August 2010: we're popping already!

[Chulita]

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In Sweet Memory Of Belle, Daughter Of CazEM. Our First August Angel Was Born Asleep
21.6.10 at 00:08, 4lbs 5oz

Arrived:
1st July - CherryPie BOY

Pending
20 July - Aussie #1, Nottingham , age 36 BOY
25 July - Emster #1, Walthamstow, 29, SURPRISE
22 July - 4 Aug) Chulita #2: Dorset , 27. BOY
26 July - Anifersgirl, #1, age 33 South Bucks, 33week scan extended breech GIRL
28 July - CazzyBabs #4, Cambridge , SURPRISE
29 July - CherryPie3, #3, West Yorkshire , Age 25, SURPRISE
29 July - BouncingBlueberries #2 South London , 33 SURPRISE
31 July - Missus84, #1, Bristol . Age 26 BOY
01 Aug - Nikalah, #1, Dorset . Age 35, GIRL
01 Aug - Bumblingaround #4, SURPRISE
02 Aug - Dibbydab, #1, Devon . Age 34 SURPRISE
02 Aug - summerymummy, #2, age 29, Berkshire , SURPRISE
02 Aug - JamieJay, #1, Cardiff . Age 29 - GIRL
03 Aug - fuzzybunny, #2, age27, Somerset SURPRISE
03 Aug - carolondon #1 North London age 37, BOY
04 Aug - kcoffin #3. GIRL
04 Aug - girlyearapart #3 kingston Hospital Age 31 SURPRISE
05 Aug - RachelParker #1, age 26, Wandsworth ( London ), GIRL
06 Aug - YummymummyKJulie, #1, NW London , GIRL
07 Aug - NichyNoo, #1. Brussels . Age 30 - BOY
07 Aug - Weehector #1, Largs. Age 36.. BOY
08 Aug ? ElusiveMoose #2 Kent 33 BOY
08 Aug - DriedApricots #2, Surrey, SURPRISE
09 Aug - possiblenewmum #1, Guildford , age 31, GIRL
09 Aug ? Alice #2 Suffolk age 25, BOY
09 Aug - thecoffeelady #2, Fleet, Hants, age 32, SURPRISE
11 Aug ? CellyD #1, Walthamstow, SURPRISE
10 Aug ? SayAnything #1, Brussels , age 33, BOY
12 Aug - tunise, #4, Suffolk , age 31. GIRL
13 Aug ? Neenz #3 Liverpool (32) - SURPRISE
14 Aug - LCRLCR #1, Brighton , age 34, SURPRISE
14 Aug - Burkoid, #2 SURPRISE
14 Aug ? babyducky #2, Brighton , age 24, SURPRISE
15 Aug ? LizzieA #1 Wirral, 33, scan ok BOY
15 Aug - thedogwalker #1, age 37, Germany (originally from Halifax), BOY
16 Aug - parkgirl #1, 20wk scan fine - GIRL
16 Aug - Tah2 #3, South Wales . SURPRISE
16 Aug - Vix206 #1, Leicester , 32, BOY
16 Aug ? cakeywakey, #2, age 32, GIRL
17 Aug - Doodleydoo #2 Kent still just 34, SURPRISE
18 Aug ? Isheisnthe #3 Camberley, FPH, Age 33, BOY
18 Aug - biddysmama #2, Lancashire , BOY
19 Aug - marzipananimal #1, York , age 24 SURPRISE
19 Aug ? Bubbabear #1, Reading/Berks age 30, BOY
20 Aug - JessieEssex #1, age 33, SURPRISE
20 Aug - USMum27 #1, age 26, Wandsworth. GIRL
21 Aug - CrunchieNutterII #2, age 34, Devon , SURPRISE
22 Aug - Poncherello #2, North London , SURPRISE
23 Aug - chickieno1 #1, SURPRISE
24 Aug ? JaysFourth #4, age 38, GIRL
24 Aug - growingbump2, #2, age 25, Isle of Man , SURPRISE
25 Aug - Sal321, #1, age 31, Essex SURPRISE
25 Aug - Sam86 #2 Liverpool , GIRL
25 Aug ? aendr #2, Huntingdonshire, 33, GIRL
25 Aug - Joey30, #1, Halifax - West Yorkshire , age 30., BOY
25 Aug - Soontobefatnat #1 SE London Age 30, BOY
26 Aug - pamplem0usse, age 26, #1, Herts SURPRISE
27 Aug - Jamiki #3, SURPRISE
28 Aug - LittleMissSnowShine, #1, age 26, Belfast, SURPRISE
29 Aug - Hildainstant #1, Sunderland , age 30, SURPRISE
29 Aug - LilyPad72 #1, age 37, Berkshire , BOY
29 Aug - starshaker #2 & 3 Ayrshire Age 29 VIOLET TWINS
30 Aug - Sparkle #1, age 31, Kent SURPRISE
31 Aug ? vitapulchra, #4, Guernsey , 32, BOY
?? Aug - LittleMissSnowShine
02 Sept - MrsZaC, #1, Glasgow , age 26 SURPRISE
08 Sept - ronx, #2, London , age 37, SURPRISE

BABY COUNT*
*Boys - 20
Girls - 15
Surprises - 32

TOTAL - 67

pample hopefully you just have a UTI or something, not very nice but easily treated. Are you in the L hospital? Apparently i was one of the first babies born in their maternity unit so it is only nearly 26yrs old

Aussie bloody kids! Good luck, my waters went with a huge whoosh, it is a bit shocking if you are not expecting that isn't it?

MW this morning, all fine, baby 3/5 still but she is happy everything is going along nicely.

Think i might look into reflexology for 39weeks. Have decided against going down the sweep route, MW actually agrees with me but apparently she needs to offer.

Chulita i hope your BH have turned into the real thing. I have been plagued with them this time, so inconvenient!

aussie, where abouts in Notts are you? I am in Westbridgford

Nope! Still here, just had to get some groceries in and made the most of pottering around dorchester in the sunshine. A friend who was due on the 11th just texted to say she's heading into hospital so I can have my LO now - thought it would be unfair if I had mine first

alice why have you decided against sweeps?

Chulita we have looked into it, and it just seems like a lot of discomfort, some risk and no guarentee. DH is a Vet, so medically minded and where my research went as far as reading old MN threads, he looked at medical texts and between us decided it was too close to induction if it does work(which i'm not allowed) and quite possibly a waste of time and a bit of risk if it doesn't.

Sex is the option we are going for

Alice - I am indeed! Actually quite shocked by the overall level of care, interspliced with a few lovely staff. Oh well! Just had my er delicious lunch! Three cheers for dh who is bringing me some proper food later! He and his brother were in the last couple of years of births in the old hitchin hospital!

Ok, fair enough. I wasn't going to be induced but they've offered one pessary if I go 10 days over and since I'm desperate to avoid a cs I'm thinking of trying it. Hopefully it won't come to that though!

pample it's never too late to ask for a homebirth, I changed hospitals at 38 weeks with DD. Hope they let you out soon and that it's nothing serious!

Afternoon all

Hope it all gets going properly soon aussie, good luck!

Hope you're ok too pample & hope you get your homebirth.

Had loads of BH again all day, so uncomfortable

Good luck aussie it sounds like something could be happening. Did they recommend you walking or anything like that?

Hope you feel better soon pample horrible being in hospital isn't it? Esp in an ante natal ward where people keep going into labour!

alice I'm booked in for reflexology on Saturday. By then I'll be 38+3 so hoping it'll do something.

bluberries did you go into hospital when your waters broke or once contractions began?
I asked the doctor the other day if I could stay at home after waters break but she said you have to go straight in. I know for sure that if my waters break the same way as the other times I won't be in any doubt and could do with minimising time spent at hospital.

Really felt something was going to happen last night but all tailed off again and today is just on and off..

Hi girls, just checking in mainly on Aussie and Pample, hope you're both okay girls!

I have had a fab day. Not only did I sleep for a whole 5 hours last night (which is such an improvement for me) but we have had a full asking price offer on our house fro a lady who is in a position to move immediately. So it is all systems go, obv. pending surveys etc. and we need to find somewhere to live now! DH is going on a mad househunting spree this weekend and then taking me back for 2nd viewings.

No way we'll be out before baby comes so not worried about homebirthing, in a funny way its probably ideal timing really...

Anyway, be back later to check on the patients xx

Excellent news vix!

Ok girls...
The good news is I'm home! Looks like I picked up a nasty virus and feeling much better....
The bad news.... they gave me a scan and baby has elevated fluid levels around him/her which means (1) no home birth (2) I get to spend three hours in hospital tomorrow morning having the dreaded glucose tolerance test (3) if they've not reduced when I have another scan on Tuesday then I'm not going on my weeks holiday a week Friday.... and (4) there needs to be a paedeatrician present at the birth to check babies digestive system..... and (5) baby is likely to arrive any time after 37 weeks, if not before.

So I'm more than a little upset. Especially after it took me nearly three hours last night to get the pain relief I needed, the majority of which I spent screaming out in pain like I;ve never had before. After pressing the buzzer once and going to reception and being told it would be five minutes (and then an hour or so passed) I had to practically crawl to the reception to ask again....

pamplem0usse - bugger...hope levels have reduced.

oh god dd3 has just done a poo on the grass...better go and sort it out (can't really expect dd1 to do that sadly)

Oh dear Pamplemousse, I'm so sorry to read that I'm glad your home now though.

I was just coming on to post this...

Our hypnobirthing lady read this to me in one of our sessions and it made me cry. It is a bit OTT in places but I think it is lovely - especially the 2nd verse which is really nice!

Mothers conversation with her unborn child

Dear Little Baby Inside Me, I Want You To Know:

In am involved in a wonderful experience.

I am having a baby, and you are that wonderful baby.

I welcome this experience with such happiness.

I can feel the changes taking place in my body.

My womb has become a temple of joy because of you.

I can feel you grow within me, and my body swells with pride.

I love the way I look.

I?m taking good care of myself for both you and me.

I?m eating properly for both you and me.

I take pleasure at the thought of your moving inside me.

My life combines with yours in love.

I?m preparing myself for the time when you will be born.

I feel you within me ? strong and healthy.

I?m carrying you with such loving pride.

I feel the exciting bloom of being pregnancy.

I have a beautiful glow about me because you?re in my life now.

I nourish you with love and take care of my body.

I?m learning to relax more every day.

I look forward to your birth with such joy.

I am confident about your easy birth.

I?m practicing relaxation so that you can move easily and comfortably into this world.

All doubts are put aside as I look forward to your birth.

I keep my mind calm and peaceful so that you can be calm and peaceful.

I talk to you with love each day.

I?m preparing for your easy birth.

I become more elated as each day brings us closer to your birth.

I love the thought of your coming to me.

When you?re born, little baby, I will give you love so that you may grow in love and trust in yourself and others.

I promise to talk to you in such a way that you will listen, and I promise to listen to you in such a way that you will talk.

I will respect your right to be yourself and I?ll try to help you to learn to respect the rights of others.

I promise to encourage you to seek answers that will lead you to know and appreciate this wonderful world around you.

I promise to teach you with love and guidance, rather than anger and punishment./

I will teach you, and I will learn from you.

I will provide opportunities for you to help you grow in love and happiness.

I see you, little baby, coming from my womb; and I see you cradled in my arms.

I?m elated at the thought of your coming to me.

Dear little baby, I Love You.

Pample So sorry to hear your news, I hope your levels drop soon.

Vix that is lovely. I've been doing hypnotherapy which is similar to the hypnobirthing, lets hope it helps when we really need it [smiile]

need somewhere to have a good moan.

Im fed up, cant stop crying just want them out. Im seriously hirmonal today and taking everybodys head off. Im not very good at letting people see im not coping but today i broke down to a friend. Everybody thinks im doing great cos i dont complain about niggles and stuff when in actual fact its really stressing me out. I get constant niggles and with they would either come to something or just stop and give me a break. My head is thumping and nothing is shifting it. I am like a swollen ball and have protein in my urine but since my blood pressure is ok its like nothing else matters. My mate just called and is coming over to try and save my sanity. I just want to sleep but i cant and im just having a shitty day

Oh Star honey - I'm so sorry. I hope you feel better too. We've all had crappy hormonal days but it must be very difficult without the DT's dad around an carying two of them. I hope your friend does the job and manages to help you feel better. Maybe you should let out those little niggles a bit more then they might not build up. Sounds obvious and I know it is cooler up where you are but could you be dehydrated at all?

Jaysfourth how did I not notice that you are in Notts and West Bridgford too???!!!!! I am on Compton Acres. I just started going to Babycakes at the Larwood & Voce this week - have you been?

Pample - glad you're home and hope things settle down by your test tomorrow. So sorry for how much pain you were in - sounds very traumatic

GYA - yes I've been told to walk and bounce on the ball etc. Except by my mother who wants me sat with my feet up on the bed and a cup of tea in one hand and was not impressed that I went out this afternoon...DH says I should not have told her - he has a point!

Alice too right it was shocking! My reaction was a mix of "what the hell is going on?" and at the same time knowing exactly what was happening as it was pretty obvious! DH was very cool considering how quickly he had to jump out of bed!

Nothing exciting happening now though - still just very mild irregular contractions. Boo

Can't remember who said (sorry - tis on previous page) but yes they will leave you up to 72 hours post waters breaking but the view of my hospital is that if labour does not start within 24 hours it probably won't start without help so it is not really worth the risk of hanging on another 48hrs. Not sure to what extent that 72 hours would take me to Saturday has on their view Will see what overnight brings.

Take care all

ohh star - moan away love

I wish I was closer and then I could offer to take your dd and you could get some sleep

I am seriously fed up too - fed up of needing to have my bp taken (I am not), fed up of taking medication, fed up off being hot, fed up of constantly having no energy, fed up of feeling guilty because I can't be bothered to see the midwife, arrange a growth scan etc etc

and I love being pregnant and feel so sad that my last one is having all the pleasure taken away

AND I AM ONLY HAVING ONE

Firstly - congrats to Emster...really happy for you! James is a lovely name - we've decided on it for our LO's middle name (not decided on first name yet).

Aussie - how exciting!!! You have prompted me to put the mattress protector on my bed Will be thinking about you tonight and hoping that things get a move on so you don't need to be induced.

star - hang on in there! Just think of how it will all be worth it in the end. I have a friend who sounds really like you and finds it difficult to let people know she needs help...the things she has coped with on her own in the past cos she hadn't wanted to bother family/friends! Remember though that people are your friends cos they want to be there to help and support you so please don't be scared of asking them and trying to put on a brave face.

We had a scan yesterday - predicted birth weight for LO is 8lbs8...and he still has a very big head. Slightly scary and although I'd prefer not to have an epidural I feel I might not be able to cope otherwise.

Friend has gone home now and feel a little bit better. Just feel that after 5 miscarriages i shouldnt even think about moaning cos im so lucky to have got this far and will have 2 babies at the end of it. She said she had been waiting for it but i always seem ok and it was only a matter of time before i had a mini meltdown. Dinner has now been had (at 9.30 ooops) but it was cheese toasties cos the thought of cooking did not fill me with the joys of spring lol. Think this is why ive been a bit quiet on the thread for a bit as i didnt want the only time i post to be moaning about how im feeling.

pample the amniotic fluid levels will probably decrease.........I had increased fluid a few weeks ago and had to have gtt and scans but the fluid is back to normal now. Sometimes it depends on how they do the measurements. I do know how it feels though and is unsettling but hang in there!

All the best Aussie. Hopefully walking around and sitting on the ball helps. Can't wait to hear your news!

Star you poor thing. I can't even imagine how you feel as you probably have double the hormones in your system! Hope you feel better tomorrow.

Star, very sorry for how you're feeling. You really shouldn't hesitate to come on here and complain to us--isn't that what this thread is for? You've an awful lot to deal with, and I hope you feel better and physically stronger again soon.

Aussieglad you're contracting that's hopeful, isn't it? I hope, hope, hope that all goes well for you tonight with no induction. Best wishes for you and LO.

I had a lovely mw appt today, who confirmed that although I seem to be on target for growing a large baby (and I'm only 34 wks), that the size of my mahoosive bump is much more related to a complete lack of muscle etc and is not indicative of baby's size! She thinks I'm carrying him as if in a pouch, in front of me, rather than attached to me. I found this comforting, and then thought I had better invest in some postnatal Spanx. Am going to hunt online tomorrow. Finally off to bed--hope everyone has a good or at least better night of sleep tonight.

Hello Lovely Mumsnet Ladies

This morning we have received your beautiful gift in memory of Belle. We are so touched by your thoughtfulness, you have all been so generous and are such special ladies ? the idea of the rose is just perfect and we thank you from the bottom of our hearts. We look forward to it arriving in the Autumn and will choose her pot very carefully. When it is altogether I will take photos and post them on my profile for you all to see.

I will be honest, I had a cry while looking at the card and reading what you have organised for us. The card is beautiful ? out of all the cards we?ve received in the last month this one means the most to me, somebody has taken the time to make a card especially for Belle and that is really special. We?ve put the card next to Belle?s photo on our cabinet .

Thank you also for the lovely ?Our first baby? thread, ? we did find and read it and you?re messages of support were all lovely and appreciated. I just didn?t feel in a place to respond at the time. Also thankyou for remembering Belle on the August arrivals and waiting room list, it made me cry again to see her name there and existence acknowledged. Pample said she passed on messages I sent to her via FB so I know you will know about Belle?s birth already.

As hard as giving birth to her was ? all the pain, physical and emotional, I did it for her ? and she arrived totally beautiful. She looked peaceful and like a tiny beautiful sleeping doll. We spent 12 hours with her after she was born, we both held her a lot, I dressed her myself, took lots of photos, hand prints, foot prints and made lots of memories. DH still cut her cord, and I still had her led on my chest, against my skin for over 2 hours, DH had her against his chest for a while too and we took everything about her in. We couldn?t take our eyes off her. But we knew when the time was right to let go her somewhere she would be safe, handing her over and leaving the hospital without her was excrutiating. Her handprint has since been engraved onto a heart charm (miniaturised) and her name engraved on the back and attached to a bracelet. (Company called Pitter Patterns), and I wear this every day so a little piece of her is always with me.

You are right ladies ? Belle would?ve loved pink and she would?ve been a really girly girl, because I?m positive she would?ve followed her Mummy that way! While we were waiting for Belle to arrive my Mum knitted her a tiny little pink cardigan for her, and so she would have something to fit her properly ? she looked so pretty in it, pink suited her well.

It is hard to believe 4 weeks have passed since Belle arrived sleeping, she was just perfect in every way. Her funeral was on the 28th June and we made it a very pink day. Me and DH bought new pink clothes to wear for her, her orders of service were printed in pink and many of her floral tributes were pink. Even her ?forever bed? was pink and we sent a pink heart-shaped balloon to her in the evening.

I couldn?t be prouder of DH ? he has truely shown what a wonderful man I married. He didn't leave my side the entire time we were waiting for Belle to arrive. I know its cliché but we feel stronger than ever, if we can get through this in our first year of marriage, we can get through anything, our 1st wedding anniversary will be on the 1st August ? he has been amazing and a wonderful and strong Daddy to Belle. He has been there constantly for me and bared Belle to her resting place, a resting place that has enough room for me and her Daddy to join her when the time comes. I know some may think this very morbid ? but we find it comforting to know that one day she?ll sleep by our sides forever and we?ll be reunited as a family. Here and in heaven. I believe wholeheartedly my angel is safe with Jesus.

After much deliberation I decided to make an album for Belle on my FB page ? I know this has probably not gone down well with all of my FB friends but it somehow didn?t feel right to me that she wasn?t there, like her existence was being ignored almost by me not including her on my page ? she is a member of our family and we?re VERY proud of her. I?ve also put one photo of her on my MN profile.

Life is in all honesty blurry at the moment and feels like nothing will feel normal again. Something has changed forever ? it all hurts so much. There are many what ifs at the moment and an enormous feeling of guilt, I was supposed to keep her safe. We?re taking each day as it comes at the moment and obviously some days are better than others, at the moment I consider just getting through the day to bed time a successful day. I?m finding a lot of comfort in the SANDS website and support forum on there at the moment. Thank you for making a donation to them on our behalf with your generosity. I have a feeling SANDS will become our lifeline in many ways, we?re not sure about going to an actual support group or meeting at the moment, but we?ll see how we feel as time goes on, but the forum on the website is enough at the moment. I?m also talking to lovely ladies on the bereaved mummies thread on MN, they have been a great support also.

We don?t have any answers ? and may never get any. We refused a post-mortom ? Belle was too tiny and perfect to be touched, but they took placenta, cord, loads of blood from me and swabs for testing. The Drs were not hopeful about finding a cause though ? they have said that even with a post-mortom the likely hood there is every chance there will be no known cause. However we should get the results of all the other tests in the next couple of weeks. I?m not sure at the moment whether I will find it more comforting to find a cause or not. That probably makes no sense though and I don?t know how to explain it!!

Anyway... I do think about you all often and I really hope you?re all doing well and getting excited about impending births! People on #1?s ? wow it?s like nothing you could possibly imagine!

Huge congratulations to Cherry on the arrival of Corey and Emster on the arrival of James! I?ve seen both their pictures on FB and they are very handsome little men! Aussie all the best for overnight - I wish you a smooth arrival of your little boy!

Pample I hope you feel better soon and that your levels go back down to normal. Thank you so much for the messages on facebook and organising with everyone these lovely things for Belle. Thank you to everyone who was involved.

I will keep checking in over August and September (and beyond if that is ok!) to see how everyone is doing and ?meet? all the little new arrivals!  I can?t promise to always be strong, but I will post when I can. You have been so lovely to us, and I have felt your virtual arms of support and love around me today. It would be lovely to keep in touch with you all.

I hope I haven?t said too much and that nothing said has upset anyone. It wasn?t my intention ? I just wanted to give an update on where we are I?m sorry its so super huge!!!

Much love, Caz and Jon (DH) x x x

P.S - no idea what the funny numbers about at the end. I must've rested my hand weirdly for a moment and not noticed....

antenatal class ran over & didn't finish until 10.20 tonight!! Was good tho, breastfeeding one. But now having trouble getting to sleep as when I lay down I get a foot (feels like a whole leg) in the ribs. Oh well, I wanted him head down so I guess those lil legs have to end up somewhere!

vita I've just ordered a Spanx. Shopped around online at the wknd & found the QVC website the cheapest, tho may depend on what ur looking at getting I suppose.

Congrats on the house Vix, so exciting (as if u need more excitement now!)

Big hugs & choc brownies for Pample & Star x

Eyelids getting droopy now, hopefully off to sleep in a min...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sorry CazEm I cross posted. Lovely to hear from you hon & u stopped me falling asleep (but in a good way!) You will always be part of the group, nothing has changed that & little Belle will always be in our hearts and memories too bless her.
I've seen the pics of her on facebook that u talked about, adorable little angel! Love the one of your hands together, so lovely. What a touching idea about the necklaces too, they sound very special.
Hope things get gradually easier each day for both of you. Don't be a stranger & make sure u pop by for cake & goodies / giggles / moans / virtual hugs whenever u feel the need x