I did, as far as the law of the time allowed. I refused all vaccines bar the then obligatory ones. (Italy)
I got freaked out about stuff about vaccines being reported. Then Blair refused to say if his son had had the MMR. I started reading very one sided articles and sites, got in a right state. I presented myself as informed. In reality I had cherry picked everything that supported my refusal of vaccines and avoided anything that challenged my fears.
When DS was about 4 or 5 we had a holiday with family booked in a few months time in the U.K. Reports started popping up in the press about measles outbreaks back home. One was where my sister lived, where DS was going to be staying, with lots if child focused activities planned where loads of little germ carrying children were going to be.
Something crystallised in my head. I was scared of the known, universally acknowledged risks of vaccination, and I hated my little baby/boy being stabbed with a needle and then being off colour/feverish after. It felt counterintuitive to my primal urge to protect him.
But once it became apparent that the risk of catching a disease with potentially awful consequences was on the rise I got more scared of that than the less convincing anti vaxx stuff I had been consuming.
I went screeching down to the clinic and cried all over the vaccine nurses. They were lovely and worked with us over the years to get DS all caught up. DH took charge of the actual stab with a needle appointments because I am so crap with them. DS didn't turn a hair with calming DH, whereas with me he picked up on my tension. He is all caught up now at 18, had the full free flotilla of optional anti meningitis too. He'll be getting the paid for chicken pox one this summer because he's managed to not catch it. I'll be going to have a chat with the nurses about the HPV vaccine because I'm not sure what the state of play is here, but if he can have it, albeit paid probably, he will.
I have ADHD, can hyperfocus at olympic standard when my knickers are in a twist and get quite obsessive and anxious about things. I still suffer with guilt that when it came to vaccines I placed my son at additional, needless risk because I let the hyperfocus off the leash. I prioritised my fears and dislike of injections/post vaccine discomfort in my baby over making a properly informed decision for my son's benefit, based on reading from a wide range of sources and checking their validity. I just read what supported my antipathy and even when somebody was clearly unqualified (and on some occasions was obviously talking gobbeldygook) I swallowed it whole and uncritically if it was "on my side".
It was not my finest moment as a parent.
In retrospect what would have helped was if those arguing on a grassroots level for vaccination could have avoided the patronising, insulting stance that quite a few took out of irritation and frustration. I entirely understand why that happened. But I don't think I was the only one refusing to vaxx in a highly emotional state, and it became only too easy to ignore or avoid the other perspective when in the first three sentences you felt throughly insulted, belittled and despised.
I believe part of the reason why I cracked and went into swift reversal when faced with measles outbreaks was because whenever I had had enforced contact with the local vaccine nurses they were unrelentingly lovely. They tried to persuade me to let him have the non-obligatory vaccines like the MMR, but despite my bristling and "ready to be confrontational" over emotional manner, were unfailingly polite and kind. Which left the door wide open because I had no concerns of told you so, or being horrible judged as an awful mother when my anti vaxx stance crumbled. They made it as easy as possible for me to be ready to hear them as soon as I started to have doubts over my previous position.
I think there is the possibility that more bees could be caught with honey, rather than the large dose of vinegar that can creep into discussions about vaccination.