I had three caesareans, two during labour, one pre-warned and before labour started but not elective. When I discovered I was unintentionally pregnant with number 4 I had done a lot of research on VBAC and talked to a lot of people. I booked an independent midwife and a water pool.
I had come to realise by then that my bad births were down to incompetent care AND my lack of faith in my body. Having taken the time to find out how birth really works and what makes it work better I had every confidence in having a home water birth. It was a wonderful experience: 6 hours, start to finish, no tearing, no pain relief other than the pool.
If you truly want a VBAC (and who could blame those who don't having had such miserable first experiences of hospital labour) you need to read the evidence about the policies suggested around VBAC, most of them have none. Restricted movement, restricted time frame, frightening women by calling it Trial of Labour or, worse, Trial of Scar makes it unnecessarily hard to have a straightforward birth. Frightened women do not labour well and may end up having the long slow labour ending in repeat caesarean which they do dread because they release so much adreniline that slows labour and makes it more painful. As to tearing, the same evidence applies to VBAC as to any other birth - perineal massage, waterbirth, homebirth, being upright in labour, avoiding epidural will all reduce your risk.
Walking into most consultant led units and expecting to have a straightforward birth is what many of us do, and when we have awful births what do we blame? Ourselves, our bodies, the birth process itself. Women who have straightforward births are considered "lucky", women who book homebirths are "mad".
If you really want to avoid repeat experience of a bad birth then maybe the answer isn't repeat caesarean, maybe the answer is to really look at the evidence about what reduces tearing, pain etc and then act on it.
You can find out more about VBAC and how to have a good one and the evidence, or lack of it, around hospital policies by looking at \link{http://caesarean.org.uk\this website} qhich was written by two experts in the field - one of them was asked to sit on the government's NICE panel on Caesarean Section guidelines for hospitals. You might also like to read "Birth After Caesarean" available from www.aims.org.uk - I am biased because I wrote it but it has had very good reviews and I tried to keep it as balanced as possible given the overriding evidence that repeat caesarean is more risky for mum and baby.
I hope you reach a decision that is right for you - the NCT has elective caesarean and VBAC support volunteer workers to whom you can talk if you want some one to one support. If you definitely want to VBAC or to find out more about it then there are some wonderful women on the support group called UKVBACHBAC which you can find on www.yahoogroups.com.
I hope this helps a bit,
Best wishes,
Jenny Lesley