Don't worry about ranting - its what we are here for! And don't worry about what-ifs. Give it a try with the hosp, I am definitely ringing tomorrow as I am going nuts! Can't remember stuff.
We will get preg again, we have done it, we can do it again. Until that time we will just have to try and cuddle our friends babies without crying over them! I manage with my niece now and she is only 4 months now, so we were both preg at the same time (briefly!)(my sil that is, not my niece!)
My best what-if is another friends child who, I STUPIDLY worked out, is the age my second child would be if I had conceived within the 3 months it took to get pg with ds. This little boy is gorgeous, and was an accident, but is much loved! (Oh and he is nearly 2!)
It is only 3 weeks Pants, time does help, honest - well it makes the howling fits further apart!
Sorry if this is not making sense, I am now going to bed. Night all!