Who's had a Christmas Eve cry?

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I just did. Feeling overwhelmed. It's all on me. Presents haven't arrived, so much to do, wrapping, food prep, husband working all over Xmas. I just want to lie on the sofa with a baileys and relax but I can't. Sending hugs to those that need it xx

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Grief is grief, you knew the child even though you hadn't spoken.
A part of you passes with every failed pregnancy. I wish you positive news for the future.

Have been crying again reading some of these posts. Sending warmest wishes to all others who are feeling sad this Christmas.

My mum has dementia. Newly diagnosed. It is my devoted, brilliant dad that breaks my heart. I can't bear to watch it

I hear this. I've lost both my parents and had a little weep at Christmas eve mass earlier. There's a line in a particular carol thay sucker punched me every time.

@Isitsticky so sorry to hear how you are struggling. It is only 7 weeks since my DD died (aged 24). I do not expect to ever get over the loss of her. May you find peace.

I’ve had a cry after seeing lots of posts online of happy families with children and of pregnancy announcements. I’ve longed to be a mum yet it’s not happened for me after multiple recurrent miscarriages

I am really sorry, @Figtree11. That sounds very painful. 💐

Had a bit of a cry earlier.
Whole month has been crap for us. DH just out of hospital after being in for over a week. Needs surgery in a few weeks.
Mum under hospital investigations too.
Had to keep a smile on my face at work as I work with pre-schoolers and this is supposed to be a magical happy time.

Wow, I've been reading these and feeling almost guilty for having a moment earlier as some of the posts make my problems seem completely insignificant. Huge love to you all and hope you manage to find some reasons to smile over the next few days and if not then know that all this will be over again soon xxx

Sorry, but this made me laugh! You do know he's not real, yes? 🤭

Me ✋ I miss the void that was my dad. A magnificent man who made us laugh, cared for us and loved us unconditionally. Also I've been diagnosed with a neuroendocrine tumour so wondering what the future holds. Trying to put a brave face on for my family.
Sending love to everyone who might be struggling this evening 🫂

I haven't had my Christmas Eve Cry oddly, because I generally do.

What sparks me is the memory of my darling grandfather in the porch on Christmas Eve. He raised his fedora to Mum, as he did to all adult ladies, including his daughters. As usual threw myself at his waistcoat and arms round him and hugged him, because he ws my favourite person. I remember that he only hugged me with one arm and I didn't know why, but as an adult I realise that was because he was hiding the bags with the presents for us he was delivering behind his back.

This was well over 50 years ago and it is like yesterday.

I haven't actually cried but I think of my parents and friends who made Christmas special.

Mine is nothing compared to people who are going through really horrible times, but I just feel sad that it's all over - DD 12 is such an uninterested teenager, not bothered about anything remotely Christmassy. Feels sad.

Me too, feeling sad that my children are now 20 and 17 and the magic has gone.

I hardly remember the christmas's when they were little, I was so mentally over whelmed most of the time.

Now they aren't interested in decorating the tree or watching a Christmas movie. I've spent the evening on my own, feeling sorry for myself and wishing I could rewind time.

Me.

First one without my dad.
Split up with DH in September but still living in the same house. The atmosphere is horrific. I’m worried what is doing to DS14 and just want to get out.
DS isn’t a baby any more so the magic bits have gone too.
Dreading tomorrow and wondering what it’s going to be like with DHs mood. Going to my sisters with DS at 1230 tomorrow for the day (DH refusing to come and staying home with a pot noodle) no idea how we will get through the morning or what I will come home to.

Me 🙋🏼‍♀️lost my Dad & then my husband, my son is sad, my mother showing signs of dementia, I won't go on as I'll start again 😥
Merry F***g Christmas 🎄

Me. In A&E again with my 13 month old, with suspected UTI have already been here 2am Tues morning where she was diagnosed with tonsillitis for the second time in a month. Poor love has had a raging fever all day I have struggled to keep down and been so poorly with diarrhoea and struggled to get water and breastfeed her, she has been off everything. It’s 2300 I’ve been here since 20:00 not long in the grand scheme but it’s her first Christmas not being a tiny human but a little human and this wasn’t what I expected. Plus I’m exhausted from no sleep Monday night and barely any last night. Right now couldn’t give a fuck about Christmas just want her well and us in bed snugggled up but it all got a bit too much when I got here and I had to have a cry.

Me. Nothing bad has happened to me this year, and I'm sending very best wishes to some of the posters on this thread for your losses.

My kids are in their 30s, both married but no sign of any babies, which of course is fair enough, their lives their choices. I miss the magic and anticipation of christmases past, and if I'm honest, the sense of being needed. The excitement building as the big day approaches, the precision operation of getting everything done in time, house decorated, presents wrapped, food bought. Christmas just feels a bit empty and pointless now. So I watched Paddington and had a little blub at the happy ending!!

I’ve just had one but not from frustration or anxiety of not having wrapped gifts/packed to see family/prepped enough food..

writing a card to my parents thanking them for their love and support this year as I’ve separated from ex and they’ve helped me raise my 2.5 year old.. just feeling very grateful to have wonderful family and to see real love in action (I have taken it for granted for too long) but I really felt it today.

raising a glass to family being there when you need it the most 🥂

I hope those of you who are sad and struggling do find some peace tomorrow. And for those living with loss, some joy thinking back on the happy times and love you shared. This thread has been so incredibly moving x

My two are 20 and 17 and I feel exactly the same.

What?!

No, it made me think of going to see it with my dad when I was a little girl. Funny how some things just set you off, even though it’s a long time since he passed away.

Sorry grown up DC. Would never cry over a man.

I've had several over the last few days, finding Christmas really hard this year. Mil has cancer, surgery is done but chemo starts a few days after Christmas so none of us are really feeling it this year. I'm NC with my own family which is painful all the time but worse at this time of year, and worse this year than previous ones for me for some reason.

Nostalgia is eating me alive tonight and I will honestly be glad when tomorrow is over and I can hopefully start to shake it off and get back to normal. Been desperate for a break from work and now I realise it's better when I'm too busy and tired to dwell on this stuff! Hate that other people are struggling too but it's kind of nice that we can all be here for each other and say how we're really feeling, makes it a little bit easier to slap on a smile in real life at least.