Well really, really exhausted thanks to all the thank less chores I do 24/7 on top of working 4 days a week, general finances and organisation and looking after/playing with DS!
Even worse while I am rushing and getting stressed trying to pack everything into the day I need to do DH says things like "what is up with you woman" or "calm down" or "why are you rushing" or "i'm fed up with this" when I tell him how fed up i am and his comments are a pain in the arse!
Don't get me wrong I like the feeling of keeping things nice and looking after my family. Yes ... weirdo. But the horrible thing is feeling not appreciated or DH even beginning to comprehend everything I do. Even worse on rare occasions making out I haven't done much or no big deal.
But especially now it wouldn't harm DH to help out without me nagging him into it. On the odd occasion he does help he goes on about it for ages forgetting my 10 things done for his 1.
I hate that I have to fight DH on basic things he should just do like put clothes away or put in wash basket. Put pots in dishwasher. Put empty toiletry bottles in bin rather than leaving around the bathroom. The list goes on and on ...
An eg of typical day (yesterday) ...
6.30am - Get Up
6.30 to 7.45 - tidy up house, empty dishwasher, put stuff away, lunches (which DH has then buys something also!), breakfasts (if toast I get mine cold), get DS clothes & creams out, DS nursery bag.
DH gets DS ready for nursery.
7.45 or later - My shower! Throw on clothes do hair but not get time to dry it.
8am - Leave home and take DS to nursery. Then travel to work.
8.30am to 5pm - WORK. 1hr lunch spent doing food shop or finances or organising bedrooms plastering and decorating.
5.30pm - Pick DS up from nursery.
5.40pm - HOME. Organise plumber. Entertain parents who have come to help with electrics. Washing, put in tumble dryer, amazon purchase for mum, help dad with electrics, DS, cook tea, put DS toys away in garden and house, mop kitchen, utility and out building floors.
8.30pm - Have thrown together, no nutritional value tea.
8.40pm to 11pm - Ironing. Whilst DH sat down and coming out with comments like above.
11pm - SIT DOWN for the second time since been at home. REST feet that are killing and feel sick.
11.30pm - BED.
Then all again the next day. Unless a day off work or weekend when I do more stuff like washing, hanging out, ironing, shopping, cleaning bathroom and playing with DS.
So but and upset at the same time. I love my DH very much (cant tell you why) but I just wish even if he didnt help more he would show ANY appreciation for what I do and LOVE for me apart from saying so every now and again or cards on special occasions.
To be honest I always feel that unappreciated and shit that I dont believe DH when he tells me he loves me. Just feels like something he says because there is never any substance behind it.