Hi girls, sorry i havent been around, but i was admitted to hospital on the 22nd and only left yesterday... cutting a very long story as short as possible...
spent the weekend contracting and feeling very 'heavy periody achey' down below, went to hospital onthe monday on midwives advice... spent the next 7 days contracting, they stopped (well slowed down and agravated) labour long enough to give me 2 steroid injections for Logans lungs, i was on a horrid mixture of pethadine and tramadol, as well as stemitil to stop sickness caused by the drugs... then on the thursday i spent 14 hours on delivery ward (my 3rd visit there that week) contracting every 3 minutes... it was hard and agony... i wasnt dilating and then things slowed off.. apparently due to various drugs. they wouldnt help me dilate cos of gestational age, although they know i couldnt dilate naturally with either of my last two.
i then spent that weekend on a real downer still contracting regularily and in lots of pain, but no dilating although cervix has softened and 'effaced' (basically it has got ready)... i got so down that i spent sunday afternoon putting together a letter (well a plea really to help me via induction etc) for my consultant only to discover on the monday he was on leave until this monday coming, the 5th.
i was gutted, another consultant stepped in and was sympathetic, but reluctant to induce me at this stage due to babys age and my previous section in 2000. he did hint that if i was his patient he wouold opt for a c-section next week, but didnt want to step on my consultants toes (ridiculous!) he did however try to make me more comfortable by chnaging my drugs and getting me through to monday morning when my cons returns... he gave me morphine patches for my arms as well as additional morphine jabs to give me a reprieve from contractions and prescribed sleeping tablets... the result?? i have now suffered 3 fits.
i discharged myself last night with my midwifes backing and i am now referred to as 'an inpatient in the community' they still have my notes etc at hosp. mw see's me daily and i go back to see cons on moday, but i am comfier and i had to put my family first... they were struggling after such a long time... docs have taken away the morphine jabs (though kept the patches) and the sleeping pills to try to prevent further fits. though i will now have to see a neurologist to discover why they are really happening and if they are pregnancy or drug related or if this is something i will now suffer... the tests they can do in pregnancy are limited so this will take time...
so until monday i am on co codomol tablets, tramadol, and fentanyl (morphine patches) to help my tired body cope with contractions, as well as anti sickness (caused by drugs, but i'm still really sick) and antibiotics for UTI (caused by drugs),,, its ridiculous.
on monday i am begging my consultant to get this baby out.. you prob think i am being selfish and i am sorry, but he has shown to be very happy on every monitor and trace done, his scan showed he already weighs around 5lb 4oz (last thursday) he has had the steroids to boost his lungs and i will be 34+3 when i see cons on monday... meanwhile i am not coping, i am still contracting and suffering horrific back ache and pains in my upper legs and 'saddle' area, i am so tired, my pain threshold is shot to pieces and the most likely reason for my fitting is the drugs i am on, which i have to continue until i have Logan... so i am in a hurry to have this baby now.
sorry this is such a long and selfish post, but its so much to update! i may be on briefly tomorrow, and i trully hope that when i next speak to you all, after that, it will be to say the consultant has agreed to some form of assistance and i will be getting ready to go in.
i have been thinking of you all the last 10 days and wishing you all the best of lyuck with you and yours. xxx really sorry to be so glum xxx