We're back.
We set off to the hospital and straight into the monitoring room, was hooked up to the monitor by 6:50.
7:25 monitoring finished: everything was fine according to the notes.
I had to press a little button (that looked like the morphine button 
)whenever there was a kick or movement. With Isbn the movement is usually a big fat arse moving across the front of my belly
I was quite amused to see that every time it exerted itself the heartbeat went up. Good stuff.
then a woman rang about me, apparently I'm infamous. 
and the MW asked me to stay until the supervising MW came on duty (15 mins or so) sothat she could have the "discussion" that they were going to do tomorrow.
Anywey, the discussion with this S MW went very well, she was lovely, and explained all the options and why they recommend this that and the other and explained the risks of leaving it too long.
I asked about the possibility of using The Birth Place because of it being down the corridor, even if i had the induction (which I will decide at 42w, ie Saturday) and explained that I was worried about the birth becoming too medical etc, so she showed us the room that had the birth pool in it, and the CD player and the fact that it was actually quite as comfortable as they can make it (without being as lovely as The Birth Place).
There's only one room that's lovely with the pool, but she said that there are also 2 baths, and that they do recommend using water as pain relief etc.
the other labour rooms did look very clinical, but not as much as I ad worried about, they had the trolley beds etc in them, but still had the CD player, and she explained that i wouldn't have to be hooked up to a monitor or forced to stay on the bed...
I'm readign a bit from my notes now.
"andrea is reluctant to have IOL because she doesnot weant medical interference and sheis worried that once she is induced it might become a spiral of interventions that could result in a c-section.
we discussed the pathweay of an IOL.
- propess (the pessary thing) - if successful no need for further intervention
- ARM - if leads to labour no need for further intervention
- synotocin: in which she would need continuous monitoring. and IV in situ."
then it says that I want to wait till 40+14 ,and that all options were explained that they can't do anything without my consent.
that i declined a membrane sweep
and then that i'm going in tomorrow for another CTG and a scan to check flow to the baby via the umbilical cord.
that i don't want to give a date that i'll agree to IOL
then it says that they asked the Doctor on the shift to come and talk to me.
foolish me thought that meant a doctor would come along and basically repeat all the stuff I've been told.
what actually happened was this doctor came along who had absolutely no people skills and started "telling me off" like a headteacher to a child.
seriously, she really quite got my back up!
she was very melodramatic, saying that if i don't allow intervention after this stage that my baby might die, and (repeated about 6 times) that I would have to live with myself if something went wrong or live with the consequences f the baby dies because after 40+12, everything stops working and there's a huge risk etc etc etc.
(she was practically hysterical)
Anyway, I said that I was quite happy going until 42 weeks and then go from there (because I had originally said i wanted to see what happened each day) You'd think I'd said I was going to wait 3 years!
she kept going on about the fact that the monitors only give a snapshot and that doesn't mean that the baby is fine now, or that it could die any moment, or the heart stop etc.
I was kind of laughing a bit when she was doing this because it was soooo extreme and made me feel very uneasy, so she asked me what i was finding so funny, so i told her it was her attitude - that she was being very extreme and the thing about the headteacher.
she then went on to say that she was only putting it in black and white and that she had to tell me all the information. I told her that I didn't think she needed to be quite so harsh about it.
anyway, upshot of the whole thing - (and conclusion!)
Dot (the supervising MW) made me feel comfortable about the idea of having an induction, and made me feel that I could still havea positive birth and not necessarily have the interventions I'm dreading, (the only thing I'm still worried about is the fact that while you wait for the pessary thing to work you are on the labour ward and DH wouldn't be allowed to be there - he's allowed when Labour starts (hopefully within 24 hours is the theory), but I would be on my own until something happens. - that's non-movable)
and the other doctor came very close to making me say "fuck it, i'm not doing that, you're leading me to worry about intervention and medicalised birth again"
thankfully, I am able to see that the doctor is just crap with people, and that I am going to ignore what she said/how she said it so that I can concentrate on the positiveness that Dot gave me.
I will see Dot again on Saturday (if the body doesn't reject Isbn before then!!)
so that'll be positive. I did tell her how I felt about the way the Doctor spoke to me, and expressed that it had made more concerns in my head about interventions.
we got out of there at about 8:50ish.