Thank you DW and Sparkle I have spoken to DH, maybe it's time to bend the mw's ear!!! Reading your replies made me cry!!! ARGH!!!!
I think the main problem is that I was in hospital for almost 5 days and, whilst I was in a single room, I was able to call for help if needed - I only did this for additional pain relief and twice when James choked on muscus (not shifted due to cs birth). I coped with everuthing else on my own and really enjoyed our time alone. We had visitors of course!!
I don't feel helpless, just sleep deprived and in pain. I also feel bad that he's only had 1 bath!!! DH and I WILL be bathing him tonight. The guilt they make you feel is terrible!!!
BF mw was 'round today and has reassured me I'm doing everything right. My nipples are cracked and sore so I need to make sure I take him off and reposition him if he's hurting me, even if it is 2 in the morning!! She also advised ALWAYS offering the 2nd breast after winding him after the first breast - this will fill him up and make him sleep longer. I did this at 3pm feed today, 30 mins on 1, 10 mins winding and 15 mins on the other and, at 7 pm, he's still asleep!!!!
A small victory me thinks!!!