hellloooo. bless you lot asking after me.
Well, no baby. had loads on at weekend like family visits etc and couldnt get on the net.
yesterday midwife came and she asked when i would like to consider induction. i just sobbed as ive spent so much time researching natural birth etc and i just felt so deflated. Asked her to get me a scan etc to check placenta function etc first and said i would review it midweek with a view to induce on friday maybe when i hit 42 weeks. Sat yesterday crying as just felt like this baby will never come and i just couldnt think about it anymore.
4.30am wake up with almighty contractions, im not timing them as im trying to coast through this bit. Dh is still asleep, so weird as i said to him i want it tomorrow, i'll start at 4am to ensure you've had some sleep at least and lo and behold...im sure im in labour. well, these bloody hurt these contractions, my bowels have evacuated which i know is good and i had the snottiest show yet.
i'd love to say i'll do a live birth thread but actually im trying to get in the zone and breathe contractions away as per hypnobirthing etc and laptop doesnt appear conducive to switching off the "rational" brain.
If this stops again, i will be drowning myself in the birthpool but i will text twinkle first to at least let you all know.