babies turn into well behaved, well adjusted teenagers !!

Cupcake ? I?ve just got hold of those books and am starting the first one tomorrow on the train to work ? everyone I?ve spoken to has been totally absorbed by them

Blue ? how is the interior decorating going ? Could this be a new career ? !

Monkey ? you are so strong. I do hope we can all get together at a December meetup, including the absent Iggy,

Hello to Neeko too ? have you got any closer to a sleep solution yet ?

BQ ? dare I ask how you are doing [hbiscuit]

Right, conference call in 15 minutes, so I?ll post this and catch up with the people I?ve missed later ..

Running in to say I've sent that email with some of what I've read so far. No time to chat but Hi to all, especially jools and her epic post.

jools you'll miss your train stop and keep going round and round- the books are that compelling! [hgrin]

Yeeees we must organise a December meetup SOON. Keep your Saturdays free girls!

Sorry for another me post - been determined to hold this down & keep a brave face on things til today... 2wks ago my mum & i went shopping so she could get a new top for the christening, when she got home & tried it on i noticed one of her breasts was much bigger than the other, cue panic that the cancers returned.. She went docs the next day, though theres thankfully no obvious lump (wasnt last time either though) they arranged scans at the hospital today..

We wanted to enjoy the christening without peoples worried looks, mum is incredibly stoic and matter of fact in her life, no point in worrying til we know if theres something to worry about was a motto we lived by since my bro had cancer, however the day of the actual tests its a different story, obviously. This isnt helped by the fact despite my best efforts not to rise to it, i had a huge row with my sister yesterday who is staying with mum, its a very long story, too much history (she is in AA but appears to have relapsed ), basically she said she felt ill at church and left half way through without saying goodbye & didnt come to the party, i was undertandably disappointed, i hardly have any family left as it is, she was angry i didnt sympathise..

Anyway, she was gonna go hospital with mum, its likely to take half a day according to the nurse who called, so i was gonna drive them there & go in for a bit, but yesterday my sister was refusing to get in the car with me mums really p'd off with her, she had a go at my mum too, but think shes apologised to a degree, so mums getting a cab with her instead now. Im so as today is about supporting my mum & nothing else, she doesnt need this im past caring about my sisters outbursts & spent most of my life being the bigger person & forgiving & forgetting, i just wanna hug my poor lovely amazingly brave mummy, im just praying she is ok..

Sorry to offload.. Will catch up with you all properly asap, havent even replied to anyones lovely tx

Aw lovely 4ever so sorry :( how did she get on today? relationships between sisters can be so volatile too, i hope she comes around but in the mean time youre doing the right thing focusing on your brave mum. thinking of you.

also barbie sorry i forgot to respond to you earlier, thanks for the birthday wishes :) how did the scan go? hope you're ok.

boy weighed in at 17lbs 6oz today, 19 wks old.

My mum got the all clear! Thank god thank god thank god!

Thanks so much cupcake, and also the very thoughtful barbie for your very lovely tx earlier, from one thats been through it too...

blimey I saunter off for a day or 2 and all this happens. 4ever thank goodness I skipped to the end first and oh my your mum must be feeling wobbly with relief. What a mixture of great and bad times in the last few days for you all.

jools So pleased you had a fab holiday. My pilates teacher says that she has stopped weighing herself cos muscle weighs a lot I find this infinately reasuring[hsmile]
I am sorry that timing is perhaps off this month.

moon yep the time for a PLAN I think may have arrived for you young lady.
It has been a wee while now and no doubt your brain is doing whatifs and your body is maybe doing what cupcake suggests. Is there a science? I think perhaps not and have always felt that bodies do what they are meant to when they are ready. Maybe that is trite hippy nonsense and when you think of women in war zones you do wonder about stress levels... but then maybe bodies go into overdrive of needing to reproduce. Sorry thinking out loud and not even opened wine yet.
moon go see a nice sympathetic gp, maybe ask the receptionist for a slightly longer appointment so you don't feel that you have to rush in and out. I know that you don't want to alert your df too much that you worry. I think you have done so bloody well both you and jools I salute your incredible bravery and loveliness.

My new PLAN is a bit really and means that really I shouldn't really be on the conception boards at all cos I am going to have my tubes snipped[hshock] I will bung another really in just for good measure.
I am 43 next year and ds is 9 and it's too late and I can't waste anymore time feeling so awful and living from one cycle to the next and go through anymore pain. I decided while I was away on holiday and have just let it sit in my head and heart for a bit.

DH feels bad and we had a bit of a tussle over whos bits were for the chop but for me it's having the final say over my body. Which would make a blimming change lets be honest. Plus I will get lots of looking after and a trip to NY to look forward to.

So moon you do have lots of time on your side so make an appointment and see what they say.x

Vjay fingers and toes crossed for tommorrow, sorry I missed a happy birthday to cjay. Remember muscle weighs loads. and you have to eat chocolate when doing exams.

bq please report in and just put a just so we know you are ok.xx

barbie ouch at your scar, hope the appointment goes ok, that your olympic daughter is as lovely as ever and that freddie is getting used to being whispered at.

mls loved the photos especially her hat hope you are doing ok and still on cloud nine.

monkey I am not even close to writing yet but hear him and talk to him in my head everyday iykwim. It is not even a year yet for you lovely and very slowly we will somehow learn to manage the huge hole our loved ones have left. Dh has helped me more than anyone as he lost both his parents when he was in his 20s. He just knew what to do/ not say or say it helped.

blue loved your curtains, glad all is going ok and omg that is the biggest pom pom I have ever seen

wow mermaid you salute me? i think that should definitely be you. was in tears reading your post, which is silly really, as you have made a decision which is right for you, i am pleased that you feel you can do something so brave, but can totally identify with wanting the final say. you are such an inspiration and please dont ever go just because you are in the conception topic, you're still a hand holder/hair stroker/wise words giver/greenhouse provider and very much part of the family. i can't write anymore cuz tears from somewhere just escaped. funny how they hit you when you least expect them. big hug to you for being such a wonderful lady.

moon sorry to make you cry but I really think I have come out the other side - most days. Make that appointment, write down some points and stuff in case they all fly out of your brain.x

i think probably, amongst other things, that i was crying because you had made a decision and because you can see the end of the pain, i think it was that bit that got me going. i cant remember my life without counting days, peeing on sticks and over analysing every twinge along with that constant sick heavy brick feeling in your heart. it will be some sort of closure for you and i think you are wonderfully brave to be able to make that choice.

i cant think about me right now but thank you for the advice xx

oh lovely just lob my advice in the bin cos you are at the coal face so to speak and it is a totally awful place to be. Thinking of you masses.x

thanks, i needed that, cant cope with people being nice to me! but its not in the bin lol just on the side with everyone elses advice when my brain is brave enough to consider it all properly. night night xx

night moonx

Hi ladies,

Cant stay too long as im mega busy, my friend is coming around with her new baby

4ever i was awake most of the night thinking of your mum, im so relieved for you. The worry is immense, but thankfully you can forget all of that now. Sorry about your sister though, families are a funny thing. No words of wisdom from me cos ive never been in the
at situation, have a hug instead x

mermaid your posts made me well up too. Does that mean you are leaving us?
You are such a strong, positive, brave, wonderful person, i am honored to call you a friend. You have made such a brave decision, one in which i hope you will find the closure you need to be able to relax and enjoy yourself. Did laugh that you had to have the last word on what is happening though fighting til the end! I hope your ds realizes what a special mum he has. Hugs to you too xxx

jools what an epic post Your holiday looked fab and i was green with
Good luck on the diet/ keep fit routine, would of never said you were a size 18 though hope you feel better soon x

moon wisemermaid has all the best answers. Which we could all come with you to the docts to hold your hand! Did you see in the daily mail the women who waited 22 years for her baby? she never gave up and im sure you wont either.

blue damn you and your link, i have spent hundreds (thankfully only in my head ) i love that web site, i have asked my mum to order the catalogue to bring out with her in nov. Love your curtains btw.

mls are you still ling from ear to ear? Love the pics. way too cute!

whoops dd is awake

Back laters....oh and i have to have an MRI scan they are not sure what is wrong...you cant make this shit life of mine up!

Oh my, major hugs required today!

Mermaid That's a very brave decision, though you've always been a brave lady. Really hope it brings you some peace and you totally melt the credit card in NYC. Don't even think about leaving this thread. You're very much needed and wanted here.

Moon You'll know when the time is right. the neverending loop in your head and pain in your heart is awful and it seems you too have had an awful lot of real life stuff to cope with. Hope you find the head room you need soon.

4ever so relieved for your mum. Sorry to hear things are stressful with your sister.
Hope you manage to find a way of co-existing for your mum's sqke. Sounds like you've all had more than enough heartbreak already.

Barbie try to look positively on the scan in the fact that they are doing something. This private health care must be really denting your finances. Hope Dolly is feeling better and you're getting at least a little sleep.

Jools pleased to hear you had a fab holiday. you sound more positive than you have for a long time. Hope things are on the way up.

Blue and Vjay Thanks for the advice re sleep and naps. What you're saying makes sense but i think that H is overtired and I'm trying to work off the deficit through maximum naps. Last night she slept in her cot for 10.5 hours with two wakeups for quick feeds. That's the longest ever so I really hope we're onto something and in a few months she'll be on one long and one short nap a day.

Buddha Hope you got the lovely 'first shoes' photo. M was so delighted with hers. I really like Clarks shoes despite the horrendous ££.

Vjay Hope you're feeling better and the exam went well. I agree with mermaid that chocolate is a must.

Cupcake pleased to hear that sleep is going better and that you had a nice birthday and weekend.

Monkey how are you doing this week?

Sabs Hope you're still smiling about the job. how are you finding the new role?

LBM hope work went ok when you finally got there and babyJ gave you a big cuddle at home.

MLS So glad the bf is working out for you this time. Delighted to hear that Kitty is a boob monster

M back at nursery today and H sleeping. So nice to have some MN me time Made the mistake of buying chocolate for Hallowe'en today and opening the bags

Hellooooo, exam is over and my temperature is down [hgrin], I have a raging sore throat, but that's nothing to what's been going on on here...
...4ever major PHEW!!!!! for your mum, I physically let out a loud sigh of relief, I'm so pleased for you all [hsmile]

mermaid lovely mermaid, that is a brave decision and it's the sort of one I would probably come to too, I salute you [hsmile]. I totally understand it, it's being in control and all that [hsmile]
Also I did smile at the muscle weighing more, I'm just incredibly muscley at the mo [hwink]

moon in your own time hun, one day you'll get yourself to the gp, but only when you're ready [hsmile]

jools glad you had a nice relaxing holiday [hsmile]

barbie why have you got to have an MRI scan?????

neeko lets hope H is turning a corner re her sleep [hsmile], and lol at you opening the Hallowe'en chocolate [hgrin]

OK, doggy time, we had thought about getting a puppy, but I couldn't cope with trying to train a puppy and an Ajay at the same time, so we popped along to the re-homing centre on Sunday to just enquire....we then had a look at the wee dogs and there she was Mazy, or lazy Mazy as we call her. She's the same age as Ajay is a cross between a Cairn terrier and a scottie, she has a grey scruffy coat and is soooo well behaved. Her previous owners (who had kids) couldn't keep her because they went into rented accom..
We had an inspector round the house Monday morning, then picked her up yesterday. I will post a pic when I've taken one of her. Oh and the boys love her [hsmile]

Oh again!! I think the exam went ok, don't get the results til December [hsmile]

Congats on the new addition to your family Vjay and well done on the exam. I just know you've passed. [hsmile]

That all sort of splurged out yesterday, barbie how can I leave you are in my greenhouse!

vjay you made me laugh with the sentence I can't train ajay and a puppy at the same time Lazy Mazy sounds just right and lovely.

Well done for the exam in the face of adversity. There are some shocking colds doing the rounds atm.

neeko yay at nursery which has reminded me that it's nearly half term and lie ins again.

barbie are they just being mega cautious with you? Glad they are anyway.x

bq hope you are ok.x

Hey guys . Won't get the chance to post tomrorow (its 'Mummy day Thursday' as DS1 calls it )but just wanted to catch up..

4ever - so glad your Mum is A-OK, you must be so relieved. As for your sster, can empathise, I've had sister stresses over the years . Can't wait to see piccies of Summer [hsmile].

barbie - glad you liked the catalogue link, its so very gorgeous isn't it? How did you get on at Dcos re: your scar? Really hope the MRI is belt and brace stuff and nothing more serious, man you have had some year... On a happier note, how is the delightful Miss D [hsmile]?

Vjay - welcome to Mazy . My family always had Cairn terriers, they are fabulous! Well done for getting through the exam with the lurgy too

mermaid - you sound very at peace and set on your decision and I commend you for drawing the line in the sand after so much heartache. Can empathise to wanting that final control over your body. Remember and look daily at your getting taller every day DS, what an achievement he is! Enjoy NY when the time comes, it is simply the best city in the world (not that I've been to that many...)

Belated Happy b'day cupcake - sorry I missed you. Bet the photos are gorgeous, you must email some round.

neeko - yay to better sleeping and time for YOU! Pass our love on to MLS. Glad the feeding is going well..

Moon - hope you know how much we are all rooting for you xx

Right, waay too late, logging off now. I had a spray tan done earlier for a wedding we're off to on Friday. I look awful and smell even worse [hgrin]. Please let it all wash off in the shower to leave a golden hue.

Hi all sorry not been in touch head been in sand and very busy at work. Had a major panic yesterday wiped and saw a smear of brown. Went to early pregnancy unit today and had a scan they dated me at 5 + weeks where as I thought more 6. They saw a yolk sac but say too early to see anything else so have to go back next week for repeat scan. Feeling a bit scared because it feels very simialr scenario to last time any reassurance would be greatly appreciated. Sorry if rambling but had no sleep last night worrying so falling asleep now

Hi all sorry not been in touch head been in sand and very busy at work. Had a major panic yesterday wiped and saw a smear of brown. Went to early pregnancy unit today and had a scan they dated me at 5 + weeks where as I thought more 6. They saw a yolk sac but say too early to see anything else so have to go back next week for repeat scan. Feeling a bit scared because it feels very simialr scenario to last time any reassurance would be greatly appreciated. Sorry if rambling but had no sleep last night worrying so falling asleep now

Morning bq aaarrrgghhh major wobble for you. I can only say what happened to me, I had bleeding with Ajay on and off from 5 to 9 weeks, major wobbles and weebles for me but it turned out alright. Just try and stay as calm as you can

Oh and as for the dates being out to what you think, when I had my very early scans the doctor did say that because baby is sooo small just a slight mm movement of the mouse when measuring will add/subtract a few days, so don't worry too much about the date if you can. Ajay was measured less than what I believed my dates where to begin with, then at the 12 week scan he gained 2 days!