Minor hijack, but nappyadict - I saw the thriveline acetates once when we paid...deep breath...£160 to see a private paed....this was after the HV had told me to buy formula "in the next half hour" and the GP had told me to top-up with formula before every BF....
I had the BFN support but obviously GP and HV did not rate them, and put us down for a paeds referral, and told me I should ff until the referral came through, then bf after that if it was "ok" WTF....oh yes and referral could take 2-3mths....
can you tell I'm still angry?! Anyway long story short, lovely paed showed me thrive acetates, dd had climbed over them (all this was triggered by a 0.5oz weight loss ) and had never fallen. They were really quite extreme lines actually iyswim, the weight loss would have been quite drastic to go through them. Paed said she was fine, keep on bf-ing, and wrote a stinky letter to the GP and HV. Hoorah!!
aitch you sound down - HONESTLY you will get there and somehow one day you have this mad mental hoover-gob of a baby who can latch on in pitch dark and sucks so hard she leaves you with a massive love bite if she gets the wrong bit! . I was in tears for weeks with desparation to start with, it just magically comes right, honestly. Do you like your BFC? Because I think that is key, try the other support groups till you get one you like. I had a bfn group near me, once weekly meetings were a lifeline.