I'm 5foot 2 and weigh 14stone 8lb

[TellysAndWellys]

How did this happen. I am so, so ashamed of myself. I used to weigh in 13 stone, then overhauled my whole diet and got down to 9stone 8lb.

But I've put it all back on. And so much more. This is shameful and I cannot believe I have let it get this bad. I've even had to buy some size 20 tops. I have tried slimming world but that didn't really
Work for me. So I'm back to calorie counting. And 5:2. From today. I've got to stop making excuses. I am going on an amazing holiday in January with my 2 best friends and. CAN'T be the size I am now.

I am sick of feeling tired, uncomfortable and just plain shit because of what I eat. I've taken before photos (won't post them as they would scar you forever) and have stuck a photo of myself at my smallest when I still thought I looked fat on the fridge for inspiration. I can do this!!!

Plonker!* I am rubbish today.

How is everyone today?
I went out for dinner with my friend from work, had a cheese salad (the ONLY veggie think on the menu that wasn't chips) and then we shared an ice cream sundae. Total calories for both of them, which luckily written on the menu, come to 700 (over estimated on the amount of ice cream I ate just in case) no still doing well 😬 Feel very very sleepy now though which I think is because I've had dinner. Same happened on Tuesday. This fasting thing suits me more.

Just writing this in the toilets so haven't had chance read everyone's posts I have fast wees but I'll be back when I've settled myself on the sofa!

The cheese salad sounds good! I've been ok today so far, had 4 fruit/veg and having an omlette for tea so will chuck some veg in that. I have had 2 mini flapjacks though in work this afternoon.
Lampert I hope you enjoy your minibreak. It's so hard to choose healthy options (if there even are any) in a restaurant isn't it. I always have good intentions then I'm like "well I'm here now I might as well enjoy it" and end up ordering pizza or something. Nice food is one of the best things about holidays! I have no willpower.

Cheese salad sounds like a good choice telly, and ice cream sounds yummy!

heir I used to be great in restaurants! I travelled with work so ate out 5 nights a week and I was sooo good. I could categorise that differently though because it was work. Now (even though we eat out at least once a week, if not more) I am hopeless. And now we are starting to think about having children in my head I always say 'oh well enjoy it because hopefully you won't have the opportunity to eat here' soon. I am full of excuses.

I have however managed another day of fasting and Looking forward to an early dinner tonight!

benham how are you?

Well I have well and truly fallen off the wagon😭 Got invited to an impromptu meal straight from work at a Asian all you can eat buffet. The food AND the desserts are to die for. I can't even begin to list what i ate but as long as it didn't have a face, it went in my mouth. And we were only there a hour. I feel so, so dissapointed in myself. I am never going to be able to do this if I keep doing this :(

Tellys anyone would crack in that situation!! How could you not?! Just chalk it up and focus on tomorrow!

lampert yes make the most of those relaxed meals out while you can! That's exactly the kind of thing I would tell myself too...

I am never going to be able to do this if I keep doing this

You are never going to do this if you beat yourself up for the odd indiscretion, and give up.

Indiscretions will happen. You have to be realistic. Life is for living, after all.

Tomorrow is another day. Either give up, or push on, it's completely up to you.

Everyone has off days telly. Just accept today has gone wrong. Tomorrow is a new day and is completely separate from today. You will do great tomorrow!!!!!

Well I've failed miserably. Haven't lost a thing this week. I know I haven't been 100% perfect but I have stuck to lower carb and one meal a day so I feel a bit despondent.

Thanks everyone! Just need to try harder. Had a terrible nights sleep last night. Barely slept for more than 30 minutes at a time and this morning I've woken up with tonsils the size of the moon so it's off to the doctors for me. Feel so rough.

Oh no Iampert. Please don't beat yourself up about it. It IS dissapointing (my first week of slimming world I PUT ON a pound and spent the day crying), but just think, you've made healthier choices all week, you've managed have a few treats and you haven't put any weight on. Weight loss is so, so, so difficult but you're making positive steps and losing nothing is still better than putting on. Enjoy your weekend away, don't give it a second thought and then crack on again once you're back.

Wise words tellys! Hope you're feeling better - and manage to get a good sleep tonight. When I got home from work last night at 8pm, my DH had bought two pizza express pizzas for dinner! So all my good veggie omlette intentions went out the window. Argh! I'm off work today so I'm going to make some soup for lunch and then freeze some for next week's lunches. It's so boring being organised but I have got time today so I'd better get on with it... or shall I catch up with Great British Bake Off instead?

Onwards and upwards is the only way. We can do it!

I think I have lost a couple of pounds this week but I forgot to weigh myself last week so not sure on the exact amount. But certainly a loss. Must remind myself that 1-2lb a week is the perfect sustainable amount...

Today's food: B - oats, pineapple and yogurt with a coffee. L - ham salad. Snacks at work - banana, nectarine, raw fruit bar, couple of teas. Loads of water. D - spaghetti carbonara.

Park run again tomorrow but I do allow myself Saturday's off calorie counting though still try to make sensible-ish choices. I hope the sun is shining on you all like it is here in Dorset and you're having a positive Friday.

Enjoy benham and well done heir!!

In my despondency this morning I found some crumpets in the freezer and scoffed one so I've not started today at all well.

Tonight isn't going to be good either because I'm doing pork stir fry and homemade spring rolls. I'm in holiday mode now!! Eeeeeek.

Oh dear. I am a disgrace. I've eaten all the food. And haven't even got near to dinner time yet.

Evening everyone! Hope everyone's had a good day. I have had a NIGHTMARE day, you know just one of them days where everything goes wrong. And I still feel absolutely terrible, off to bed soon.

Have you made the soup Benham? I have a stupidly expensive soup maker and have used it precisely twice since I got it

Good luck with parkrun Heir!!! I think having Saturdays off is a good idea, don't have to go crazy. I always have a takeaway on a Saturday night, haven't had a single thing to eat today because I feel so bad so
I'm praying I feel better tomorrow so I can get some hot, greasy, stupidly calorific food down me!!

Iampert, I LOVE crumpets. Red hot crumpets dripping in butter are my favourite thing to eat ever. Had to stop
Buying them though because I'd scoff the whole bag! But honestly, I would not worry at all. Just enjoy your weekend away, and crack on once you're back.

Ohhhhhh crumpets are THE BEST. With masses of proper salted butter and some strawberry jam...

I'm finishing today on 1,400 calories after adding a big glass of red wine and a yogurt after pasta for dinner. Not too dreadful.

Well done heir!!!!

Telly I do hope you feel better.

I feel dreadful this morning after too much food yesterday. My stomach is sticking out massively today.

I might be a bit quiet for a few days but I will be back!!!!

Morning Iampert! I've been up since 4, feel a million times better in myself (and managed get a few hours sleep) but my throat is still swollen and making it hard to swallow. Going to get dressed and go weight myself then come home and stuff my face try and get a couple of hours sleep. Have the best weekend away 😃

Heir that's really good, you're doing brilliantly. Good luck with park run today!

Just typed out a message then this stupid phone deleted it!

Anyway, 4lbs off!! Officially in the 13-14 stone rather then 14-15stone bracket now. Feel like Kate Moss 😂

Wow that's brilliant tellys - good on you!! I hope you're feeling better today as well. I did make some soup - carrot and lentil and chucked a load of curry powder in as well. I just used a stick blender that I've had for yonks. I did also make a cake as well - not really in the plan but my mum is coming over today so I thought I would! Heir food luck with your park run and lampert enjoy your weekend - love the sound of the spring rolls btw!

Food luck?! Sorry, food on the brain! Good luck I mean heir !

Excellent loss Tellys

Park run was fine, 5k in just over 35 minutes. Rather undone it now as we've been to a family day at DH's work where there was free ice cream and pick n mix. Free food doesn't count right?! Feel a bit sick from the sweets now Lots of water to attempt to flush it out this afternoon! And meatballs for supper.

How was thare cake Benham. I LOVE cake!!

Well done on the parkrun Heir! I took your recommendation and got some new running trousers from Tesco, jogged round the changing room to see if they fell down, ds was like

I had an ok day yesterday. DS had a birthday party so didn't go to his dads, aft r the party we called Maccies and I got some fries. Throat is still really sore but I was STARVING as I'd had nothing since thursday eve. Anyway, got them down me but couldn't taste them at all. Then I had a sandwich for tea but again, couldn't taste it. Logged the cals though and came in at 1000. Feels a waste of cals though considering I couldn't taste a thing!!

Day out with DS today, not sure I'll have anything eat, still don't feel very well. But we'll see

Happy Sunday everyone

That's an important test Tellys! I have a couple of really nice pairs of gym leggings but they're bugger all use as they fall down every few paces.

Today has been just a coffee for breakfast and BLT for lunch, no butter and a scrape of low fat mayo. Roast chicken later with lots of veg and potatoes done with frylight. Will remove chicken skin but not giving up gravy! I'm currently under a blanket on the sofa with a cuppa, it's so much bloody harder to diet when it gets colder, all I want is toasted things and pumpkin spice latte and custard on everything.