Hello
Kat13 and Monkeysmama - I've added you to the Due In May list...
Azaduhi - sending you happy birthing vibes. I'm so jealous! I can't wait...
Mind you, I had a couple of whopping contractions last night, thought everything was kicking off and immediately went into blind panic mode! I need this baby not to come until Monday, when my midwife is back on duty
mm - don't panic. whatever happens, you will be fine. Childbirth is the MOST extraordinary experience you'll ever go through and it's absolutely amazing. Just let yourself surrender to it, don't try to analyse it too much and trust in your body's ability to do what it needs to. Your best bet is to switch your brain off, if that makes sense.
On the pushing thing, I had an epidural the first time so I couldn't feel to push. However, it was still really great to be ACTIVE, if you see what I mean. For the whole first stage, you're just carried along on the contractions but you're not actually doing anything. Just getting through it. But then suddenly you are pushing, and you feel so much more in control.
Other people I know who didn't have epis have said things like "It's like being sick downwards" ie. you don't control the pushing - you can't not push, if you see what i mean. And most have said that the pain is much less at that point and that it's actually really enjoyable. One said it feels like when you do a huge poo (sorry TMI) and can't stop it coming out of you. But on a bigger scale I guess .
Hope this helps - I'm nervous about the second stage too, as that's what might do more damage to my poor old pelvic floor but i think, once you're in it, your'e just doing it and have to go with the moment.
Sorry if that's an essay!