Bunny, I'm so sorry . Look after yourself, and make sure you take all the time you need to grieve for your little one.
Bricking myself about my scan next week now, particularly as I'm going to have DS with me (and DH, thank goodness). It makes it harder that all the people I've told (mainly my parents and ILs) just see it as a mere formality, and breezily brush aside any worries I voice. At least my sister understands - although she's never had a MC, to my knowledge, she did have a high risk nuchal scan with her second, so she knows that these things aren't always straightforward (baby was fine, by the way).
Also feeling a bit weird today because I got a date for my 20 week scan in the post, which seems a bit premature when I don't even know if I have a viable pregnancy yet! I've also got a letter telling me about an obstetric appointment on the same day, which is a bit weird because I didn't know the MW was referring me to a consultant. Might be because my last birth wasn't entirely straightforward - ventouse birth followed by retained placenta - but you'd think she might have told me about the referral.
Another random question/paranoia - is anyone else's bump inexplicably high? My bump/fat/whatever seems to start directly under my ribcage! I don't remember this from last time. Maybe it's just all the other bits and bobs being pushed up out of the way, because there sure as hell shouldn't be any baby up that high yet !!