Who's had a Christmas Eve cry?

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I just did. Feeling overwhelmed. It's all on me. Presents haven't arrived, so much to do, wrapping, food prep, husband working all over Xmas. I just want to lie on the sofa with a baileys and relax but I can't. Sending hugs to those that need it xx

Me. I live abroad for now so friends are my absolute family. Just had a fall out with my closest friend here (because I won’t be a rollover for a guy taking the piss out of buying the contents of my flat) along with a load of other stressful shit I couldn’t of predicted and she things I should have known so Christmas willl now be spent alone while all my friends, including her, celebrate together as I obviously can’t tell the others why I’m not there.
merry shitting Christmas to me

Reading all these posts... l always thought l was the only one who was nostalgic for Christmas's passed... last Christmas l was so depressed.. first without my sister... l live in the family home.. it brings me comfort.. but also loads of nostalgic memories... touch wood I've been okay so far.. although I've been on my own and not spoken to a soul. Plenty of messages from my daughters.. tomorrow and boxing day l will be with them.. l could even spend weeks with them if l wanted... im blessed with my close n loving family.

Yeah, possibly on the verge of a breakdown. I'm a carer for my mum who's disabled and she's unwilling to help herself
We've just had a massive screaming match. Really CBA.
I hope your Christmas day goes well 🎄

Our grandson was born sleeping and we buried him on the 22nd December. My daughter is broken and her partner is a mess. They are here for Christmas but it’s heartbreaking for them, it was meant to be an exciting and happy Christmas for them which has turned into a horrendously sad nightmare.

Me, its my first one without my mum, who passed away in October, and my heart hurts so much knowing that I won't be seeing her.

Every year, watching snowman and the snow dog. Miss my wee dog who died last year.

I’m so sorry for you all

@gasbox I agree, felt better to find others struggling for whatever reason..
To those newly and (not so newly bereaved) those firsts can be absolutely awful, but in time, things generally improve a bit, next year may feel a fraction better..

I cried in M&S earlier because everyone was being so kind and smiley. It’s likely to be DM’s last Christmas (terminal cancer), DS9 is profoundly autistic and very challenging, and I’m exhausted with trying to magic up Christmas in these circumstances. I hoped that DM’s illness would persuade DH not to be an arse to me this year, but no - he’s been borderline abusive to me for the last 2 weeks, I can do nothing right, and today he said not to make him any supper because he would rather “stay out of the way until it’s over”. Ashamed to say I absolutely wailed in front of him, I’m sure the neighbours heard, but I just cannot carry the load on my own, or take the insults, any more.

so sorry for your loss

Yup. Got a bit overwhelmed. Feels like so much work has gone in this year. Think I feel a lot of pressure as single parent with small family. Got cross at my son. Also got a nasty sore throat coming on.

So ridiculously mild. Going to enjoy tomorrow 💙

Yeah me. It's all felt just so much nostalgia and the pressure of making happy memories for the children and thinking of christmasses past. It's just all a lot.

So sorry for all your loss, truly tragic and heartbreaking. I shall put on my stiff upper lip to face the world and think of you all.

I hope you find peace and comfort in each other.

Mine seems so mindless in comparison. I've just found this christmas a bit overwhelming where people seem to be spending like mad yet i keep thinking about those who cant afford much at all. Its hit home this year because a friend was telling me about her childhood in poverty and how desperately hungry she was as a child. I was so sad hearing this.

I just really want my children to be grateful for what we have. They are small so have no clue, and to be fair, I havent spent tons but lots of stuff like stickers/stationary etc. But I cried thinking how hard it must be for so many people at the moment.

You're not vain. You're fucking amazing. Happy Christmas ❤️

I'm so sorry. It must be even harder to bear this time of year.

Christmas has never been the same since my
mother died. I used to think of Christmas as being a day just for her. She loved having the family all together. I used to host because I knew how much she loved it and I didn’t mind doing all the hard work so that she could be happy. Then I would have Boxing Day to myself. It is now several years since she died and I really miss her.

I haven’t yet as have been on adrenaline working right up to Christmas and sorting things for my children but am sure I will tomorrow as my mum is in hospital and will no doubt have a pretty crap day and Christmas is her favourite time of year normally. My sister and I are taking it in turns over the festive period so my dad isn’t on his own. With small kids you have to just keep going but I think it will all hit me tomorrow afternoon.

Me! Saw my stepdad take his final breaths a few days ago. Then my partner was a bit miffed their presents might not have arrived in time.

Well, this thread has me on the verge of tears. More than any other friend this season, thos thread is really about the spirit of Christmas.

Dear god that's a lot. Sending massive hugs

Me. My Dad died two weeks ago and I feel numb. 😭

My goodness. I felt a bit tearful earlier because I’m a bit overwhelmed with three little children, a month of full on Christmas, and the prospect of hosting for three consecutive days.

Reading this has made me regain a sense of perspective. I am so lucky. I will call my grandparents tomorrow morning and hold my children tightly and tell my husband I love him so much. Who cares if the wrapping is a bit messy and I forgot to buy pudding. It doesn’t matter.

Sending Christmas love to you all.

Me. My dad died recently and the counselling has pushed up some massive regrets. It's all too late and it feels overwhelming.

Yes me, thinking of happier and easier times.
I also lost my mum recently.
Other things have happened and changed the family dynamic.
Currently it looks like I am now spending it alone but I did not think I was, so not bought dinner. I have other things I can eat for dinner but not Christmas dinner.