Just got into bed with paddy!
Reflecting on a year that’s been gut wrenchingly heart breaking, but also heart bursting, euphorically happy with finding out I was pregnant, then finding out I’m having a beautiful wee girl and of course getting together with my soulmate!
Such is the nature of life though, ups and downs, calm waters and tides.
The one thing I have learnt through all this is that life doesn’t stop and the world doesn’t stop turning, no matter how much you are hurting. I’ve also learnt that family really isn’t everything, and that true love really does come when you least expect it. I end this year feeling happy, lucky, humble, hopeful and very excited for the arrival of my beautiful Addie next year. I cannot imagine sharing my life or raising our baby girl with anyone else and for that, I am the luckiest woman alive.
I couldn’t have got through the darkest time of my life without the people on this thread. You have kept me sane, you have made me smile when it felt like my world was caving in, you have listened and advised and I feel very lucky to know you all and call you friends!
Sorry for the ramblings, I just felt like trying to put into words how grateful and truly lucky I am. ❤️
Mrs - I looked at paddy and he looked absolutely horrified! It’s the stuff nightmares are made of, it’s like he had no eyes 
Surely you risk blindness tattooing the inside of your eyes too, it can’t be safe!
Thank you my lovely, I feel awful going on about it all the time! Sometimes it just helps to vent though! I’m really hoping the midwife can recommend something to ease this pain, even if it’s just things to try! Good job Addie is worth every second 
Your poor dad
I know every day must feel like a life time and like you are so helpless, you will all come through this though! The light will always come shining through, no matter how bleak things seem at the moment my lovely 
Wheelie - thank you, the shorts are huge on me but the top only just fits over Addie bump haha.
It’s 9.19pm here now, though I think it was 8.30 when you posted your last message
I’ve not played sims in years, my brothers and I used to love it haha.
Nero - happy new year to you and your family! I hope 2019 brings everything your heart desires and nothing but happiness!