Who's had a Christmas Eve cry?

[Dozeyduck]

I just did. Feeling overwhelmed. It's all on me. Presents haven't arrived, so much to do, wrapping, food prep, husband working all over Xmas. I just want to lie on the sofa with a baileys and relax but I can't. Sending hugs to those that need it xx

Me. At airport waiting for my son … he has been travelling - so overwhelmed with emotions

Me, it’s the first one without my mum

Youngest DC are in bed now and just had a little one in the kitchen. It was cathartic

I went to church with DH and DS (6) and the sound of his little voice singing O Come All Ye Faithful had me in tears.

I'm worn out and have no intention of making anything I honestly couldn't imagine having to make stuff on top !

Me. My Dad died 6 weeks ago and my mum earlier this year. DH keeps asking if I am ok and I was fine all day but then just fell apart in the last hour.

Me. Husband thinks he’s a wonderful family man by doing 5% of the work and leaving the rest to me. He had told me he’d make brisket for dinner then forgot he’d ever said it, and denied all knowledge. Safe to safe that dinner was left to me. I finally snapped this evening and have ruined the atmosphere for everyone. Brilliant. Merry fucking Christmas.

I did earlier driving to work. I was thinking of my auntie. She loved Christmas, she had no children of her own but doted on me & her other nieces and nephew. I wore her Christmas jumper to go to work in. She passed away from Alzheimers shortly before my eldest daughter was born, I always wonder what she'd be like as a great-auntie at Christmas.

Yeah, just putting my DC to bed and holding it together. With in-laws and I hate it. DC already been unfavorably compared to his cousin and I was the but of a joke being referred to as stony ground. My husband is annoyed at me for withdrawing. Aggh

Close watching the end of "Home Alone". Something about my sons growing up and are teenagers now and the mother son relationship at the end of the film. I always cry at the end of those films...!

If possible watch the Doc Martin Christmas Special, it s grinchy and funny, but really brightening me up. 🤶🎅🎄❤️❤️

Me, had to have my 12yt old cat pts on the 22nd. My heart is honestly aching that she is not here. It was the right decision but not easy. Just not feeling it this year as a result. Luckily no children as DS is 23 now so I’m allowed to feel sad.

We are up early to head to Wales and my elderly FIL tomorrow. I might get some feeling of the season when all the family are together.

Me. I had a horrible panic attack on our afternoon walk with the dog.
I've lost both my parents in the last 5 years, no siblings, no kids. Christmas just feels pointless now.

Me. I long to walk into my childhood home and smell the cooking, the fires and the Christmas tree. The magic of that home. My parents busy and the house alive, full of Christmas.

I miss them both terribly, it's been such a long time.

Me too - I’m sorry, it’s really hard

Me 🙋🏻‍♀️
Came out of nowhere when i was plating DC tea out. DH had just got back with a takeaway curry for them to share. Was plating up and just felt sad it might be my eldest’s last year of believing (he is 10).
also abit of everything else, not slept for 2 weeks as got a chest infection so been coughing alot. On antibiotics and an inhaler. Probably also relief as i’ve had to do everything to organise christmas and “be the magic” and then sadness that its almost over for another year.
also sad about relatives no longer here, went to see my grandad earlier and when my nana was here she used to have a big tree decorated and all the family would go. My grandad can’t be bothered since she died so he has a small 3ft tree. Just occurred to me earlier today the best days have almost gone and you don’t realise it til its too late.
its a lovely time but also an emotional time IMO.

Me. My DS (20) is making some questionable decisions currently resulting in him being out of work. I’m worried where this will all lead

Secondary cancer diagnosis a month ago. Struggling a little and have found myself a bit snappy today with the kids and not meaning to be. I think it's felt worse as my hair has started shedding today from the chemo I'm on. Ideally I want to shave it off as my head is sore and losing it is freaking me out but I'd like this year's pictures where I have some hair on my head as vain as that sounds.

However I'm trying to make myself feel positive as the kids are 4 & 6 and they are in their believing era and I'm all for it. The excitement has been wonderful to see and hear today. Now just sitting on my own doom scrolling whilst DH is in his office doing the last of his wrapping and I'm listening out to hear if the kids stir but don't think it'll be much longer until I can distract myself getting everything out. Then my sedative meds will kick in and it'll be zzzzz until the kids dive into our room at some insane hour.

Me. First Christmas without my Dad, he died recently. Just looking forward to it all being over with xx

Me, we had a lovely little pet PTS yesterday ☹️

Why is it all on you?

I am a single parent and it can be stressful having to do everything myself but you should not be doing it all yourself (it can still be overwhelming but it should be half the amount).

If you’re crying because you’re doing everything then perhaps this is a wake up call and you should be rethinking your relationship.

Me. It was Carol's from King's that did it.

This time of year is always hard as you see so many happy looking couples and families with children and I don't have that (and I always thought I'd have children, I remember the Christmas's I had as a child and would have loved to replicate that).

Me. My DM was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s a few weeks ago. We live miles away and I’m feeling guilty that I’m not there. I should be spending Christmas with her while she still knows who I am, but we planned everything around DH’s family this year because his sister is ill too. Meanwhile DD has reached the age when the last thing she wants to do is spend time with her parents and has hidden away to chat online with her friends.
DH is watching TV and I am feeling lonely and yearning for the old Christmasses of my youth.

Yep. Missing my dad desperately even though it's Christmas No 5 without him.

Not feeling 100% after a really stressful few months and two viruses.

Lots of stuff happening next year - largely positive but a bit daunting.

'Relationship' (situationship) a joke. I'm getting what I signed up for but it's getting old tbh.

But...

Lovely DD home from Uni, epic picky tea, wine and Christmas Sewing Bee so it's not all bad.

Me.
We lost our son (28) on the 29th June to a Glioblastoma.