ahhhhhhhh..you've got the fear
that sudden , horrible realisation ,that the baby has to come out one way or another, somewhere and somehow and it is so going ot hurt ! yep, the fear...often signals labour is close..!!
you need to really get into the reasons you are not comfortbale with home birth , as TMSMJ has said, and as Mars said, be open and safe during the labour
you know, it won;t hurt any less in hospital. you just have access to more pain killers!!!! and more intervention and more faffing and the worry of where to take DS...
and at home, ok, limited pain releif, but you have the birth pool.....marvelllous for pain relief. and gas and air.....
honey, i had diamorphine & epidural with first birth and gas & air and a smidge of pethidine with the second. I now know, i could have so done it without the pethidine!!!
where will you feel safest
where will you be able to labour on your terms
where will you feel safe, secure, supported and listened to
it is about so much more than an epidural..........
light some candles, get in the bath and visualise the birth..where do you see it??